I’ve not been in this thread until recently, as Emperor’s aims and results have often eluded me. Since I’m on LB and Emperor presently, I’ve been thinking about things which I normally don’t.
Goals, for one.
I was just reading a thread which @Skadoosh responded to, and he kept clarifying the need for specific goals. I had new thoughts while reading, because like I said, having goals have very rarely been given much thought in my life.
What I’m realizing is my lack of self-love has heavily crippled any growth or movement in naming and pursuing goals. No, that’s not some self-help, guru-led parroting of opinions. I’m finding it very true while running LB. It’s those seemingly small decisions like
- Should I cook something this weekend?
- Maybe I should give more thought to how and where I spend my money
- I wonder if Heartsong might open me up to dating once again
These decisions are not “how can I make enough money so I can lose my job”…
but they are the very foundation of such decisions. Growth is simply a result of self-care. And for me, Love Bomb is rooting into my life slowly, correcting me where I’m aiming wrong, and Emperor picks up that growth and runs with it.
And to give a recent experience, this morning I allowed myself to consider some hopes and dreams that I desire and are very possible. I share this since normally I actually negate positive possibilities in my life in a very non-self-loving way. Most of these are little to-dos I could do and enjoy. This morning, I allowed it. I then got up and did something I’ve been avoiding for weeks, and even started my laundry (vs. pushing it off until later).
Self-care and self-love are making an obvious difference to me. I’m even wondering about things which don’t seem quite Emperor-inspired. They’re just desires I have.
Self-love is allowing this.