First impressions
Apart from the increase in socializing, the more present feeling is that DD is hitting me like a healing sub. Funnily enough, My fiancee and I are both listening to DD and both had “Closure Dreams.”
In my dream, I had a conversation with my old boss, and we repaired the relationship, had a good re-bonding conversation, heard each other out, agreed that me leaving the job was nothing personal, I opened up to him a little bit, and he said he admired me for how nonreactive I am in critical situations.
It was a really healing dream for me - the key is that it was with someone who my relationship with had ended on a slightly sour note.
Same for my Fiancee, she had a dream of an ex-boyfriend who she ended up hurting, and they had a closure conversation in her dream.
So, I’m seeing two separate instances, one day apart, of dreams meant to heal and repair broken relationships.
I can’t speak to my partner’s experience, but for myself, my relationship with my old boss was something limiting me from fully engaging in future professional relationships… it was always slightly lingering in my next professional conversations. NSE healing the stuff that matters.
DD has been hitting me like a truck from day one even though I’ve only been listening to 30s microloops. This is the perfect sub for me right now, but I have to acknowledge that NSE is treating this like a “healing” sub, pinpointed on probably the stuff I care about healing most. And it truly is healing the extreme number of limiting beliefs I have around socializing.
I’ve ben reflecting on them:
- My dad had a very fake persona… he was people’s BEST FRIENDS to their face and would shit talk them, hate them, behind their back, and then just blow up at them out of nowhere and end the relationship to their surprise
- Mum spent my whole life with her main challenge being she didn’t have one single friend (so I was her everything, but that’s beside the point)
- I was the most popular kid in elementary school, then moved when I was 10yr old, and went to the most BULLIED kid all of a sudden.
- My relationship currently has trust issues so I am on edge any time a woman talks to me even if it’s totally platonic
- My body language is awkward and I’m constantly self-conscious of it (voice, too)
- I’ve never cared much about fashion… today I was about to go out in the most “Baggy Sweatpants Outfit” of all time, last minute decided to go change and dress nice to work in a cafe.
I should note that even having awareness of these, which I never was able to put as succinctly as this until now, has already helped. Awareness of the negative influences is a powerful way to realize that they’re just PAST bs, not something that’s still in the present.