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Since I’ve stopped fighting this path, I’ve been having profound visions of paintings already.
It’s like I can instantly see my paintings in a second, every detail. Crystal Clear. In seconds. It’s like as im reflecting on my experiences and emotions, In a flash I get a vision of it…
I’m going to start writing more, and started to explore how I can produce my own style of music…
It’s blooming so hard. I think it’s blooming so hard for me and integrating because this has always been who I always was but too attached to money and fears of poverty that has abandoned it…
I play 5 instruments, was in Jazz Band, and I was probably the most talented improvised Alto Saxophonist in my high school days. It was effortless…
I abandoned that side of me and thus loss my innocence and childlike spirit… And I thought once I made enough money I can return to it… But it’ll be too late because Im no longer in the flow.
And the root cause of my unhappiness it appears to be how I’ve matured too fast and let go of my inner child. I’ve been miserable suppressing it for so long, and nearly killed it and killed my happiness in the process.
Man… @SaintSovereign @Fire Thanks so much.