St 1 has cleared out the residuum of negativity and unsolicited emotions in me so I would say it does. However, I cannot say to what extent. Sexual purification is predominant, naturally.
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In the 2nd cycle of St1.
Had wet dream today. Feeling guilty that I wasted the energy.
Does crucible help with this after listening to st4?
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I felt like sharing this because it feels relevant to those using Khan, especially those who are trying to get control of porn addiction or PMO issues.
I donāt expect anyone to watch this unless they feel that way inclined, so itās more for reference. I post the TLDR here of what I heard in the first fifteen minutes of the video that is relevant to those issues and KB.
The speaker is a prominent exorcist in the Catholic tradition and often deals with people struggling with deep emotions or addictions and things where they lose control of their lives. Through personal experience of what happened to me in NZ and at other times in my life I know that what he says is largely accurate. That being saidā¦
When people feel the pull to do something like PMO, it will often start as like an image in your headā¦ like a picture of you loosening your control, or perhaps of you are a āscientificā person treating it like an experiment, like can you experience PMO without it perverting you, can you change it into something that is in your benefit? There can be all sorts of subtle arguments you make to yourself to give in to the temptation. These images or unbidden thoughts are often all placed by external causes. Sometimes you can catch them in time and shut them down, but they will keep coming back until you give in.
What Ripperger says which I find very interesting and accurate, is that the areas in which you find the most of what we might call āreconciliationā on this forum, where you just want to give in to a temptation, these are usually the areas that the Creator has designs on you to try to excel in your life or to master. Iāll give you a non sexual example from my life (I do sometimes get hit by the urge to PMO just like a lot of people, although it has lessened in droves since I learned how to combat it).
In working on my business, I often have the urge to flit between different aspects of the work, or just give up entirely on it for several hours at a time, and especially when the mental work is difficult and I am having trouble methodically understanding a topic and reproducing the results. It can take a lot of energy for me to stay focused especially with the pain in my body and particularly my back or lungs, or the rebellion of the body against sitting still to focus on learning.
However, in my natal chart, the very area my Saturn is (which I recommend people look at if they are that way inclined, house and sign) is one that requires me to deal with mastering the finer points of every aspect of communication and mental gymnastics that is out there in order to āoutplay the other sideā so to speak in this game of four dimensional chess. Specifically, I have Saturn in the first degree of Virgo, square to my Sun. This creates a lot of psychic tension of the type you might call āreconciliationā which I have learned to deal with in my life, but to master that tension will bring me to the state of being a master communicator and marketer who can persuade people to follow the right path, and to use their own critical thinking skills. This would be devastating to the enemy.
My point here is, if you are experiencing problems in the area of sexuality and have chosen to run Khan Black to help you with this or to master that aspect of your life, donāt be concerned about the backsliding, but recognise the fact that the cause may be multi-faceted and use it as an excuse to work harder on your own mastery of this aspect of your life, and more specifically let the random unbidden images be cause for you to self reflect and ask yourself āis this really what I would want, or is this reconciliation/the enemy within speaking?ā
The Creator is omnipresent, omniscient and omnipotent. Think about what this means (and if you donāt believe in a Creator, consider the āOne Thingā of the Emerald Tablet). What this implies is that as Ripperger points out, the so called demons cannot lift a finger unless the power that runs the universe lets them. So, like Job, we can be tried in the fire so that we may become masters of our own domain. This means that āreconciliationā is a unique opportunity for us to rise above our limitations. Donāt waste it.
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Just finished 1 cycle of KB st1. Overall Observations:
- All thoughts related to porn/ masturbation are 95% erased. But occasionally, I can feel my body resisting the change and thoughts about porn interrupt me. But KB has easily allowed me to shift my focus elsewhere on my business or take the correct decision.
- Women do pay extra attention to your words and actions.
- I do feel the energy moving up from the base. The feeling disappears as it moves up my spine.
- I feel the heat of the crucible, as my body feels warm and I prefer to be shirtless a home. Thatās a recent development due to KB1.
- My sleep has improved and Iām more disciplined about going to bed and getting up at the same time instead of scrolling on my phone in bed.
- I am automatically getting up an 1 hr earlier each day.
- Overall more energy in general.
- I am becoming more passionate about the things I do, like as though my emotions are back to their original settings and are more richer and vibrant.
The sub does 80% of the heavy lifting in terms of keeping you focused, more energy, more drive, internal healing, etc but occasionally the body tests you by showing the things which were normal to you before like masturbation, mindless scrolling, procrastination etc.
Thatās when we decide to move forward and give our new selves a chance.
Recon:
the first time I listened to KB1 just before my sleep I could feel the heat moving up and down my body the whole night, didnāt sleep well that day. I relapsed to finding nemo the next day.
The same happened on the 2nd listen, there was too much sexual energy and I just released it bcz my body was like a flaming reactor & when my mind gave the option for indulgence I caved in.
After 4 times of KB1 at the end of 2nd week, I had intense recon where for 3 days straight I just didnāt wanna do anything. I didnāt go to muay thai class, didnāt work on the business, just scrolled on the web. i didnāt even wanna eat. I felt way too lazy.
Looking back on it, I can see it as my old self trying desperately to hang on, but thankfully I didnāt relapse to porn., even though I had waay too much energy. Now I feel like a whole new person and the urges donāt faze me no more.
I was listening to AM, RICH & KB1. I switched out AM for LE from the 3rd week and things have settled down. For the next cycle after washout is KB2,RICH,LE.
My gratitude to the creators for this awesome sub.
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Excellent feedback.
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Excellent feedback on stage 1 , just started myself ā¦Will run for 2 months , then next stage etc
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What did you learn about how to combat it?
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Thereās a number of strategies.
Obviously the first one is having interests that your are passionate about or invested in that take up a lot of your time, like for me learning Rust and Blender and working towards an app or other products to sell in the online market places. The less time you have for unbidden thoughts or images to enter your head, the better.
The second is that when you are in the middle of watching a video on some unrelated, non sexual topic and an image or thought pops in to suggest PMO, or other times it pops in when you are doing something else, make it a habit to recognise at that point the reality of what is going on. Ask yourself if this is really what you want, and what is the value to you of the other activity you are engaging in like learning something that will help your business.
It can also help to immediately follow that image/thought with an affirmation of distaste/disinterest and instead affirm your own strength of will, or engage in a short period of calling out to whatever spiritual assistance you normally connect with in prayer, if thatās part of your tradition, to help you combat the urge.
Basically its about creating effective habits as responses when you encounter the urge as well as having vigilance on your own thoughts. If you can make it past 30 days of consistently reacting by substituting a good habit in place when those thoughts come up, the new pathways can be established. I think thatās why people participate in things like No Nut November and so on, but you can do this at any time.
Also I personally find the exorcist perspective useful, whether it is the exact truth or not. The idea that the purpose of all these urges is to unbalance you and prevent you from reaching your fullest potential is a good thing to be reminded of, so ultimately not investing a lot of emotional energy in them when they come up is a path to preventing that unbalance from taking place.
Edit to add: I canāt emphasize enough the value of recognising the value of studying the way exorcisms work. And particularly the need to have an even emotional keel. When we are not in control of our own emotions, it is easy to be drawn into doing something without thought for the consequences. The same techniques we use to prevent a human from emotionally manipulating us can be applied to ourselves.
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Energy is good, but sexual desire is gone.
I think it might be KB2 since itās working on healing some of my sexual energy system. Social anxiety dropped, Iām much more charismatic and talkative (going back to how I was pre depressions).
Iām wondering if itās a normal process?
My sexual energy is working tho, I can get hard and have sex for a long time. Itās just the sexual desire part.
Has anyone experienced a lowered sexual desire from KB2 (not to confuse with sexual function my dick can get hard like a rock and my energy level is good).
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That might be why I was drawn to add Diamond back in my stackā¦
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You did what
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It depends on your age. If youāre past 35 thatās natural and it may be that KB has just brought you back to ānormalā.
Another thing is, KB is supposed to rechannel your sexual energy towards other goals than satisfying your sexual desires.
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*Masturbated
Sounds temporary to me. The kind of thing that happens as your body adjusts to an overall more powerful flow of energy.
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While watching Finding Nemo?
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Exactly what I wanted to know as well lol
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Yes, experiencing the same.
No interest to watch porn / no interest to go to clubs.
But am still in st1.
Can confirm.
I think, people with professions Involving physical work can easily appreciate this. You just can keep on working without getting tired.
Although am yet to see this effect in the gym.
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Thereās no problem from finding that is gone temporarily. Donāt forget the same energy we can turn towards sexuality can be turned to other things.
I spent eight years living with a BBW who was sexy as hell and who I loved having sex with whenever we were both on the same page. We both had our personal goals and I spent way too much time worrying about whether she was on my side or not. Itās really easy to second guess yourself about your own potency or worth when youāre not that woman who is interacting with you.
In a way this is really where you have to have faith that you have what it takes. For many years after me and my ex formally split those types of concerns surfaced in my mind every now and then but the fact still remainsā¦ we still communicate and have value to one another, and if we were the only two people left on this earth, I would be back there in a heartbeat, and so would she. And I know that without any doubt whatsoever, she still continues to send me semi-sexy pics of herself in bed years after the split.
Have faith in yourself as someone worthy to be fucked. You still have the machinery to make it work, why write yourself off just because youāre not feeling in the mood at the moment?
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Stage 1 and Stage 2 make me think twice about having casual sex. I ask myself what is their to be gained from it ? bang bang and what ?
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Yeah I feel thatās the work being done right now.
Same, I feel Iāll overflow with it soon enough 
Yeah same, well, some interest in hooking up, but it would be for the social status given.
Currently using that sexual energy for work, focus is off the chart.
Hahaha no worries about that my girl is very good at making me feel desired 
I feel I just want to understand whatās happening under the hood you know, itās reassuring to know whatās up.
Iām still having sex bc my girl want to soā¦ Itās just I never initiate with it, and Iām having a harder time getting fully aroused (Iām hard), but my body is not like in āmachine modeā where you have suddently high cardio and all.
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