Huge. Can I suggest something? Two phrases, which must be pronounced silently or aloud but with feelings.
Phrase 1: “I acknowledge all those people in my life, in my ancestral system and past lives, to whom being wealthy costed their lives and I give them a place in my soul”.
Phrase 2:
“I acknowledge all those people in my life, in the ancestral system and in past lives to whom voluntary rejection of being wealthy allowed to stay alive and also giving them a place in my soul”.
100% it is invisible loyalty issue. I saw this a hundred of times. The Will is unable to break thru this issues.
Hope this phrases will help you to start healing loyaltie’s restrictions.
P.S. Yeah, yeah “self-punishment” issues and etc. Very familiar.