After a 1 minute microloop, I had a family member ask to borrow money. The internal reflection and battle that occured was interesting.
I began asking myself deep questions about whether I would loan them money. I reflected on other times people asked me to borrow money.
I thought about whether there was something about my energy that invited these requests from close family members.
I thought about the rules I would have to set. Whether I even wanted to do that. Whether I could give the money and never receive it back and be okay with that. Was it worth losing a family member over?
Which it was not, but I have seen people get weird when they owe you money. And this family member does not have a history of properly managing responsibilities.
In the end I did not loan my family member the money. It wasn’t out of fear. It wasn’t about the amount. It was more about the precedent I would be creating and not wanting to be in a position of them asking for more down the line or completely ghosting me.
The thought process to get there was different than I’ve ever used to make a financial decision before.