I’m considering making a Genesis custom after my washout (day 1 today), and I’m doubting myself.
This push to make a custom comes after listening to Genesis 2ce by itself yesterday. Fears went away. I began asking questions to my crypto trader since I realized I wanted to MOVE with what I have now. I haven’t had that clear desire in years, and it stayed with me.
I also said “fears went away”. For me, that’s the WHOLE point of me using subliminals, as fears keep me from moving in every area of life. I felt that tranquility yesterday since I wasn’t bound up by them.
And this morning, I woke up with a strong desire to get out today. I even considered church since I’m quite familiar with that environment. It was then that known fears crept in and held on, things which I’ve justified and submitted to. I did this this morning, and I’m owning it. I did that.
I just don’t want to truly stay there. I don’t. Fears crept up on me during this writing, mostly about disappointing people or people rejecting me. Looking back, those are fears I’ve repeatedly relied on.
Also, a common fear for me is that…I’ll succeed with Genesis. (I said that). I’d used DRLD last week, and I realized in early SC days, I was scared of succeeding with Emperor and healing subs. So that’s not new. But yesterday I felt freer. Unrestrained. Un-hobbled. I’m wanting to grow this, and I added Ascension Chamber core to facilitate this.
I’d like imput on my build, as Genesis seems to be allowing an openness to correction if needed. Can I share my build here? If not here, where?