Regarding emotional transmutation, I’ve had a bit of a rollercoaster these past 2 days that I think Genesis helped me through.
For anyone who remembers I went through a painful breakup around 5-6 months ago.
Today is my ex’s birthday.
We are on relatively good terms and she texted me for my birthday, so I texted her. I tried to be thoughtful, kind, and authentic in the message wishing her well.
She responded politely, but used that dry
emoji that when girls use it with me I get rejection vibes of “I’m being nice, don’t read into it, I put this here because without an emoji it would feel robotic but I don’t want you to think this means anything other than that I didn’t want to sound like a chatbot”
It actually really upset me for like 5-10 minutes, but I let myself feel it, and went about my night, chatting with a friend (@Monarch) and browsing the forum and it eventually completely slipped my mind. By the time I went to sleep a few hours later I don’t think it was even remotely on my mind anymore.
Today I didn’t think much about her at all as I went about my day at my spiritist center, and anytime she popped into my mind I just mentally wished her well and that she’s having a nice day.
On my way out of my house to go for a sunset ruck through the park, I glanced at her house (we live across the street from each other still LOL), and noticed her lights weren’t on, so I figured she might be out on her special day. The thought of her having fun with friends or even being on a date with someone who values her actually made me smile, and I left on my walk feeling good and again wishing for the best for her in life.
On my walk though through the park, it was like my head was on a swivel and I was feeling anxious that I might run into her, which has happened before. I even ran through a little mental movie of how I could react if I ran into her while she was having a picnic with a new guy on the grass. Anxiety and a tightness in my chest.
This happened right before and while I listened to WANTED on my walk. When I got to the loop of Genesis, the feeling was mostly gone altho my head was still on a swivel. By the time I finished listening to Genesis, I had forgotten about her and was nearly 100% focused on my posture and form while rucking a 20lbs iron plate on my back. As I walked back home after Genesis had ended, again I kind of looked around wondering if I might see her, but with SIGNIFICANTLY less intensity and nearly no anxiety this time.
Now I am sitting in my bedroom writing this, a slight urge to look out my window to see if her lights are on and she’s home, but only really because I am writing this. I am confident that as soon as I post this and go eat some food and watch Succession or whatever and play Cyberpunk 2077 or read a book, that I won’t be thinking about it anymore and it won’t be bothering me.
All this to say that, the emotional transmutation scripting from Genesis WORKS.
One full loop Friday afternoon with WANTED.
One full loop today with WANTED.
And I’m flyin’ high
Birds flying high, you know how I feel
Sun in the sky, you know how I feel
Breeze driftin’ on by, you know how I feel
It’s a new dawn
It’s a new day
It’s a new life for me, yeah
And I’m feeling good