Introspection is so much easier with this, especially with connecting the dots. Not going into full detail on the event, but looking back I can see where others were in the wrong as well, and no longer just pointing the finger at myself.
It’s something that I have always struggled with tbh, I never had much issue with admitting my wrongs no matter how badly I didn’t want to do so, but I would always put more blame than I deserved, or all of it on my shoulders.
This is definitely a result towards self respect as I am pretty positive that this bad trait came from my past view point of not acknowledging my value and always seeing my self as less than others. Making it seem like I deserved the blame to begin with.
That’s clearly starting to change.