A forum break may be a good idea.
I have always been extremely empathetic and empathic. Even through a screen it’s crazy what I sometimes experience when just reading members comments.
I love sharing my journey and connecting with others, but I also see where sometimes it may be a hindrance to my well-being reading other peoples stuff.
This is why I stopped reading journals, and skim over 90% of the forum posts, just keeping my eye open for certain names ahahaha
Like you, ouroborus, lion, malkuth, invictus, unusualfellow, rvconsultant, saint, fire, etc
Makes the forum a much nicer experience 
So many guys change their names here… I just assume I don’t know their new handles
You and I kept ours…
I only changed photo couple times.
I changed mine from JCast. I just wanted to go by my real first name
Oh yes…
I’m not changing my photo ever. Too damn sexy
I like continuity… so I wouldn’t change my name
I suspect Khan has installed the IDAF attitude good work James !!
Not yet. Hopefully one day
I’m getting closer to that attitude. So much freakin drama at work after starting New Khan / Wanted Black… that I don’t have the energy to give a…
IDGAF NSE !!! 
Isn’t it the dominance
Actually this is it, was a big part
Would love an option without game scripting. Rather have my companies, products, and contributors get the spot light, rather then myself.
I’m doing new khan & wanted black nse.
Kinda wonder what stark black would do to wanted black nse… how much more wild it would get…
From the copy:
First things first: On the surface, there are many similarities between Stark and A Stark Black Reality. Both feature an incredible amount of wealth scripting, idea generation, innovation, brainstorming, cognitive enhancement, romance, dominance, resilience etc. All of these will be listed in the objectives at the bottom of the page. The difference is not only the amount of scripting, but the nature of the expression of said scripting. By this, while Stark is an incredible title, given that it’s meant for a wide audience, the scripting is a bit restrained.
In A Stark Black Reality, we do not have that limitation. Thus, the scripting and the concepts involving those topics are pushed to the absolute maximum depth. We’re able to get very granular with what we can do, address various topics with a depth that’s unbelievable.
“I recently dreamt about transitioning to Stark Black. In my dream, I was relaxed, enjoying my success, indulging in my favorite chocolate 
(Almond Joy:stuck_out_tongue_winking_eye:). Suddenly, an envious long-time friend appeared and began criticizing me. My immediate response to handle this negativity was to embrace Emperor Will To Power 
. The reality is, facing haters is inevitable, so why not combine Emperor Will To Power with Stark Black? These are just my reflections 
.”
Those people who were friendly and chatty to me dont want to want to talk to me or avoid me. Its like they are angry or jealous of me. I find this very disturbing. Can anyone relate to this ? please share your experiences. This is so different from Stark OG.
Maybe they were being inauthentic with the friendliness and chattiness.
Edit: let the dead bury the dead? (Dunno why this scripture came up just now.)
Might be the usual status increase effect.
In my opinion, everyone who has self esteem issues, which are most people, will sooner or later get jealous and resentful when your own status increases further and further.
Some of them will adapt to your new status and accept your new level and find a new cognitive balance within themselves of how they can categorize you in their heads.
Others will stay resentful and jealous forever (not ever wanting to face their own shadow and issues).
I think you are correct cant remember whether I already mentioned this one of the girls I know who works in a particular store took a fancy to me. However one of the guys who worked with her said “ohh he is married forget him”. The next time I was talking to her she said “I didn’t know you married”. I was surprised where did she get that information from i asked her. She replied George told me you are married I am thinking WTF ? lol. This george guy was obviously jealous.