Yep, Khan Black St1 is really the one that helps clear out bullshit, and puts me back in touch with my true self the most. I always feel it working in my root/sacral area.
Had a full loop about 5 days ago that put me into deep recon for a couple of days.
Realizations about family conditioning (earned love/emotional enmeshment/guilt/shame-related, religious/monogamy).
Then went rucking with someone and was surprised by the drive and speed at which I charged ahead , considering the really steep ascent of the trail. He´s relatively open-minded, compared to most people I´ve met so far, and we had deep talks about generational patterns, emotional incest and other forms of abuse inside of our families, and how to heal from trauma bonding.
Realized deep-seated avoidance pattern in my life that get triggered whenever I am asked to step into my power and how I kept myself in a space of avoiding living life.
Basically, I found the core-reason behind all my fears and self-sabotage.
On one hand I see my potential basically screaming at me to finally take charge, on the other hand I feel the massive amount of work necessary, which seems a bit daunting. There isn´t really anything I can do about it tho, besides tackling it head-on.
Time to take action.