I had a difficult experience this morning after running the new LBFH, but an hour later, some appreciation came.
I listened to 5 minutes of masked. I felt a little uncomfortable, and I knew journaling would help.
I started writing, and thought “oh crap, it’s Christmas. I should share some seasonal hello.”
And I instantly felt torn. It only took seconds to understand.
I’m facing BS where I live to “make an impression” for Christmas guests. Why do I buck this? It’s simple. His unspoken motivation is “I’ll put you down and humiliate you if you don’t do what I want.”
Enter LBFH. With the new NSE scripting. I used New Emperor last cycle, and it was sometimes painful since it strongly pushes one to be true to themself.
LBFH did the same. Play the dishonest and self-harming game of bullshit games, or be true to myself?
I’m a little nervous, honestly, but the new NSE scripting is working on me.
That’s the gift of change. Not glorious. Not easy. But it’s what I’ve truly wanted all these years.
Thank you @Fire and @SaintSovereign. This life changing gift is BEAUTIFUL!