This program is hitting me on parts of my subconscious I so deeply rejected and suppressed that suddenly the entire world around me and within me feels and looks different. As if I am in a new reality. Or not really a new one. One that I have always known but forgotten about. Old parts of me are resurfacing. Parts and aspects that I deeply loved and appreciated. Deep aspects of my subconscious that needed to be reintegrated to become whole.
Whatever this program does in terms of shadow work and deep unconscious work at first hit me with deep reconciliation I fought against it and my mind made up some stories, to go the other way and not continue this program. But when I had the first experience of it bringing back parts of my SELF that I had lost or where not coming into “me” properly or not available and accessible for some reason… I KNEW I was on the right track and had to continue. Took it slowed and went down in exposure, then took 3-4 days breaks today hit another small loop and we are back it. It is an interesting process, one that bears instant and very visible results for me. It feels like it is mending my subconscious so that all fragments of my mind and psyche can unify and become whole.
Because can you really be everything at once, deeply empathic but extremely stoic? Maybe your mind thinks no and fragments those states. But when you work out those paradoxes you can live in states that are constantly dynamic, be fully flexible and function in a more wholesome state where everything is possible and these limitations are transcended.
Sometimes it will make conscious some parts and when I compare it to my current state I can see how much I have actually evolved. But by bringing those parts back in does not mean I have to live through them again, I can integrate them and have them as memories while being a completely new, more evolved and advanced individual… in many many ways that is true for me but in other ways I always felt like I was missing something or that I could not access many aspects and parts of my history and older self as I went through many transformations through my journey.
But in the end all of this has to come together and become a whole. Every experience has been worthwhile and has been a piece of memory that is filled with wisdom. This is my wisdom, my experience, my learning and my growth. If I do not take these parts of me then it would be a wasted experience. Some parts I may have rejected, denied, dissociated from for many different reasons, but every single part has to be processed, integrated and added back to my memories. Many people walk around in society with these kind of fragmentations of mind and memory. They can’t recall parts of their life. It is not that you have lost something, everything is there, and I know this for myself as I have seen those memories still but somehow many times I can’t access, similar to brain fog that comes from intense reconciliation, but the reasons and causes are different.
This is the process that Singularity is currently guiding me through and I am very curious to know where it will lead… but I already have a feeling of where it will lead…
I don’t think this will be a short process so I am planning to run with it as long as is needed and eventually pair it with Alchemist St4 (whenever I reach) in a Custom! Woehoe! 

