Ran two loops of EOG ST1 (the new beast). It hits harder than the previous version. I’m finding visualising hard, probably because the limiting beliefs are staring at me right in my face.
I’m realising that most of my actions in terms of building the business (not in terms of learning) are towards extending the runway and not on revenue generation. No wonder, inspite of skills and regular development of myself, I don’t find much revenue to show for it. This came up with the previous EOG as well, and I dismissed it, fought it. But, the patterns are the truth. The energy to manifest money or my actions are blocked and I need to find out why, so that I can clear it.
I have no trouble visualising or manifesting even. It really works for me, I visualise it and then I have it. However, this energy being blocked, I wonder what the root cause is.
Maybe it is trying to play safe and not take risks, while risks are inherently the nature of it.
In that regards, ASBR or Emperor work much better than EOG ST1. After all, that’s what they are designed for.
So, why don’t I stack ASBR or Emperor with EOG ST1?
I realised that Emperor and ASBR work brilliantly for me. I mean, I am productive and I am going out there. Things go really well.
But, the whole action of it, I feel I need to address the root of it. That’s where Emperor Executive comes in for me. I’m stacking EOG ST1 with E:E for the reason that, the action taking part towards wealth generation gets resolved and the energy flows freely.
It is a wild ride, no doubt. Perhaps I can stack ROW as well on top of EOG ST1 as the third title. That one just seems to eradicate all limiting beliefs (transcendence).
But, I’m glad for the realisation and I will face the truth. This belief is honestly the driving one of my life because I was heavily bullied and cornered as a child. Never found support that felt like support to me growing up, although I’ve always had people and loved ones around me. I got into this cycle of negativity to get attention or feel important. And those patterns exist even today, over a decade later.
The feeling of worthlessness, that I’m not enough, that I’m going to lag behind no matter what, that there’s no point in working in my life.
Yet, I have the complete 180 degrees as well. Where I’m all swinging and I do really well. The extreme swings, drain me as well.
So, do I work on this, day by day? Well, I don’t think I need to build it brick by brick from start, because I can transcend it.
However, there is facing it that’s pending from a long time. I want to live not from fear, but from pure desire. That’s been my biggest understanding over the last month.
I’ve been blaming myself for doing good sales, or even working on my business monetary wise and that “I’m leaving people behind”. In fact, that drove me to dilute a part of equity. However, on Emperor this would have never been an issue. But, I was running EOG ST1 back then and did that. Is it wrong? I don’t think so. Because, today I can see the benefits of it. However, what drove me was this worthlessness.
I’m being candid, Subliminals work. They really do.
I’m going to spill a secret, knowledge is a curse as well. Just, make sure that you read and understand what you really want to know. It’s fun to go beyond, but you also take on certain beliefs that harm you. The goal isn’t to mature quickly or to know the most, the purpose I believe is to enjoy and just be without any strings attached. That’s freedom.
I read about Astrology, Numerology, so extensively that I can hook anyone for hours at a stretch by connecting the dots and reading their charts, with great accuracy. But that begs the question, is it Astrology or Numerology that drives us or is it our desire to know reasons that finds connections?
I’m starting to see the merits in the latter. That, the entire experience of our reality is within us. There are no planets or numbers that can define us. Patterns exist all around us, but it’s ultimate us that gives meaning to those patterns.
So, that’s just why I don’t do Astrology or Numerology readings for people and charge them. Everyone asks, why don’t you start your own practice? You will become extremely successful. To me, it sounds, “You just learn, you do nothing”, but that’s not true. It takes time to do everything that I’ve learnt.
But yes, what I’m getting to is, the amount of time I’ve wasted thinking about something faulty in my destiny, while my manifestations prove completely otherwise.
I don’t mean to intrude on anyone’s beliefs, I just mean to express my realisations, within my own existence. It’s almost parasitic to me, astrology and numerology. It’s an explanation for everything and I believe people get stuck in that. I can imagine a video explaining “Why you manifest what you manifest”. This whole community sounds like they are trying to mesh a reality as true, which may entirely be untrue. After all, if there was so much truth to it, why haven’t we progressed so far beyond? Ah, I see, an explanation.
I am realising now, the weight of what my mentor told me - Insights, not Opinions. Insights are backed by facts. Building castles in the air feels pleasurable, until you overlay that over the world to realise, heck! I’m so limited now!
These are my realisations and I’ve not journaled privately either, but I’m beginning to see the depth of this subliminal, like all others. This is power, because it has a far stronger effect on me than anything else.
As a gentle soul once told me upon an argument with my girlfriend, leave. That’s been another one of those realisations. That, I’ve been careless in choosing my partner. Even in this case, I’ve run on fear at times. The feeling not that she would leave me, emperor would never let that happen (nor make me feel that way), and at this point it’s rooted in my psyche.
But, that my image could be serially degraded by a person that wants to destroy. (This came from my ex, who blackmailed me to reveal the “ugly” side of me and destroy my reputation, it was a long distance relationship). Who apologised months later for being terrible and then compliment me that I was a great guy and that my intentions were pure, and she was just spiteful, and I reacted with anxiety and panic attacks. This was right before I started Khan btw.
Now, am I scared? Yes, but very tiny, and it concerns to the fights I’ve had with people.
Staying in relationships longer than healthy is what I got myself into. That, if I were to stand for myself, I could be blackmailed. Such a terrible association.
I believe, it all comes down to my own self worth. No amount of confidence or castles built on a weak foundation can really make up for faulty foundations. It was fear, and now I’m being nudged to step into desire. I welcome it.
Although, I don’t know how to resolve this last fear. Because it also happened during bullying and childhood. Some deep rooted issues, no doubt.
Two Loops of EOG ST1 btw.
