I was a bit worried about the fame, too, but the scripting helped me through it. I had a moment of reflection in my second week when I realized that I’ve been standing out hardcore since I came to this country
When I go to new places, people stare. If I visit a shop more than once they always remember me. etc. etc. It’s not status-based fame but I haven’t been part of the crowd in five years.
And I’m fine.
SB is the closest I’ve come to finding the perfect all-rounder. I can get learning benefits, drive, an edge, some wealth scripting, and some romance scripting running in the background to kill my FOMO. I got a much-needed push to finally start engaging with some online communities (and I got a LOT of responses), start a blog, and I’m going to start a YT channel when some equipment comes in. I don’t actually know about monetization, but I’ve identified a real mission that synergizes quite well with stuff I’m already doing in my daily life. In terms of overall results I’ve been quite happy with Stark Black.
But there’s something about it that winds my brain and my sexual energy up too much. I tried micro loops, I tried pairing it with the new Sanguine (which is an amazing sub) – doesn’t matter. It destabilizes me completely. Big things are that I can’t sleep, my mind refuses to rest, and my sexual energy feels like it’s trying to force its way out of me. It’s a stark contrast to when I was running only QL + KB. I don’t feel like I have any sort of control over myself or my day, even. I feel like I’m chasing something that hasn’t even started.
There is a discussion about ADHD on the forum, and some posts by @Simon gave me some insight as to what might be happening.
I’m stopping SB for now but will keep following any developments and everyone’s progress in this thread.
Really curious to see how @TheEmpress 's journey continues with the progress on YT, too. Seems really really good.