I’ve done about an hour of journaling spread across three sessions specifically on my social interactions (and subliminals) and came to the conclusion that in order to be “socially successful” with any other sub, first I need to run an extended run of TWTP.
I’m a little bit “naive.” In work contexts, it’s the worst, where I just do NOT know how to play office politics in the slightest. Even outside of work and into social domains though, I struggle.
I ran daredevil for a while and the recon on it was INTENSE for me - in a way, I knew that being the center of attention and telling a story, etc, was a bit risky for me because I crumble under attention sometimes and revert to my awkward overly-energetic ways.
That’s why I need TWTP. I’m already very social. Very well liked. Very good at being “popular” or “storytelling” or “valuable” or “interesting” or the life of the party… but then once I feel like I gained some power/respect in the social dynamic i’m in, I treat that as an invitation to stop presenting my best self and start presenting my silliest self. I become the powerful person, and then lose it.
If I don’t run TWTP before Daredevil, I’ll storytell, but never know the right time to story tell. If I don’t run TWTP before Khan, I’ll have all this social and sexual dominance, but I’ll use it in ways that will help me win the battles and lose the war. I’ll use it to win an argument, not respect. I’ll use it to win attraction, at the cost of my social standing.
Even with Inner Circle… I manifested a job from Inner Circle that was my DREAM job. 9 months later, when I got fired, I realized I needed TWTP to keep that dream job. I had run TWTP (it was Power Can Corrupt back then) about 5 months into the job, and from my very first loop realized how people had manipulated me and how I had’t leveraged my opportunities right. I improved the situation, but it was too late, and I got fired, which wouldn’thave happened if I had done an extended run of PCC/TWTP from the beginning.
So now, before I run ANY social subs, I’m running TWTP till I feel like I’ve mastered this domain