I bought Emperor Black back in December 2022. During my first loop for the first time in my subclub journey I experienced the “Trailer Effect”. My mind became clear like an after effect of meditation, the first loop had not even started and yet I sat on my desk and started doing my homework and only got up after I was done. Then I had classes to attend to I walked all the way with such intensity that my legs hurt yet I walked the same to and fro. In class usually I get distracted soon, I start wishing My soul would leave my body for sometime etc. But on Emperor Black with just one loop my mind wouldn’t distract even if I deliberately tried for it too.(What can I say I find my classes boring) After that the trailer effect waned and the above mentioned things didn’t quite return during my first cycle, but it did leave me with a sense of confidence.
Now I am on my second cycle. I had an interview today for masters degree and I was wanting to buy True Sell for it, but unfortunately the payment wasn’t going through for it even though I have more enough money currency conversion wise. So I stuck with Emperor Black for this one.
Now I usually dread interviews to the point that I fantasise about going back in time and killing the person who had the idea for it. I had a similar interview last year, and my had anxiety kicked in so hard that I was sweating, my hands were shaking and my heart was beating so fast that I could feel my pupils shaking because of it. As anyone could have guessed by now I had cold feet from the interview last year.
This year I did one loop of EB before the interview, now I wouldn’t say that I absolutely crushed the interview or something. But I felt less anxiety and I did show up for it and faced the interview unlike last year. It didn’t go well I made a lot of embarrassing mistakes that are going to haunt me for the next month at least but this is better than not showing up for the interview at all. This is a little bit of progress for me.