My assumption? Heartsong is bringing up a lot of issues you have related to relationships and your way you learned yourself of coping with issue is by smoking. And when you smoke you often also watch porn. That shit is unavoidable lmfao.
Id recommend some possible more effective form of introspection. Possibly journalling, exercising, taking a walk, whatever works for you. Hell you could even remain within drugs territory and go for shrooms. That shit way more helpfull for introspection and dealing with issues.