I had more success with it than Executive in eliminating the root cause of procrastination and coming in terms as to why I am pushing away some of my projects.
With executive, I get pushed to work like a machine. Doesn’t matter why I’m procrastining, all that matter is I am moving and putting energy into my tasks. It’s less reflections and more doing, it’s like coffee. But soon as I don’t listen to it, I crash and lose momentum.
While on Fire, it’s much more complicated and natural.
There’s a deep dive into why I am making up excuses to some projects; it also helps putting plans into reality, like a schedule for my whole day for example and sticking to it.
I don’t wait for motivation, all i have to do is move and start whatever it is I wish to practice. It burns away all the nonsense and Illusions that are stopping me from taking action on my goals.
It also gave new meaning to suffering. My fingers were sore and despite the cuts on my thumb, I am still motivated to strum my guitar strings through pain. I’m also finding more creativity flowing through with random experimentation here and there.
There’s also the courage that came out, it’s far more easier to speak about uncomfortable matters or say what others do not want to say. Clear, concise and incontrol.
Helped me realize some of the fears I had about some ideas I had, despite them being destined to succeed.
I’m also resonating with others and uplifting, it’s almost like chosen but different, as in it uplifts others’ spirits in this calm spirit, not necessarily super positive like chosen.
It instills fearlessness and self-belief in my abilities, making every challenge passable.
Surprisingly, it helped me relax more and take better care of my health; Earth did to, where I ended up seeking medical examination for my lower back pain and an end to pain killers. After introducing Fire, I started taking it more easy on myself and not stay on my feet and cover the pain with medicine. As well as, generally accepting that I need and deserve rest and naps; I have a difficult time relaxing where I feel guilt for time that could’ve been better used for learning or creating something.
I have that Authenticity module in several of my customs and been on it for a long while now. But with Fire, it is pulled ever further with speaking without sugarcoating. As well as, discarding falsehood and pretenses whether with others or the mirror.
Previously, I would prefer to stick to a set of routines and random demands of life would bother me because of the routine disruption; but now I am just going with the flow and doing what I feel like I must do. Still consistent and disciplined but more open to random moments of inspiration.
Fire is one of my favorites. It disintegrates many different layers within us that connect to taking action and directing our energy towards what matters to us. Fire is like green tea/matcha, you get all the caffeine with coolness, calmness and concentration, non of those side effect.
Fire is helping me make the necessary changes that I need and follow through to achieve the vision of my reality that always plays in my head, spiritually, romantically, socially and financially.
There are much more changes that went through but this is what I remember.
