The easiest way to explain it is like the flow of water. Typically, since my focus is almost always inward (studying, writing, dreaming/resolving recon), the flow of water goes back into my own thoughts. It reinforces my own thoughts and makes them “louder” or more prominent in my head, and almost creates a bubble around me that I’m able to go into when I need to focus. It makes going into that focus mode incredibly easy and fast, like in a matter of seconds.
While I can direct that energy flow in various ways inward, there’s also something like a latch that I can use to change the flow outward. The latch isn’t necessarily controlled by me consciously, but by some subconscious structure that has to get both mine and a deeper self’s permission to change the flow. It’s hard to get both of us to agree to get more than 50% of an outward flow, since at least in school, most of the time a lot of attention is just going to make whatever I’m doing harder. But when I need to be fully extroverted, like in front of cameras, during interviews, or networking or something, it’s pretty easy to get something like an 80% outward flow. Instead of feeling like gravity, it’s a weightless feeling that’s full of confidence and me being comfortable just being me. I can adapt to anything that anyone says or does, and people love starting conversations with me. Store workers will zone out and forget what they’re doing and there’s a visible “wait, what was I doing?” look when I end the conversation. The one downside is that even if I’m not doing much in this state, I get tired really fast. After just a few hours I’m pooped out and want to go home and crawl into a ball.
Keep in mind that I’m on the experimental ZPQ build and have been running ASBR since release, so being able to turn it on and off is probably my mind’s way of adapting to continuously getting the fame scripting when I didn’t always want it immediately applied. My additional module is Omnidimensional.
