On washout from ASBR and WB. Had some tough moments, tough because…well, recon just hurts lol.
My income is up. I’m working a bit less, but lucky event after lucky event is helping me earn the same or more.
I’m running a very full life. Working 50 hours a week at minimum, generally closer to 70, spending time with the girlfriend who just recently confessed her love for me, and constant social engagements. It’s a lot, but it’s working and I’ve spent 2 years asking for this exact lifestyle, I’ve always been unwilling to compromise. I want it all, and dispite some harsh recon, I’m doing it all.
Readership is humble, but I have 3-5 consistent fans that read everything I post. Today, got struck with a massive recon bomb but then it cleared and the answer became clear: I need to become a master of human psychology and marketing, that’s what holds me back. I’m a skilled writer, all my teachers said so, why would they lie? I’ve written stories that have legitimately brought tears to my teachers eyes.
But my weakness is that I hate marketing, hate it with a passion, so my stubbornness turns off my readers. After all, I’m writing FOR THEM not ME. I can write in my journal for me, my published work is for my audience, my ego doesn’t have a place there.
I also see that my small readership is reflective of my resistance to fame, doesn’t mean I’m gonna stop, it’s driving me to dig deeper.
Started studying marketing today, made some connections that made sense. Gonna implement on the next article and see how it drives traffic.
Everything is going well.
The part that hardest to talk about have been the massive, uncanny internal shifts. I don’t feel like “me” anymore. It’s almost like I’ve shifted gears and I’m seeing the world with new eyes.
Those are my general results from my first cycle.
I’m spending valentines with my girl, then gonna make some money, and do a long waterfast over my long washout to clear out my body and mind and use the journey for content.