I am on day 18 since I started LBfH in a custom.
I saw my posture in a mirror 30 min ago and I saw a man that is full inside.
I have my chest out like a animal, I love being me and I choose to love myself.
I smoked weed every day since this circle (this is very unusual for me) and every time I reached a state in myself where it’s ice cold, emotionally ice cold, no mercy for others living beings.this cold state continued until my whole body was shaking from coldness, then i prayed many times that I want a warm loving fire inside myself, this ice cold state was so unbearable that I had to act somehow. Since yesterday I have no more cold states. I changed, I realized that it’s me who is cold not the people ( it doesn’t matter how others are) I realize that the warmth I don’t find in the world I have to create in myself first.
I forgave myself and others for the first time truly
I start to treat myself from a loving place
I could realese so many traumatic states
I greet people, I smile and wink at women
I overcome insecurities with ease
I feel full of love ( like Popeye but in the heart)
I feel warmth inside
I beat fear with love
I have a reservoir of love that activates when needed.
I clean my house more often
Love is replacing negative self talk/image
I feel valuable
And so much more