New Year update: Switched back to EV4 fulltime from my KST4/EV4 stack.
Am contemplating doing a KST3/EV4 stack for more action-taking as KST3 push to action reminded me more of EV2/EV3 than EV4 does.
Think I might be experiencing more reconciliation and resistance running EV4. I’m not noticing as much of a ruthless “push” to get shit done that I felt with EV3. With EV3, it felt almost physically painful to not grind and get shit done. Like if I procrastinated, I would hate myself. When I grinded and got shit done on EV4, I felt this almost sadistic pleasure. Not so much for EV4, but I don’t think this is necessarily a bad thing.
Not sure if I mentioned it above, but with EV4 the desire to quit my current job is peaking, and I’m formulating a plan to grind out a few more months and go into savings-mode one last time to gather up cash. This desire to quit my job and branch out into other things is more pronounced in EV4 than EV3.
My job is very physical, and there is risk of injury, and other hazards. I actually had an incident a couple days ago that could have potentially been deadly, among other weekly injuries I usually incur on the job. There’s a definite feeling of dissatisfaction, and I feel these incidents are the universe telling me to move on from this line of work. I’m gonna tough it out a few more months though.
I’ve been brainstorming different ways to make money that align with my creative pursuits, including starting an IG page for art (I already have one, but I’m thinking about different niches, themes, and concepts that look cool/funny, etc, that people would find appealing and engage with). The end goal will be monetization, but right now it’s more important to create great content that resonates with me and gives me personal satisfaction.
Also, my new goal for 2020 is to quit consuming cannabis (2019 I quit drinking alcohol, so this is a natural next step). When I don’t have cannabis to fall back on, I tend to do much more exercise and maintain a better schedule overall, as I don’t succumb to being essentially couch-locked for days, moving on autopilot.
Finally, some thoughts on subliminal listening patterns. I’ve been reading posts here about subliminal tolerance, and I think it has some validity, as I seem to “feel effects” of a sub very rapidly when I switch subs or start a new sub.
One thing I could do a lot better is taking more action, so this morning I thought of implementing a reward system in which I’m not allowed to listen to a subliminal until I’ve taken a certain piece of action.
For example: If I don’t clean my room today, I’m not allowed to listen to Emperor. Or if I don’t go out tonight at least for one hour and talk to at least 3 people, I’m not allowed to listen to Khan. This will create a positive feedback loop.
I think another worthy goal might actually be to establish daily time limits for my subliminal usage. I’ve learned from experience that I’m prone to overuse of shit, whether that be drugs and alcohol, food, exercise, you name it, I always take it to an extreme. Subliminals are no different. By establishing ,say, a 4-hour limit on usage, I can then check off that box for the day and actually focus on action-taking and goals.
Anyways, that’s my ramblings for today .Happy New Year everyone!