I liken my opposition to cigars.
Sitting aridly at the table.
Lacking the fire and energy to make any substantial impact.
Rolled up safely in a cushion of self-preservation.
And last but not least.
Waiting to get smoked.
In my journey of growth, I once ventured through the caves of shadow.
It was there that I met a hopeless man, crawling in the dark.
I crouched down to him and his eyes lit up.
Hopeless Man: I am dying. Please help me.
A tear trickled down his cheek.
I could not help him.
I sat by his side and told him the truth.
Me: In your darkest hour, the great savior will come. The magnificent hero.
The hopeless man’s entire face lit up with relief.
Hopeless Man: Long have I awaited!
I patted him on the head. This time a tear trickling down my own cheek.
Hopeless Man: Oh wanderer! What is the name of this great savior who will relieve me from my pain?
I clutched his face, and looked him dead in the eyes.
Me: Their name is Nothing. When you are at your last breath of hope and in the darkest hour of despair… it is Nothing, that will come and save you.
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new levels updated
Been about about a month… time to update my levels, lol:
Health = 9.7/10 and increasing.
At the percentile that my health is on… I can’t really write about it here. It’s too woo-woo, lol. Certain things, if I type on here… it does more damage than good because of people not being ready for the information. So I won’t bother.
I had to look at things in an alternative way. I also dropped all supplements.
Fitness/Body Aesthetics = 8.3/10 and increasing.
I seem to have successfully recomped in the past month although very slightly. Enough to notice. I’m not on Creatine anymore (not sure how long it takes to leave the system but it’s been a while) and I still look bigger to the point that people are commenting on it.
I already have abs, a chiseled adonis belt and good proportions. I’m mainly after more mass and definition in a way that is proportionate. I want to look freakish and push the “limit” of what’s achievable naturally. In December, I plan to start LoTS journal. Estimating that by then I’ll be at least 8.5/10 and then use LoTS for a year and see how I can go… if there really even is a 10/10.
From a fitness perspective, I’m trying to spice things up and incorporate dance as an outlet, rather than just being a gym monkey. Also considering stuff like calisthenics or maybe even yoga, although not really sure yet.
Wealth = 7.5/10 and increasing.
This month of June has been the best June month that I’ve ever had in my entire life, from a financial standpoint.
I’m cheating a little bit here, because a .5 increase is pretty whopping. I’ve basically gained more clarity on what financial freedom is to me… and I realized how close I am to that. I seem to have become less materialistic in these past weeks due to my epiphanies in nature. Certain interests just vanished and things became very simple. I’ve journaled many times on here about wanting a mansion and a private swimming pool. I no longer give a fuck about a mansion or any of that. I’m basically trying to maximize moments and I’ve come to the conclusion that although money plays a part in that, it caps out very quickly, depending on what type of moments you’re after. Complicated stuff. That being said, I need to keep going, keep progressing and keep realizing. I can never be stagnant in a conclusion when it comes to QoL.
Romantic Life = 8.8/10 and increasing.
This is the easiest for me to QoL due to its simplicity and straightforwardness as I described earlier. It’s weird that this is what most people fantasize about and yet how easy it is to do, when compared to other areas of QoL. I don’t know, that’s just my personal opinion.
It seems that you can just keep going more and more, endlessly. Kind of frightening, kind of beautiful. But those dualities are the most intriguing… are they not? Hahaha.
One thing I’ve learned, is that there is no such thing as your relationship falling off or losing that flame. There is no temporary high. All low percentile shit. I haven’t experienced anything like that… I’ve just gone deeper and deeper and I will continue to do so. Seems like every day is a new zone in the same direction. There are no limits and you get to enjoy the fruits of your own progression.
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On the side I have been leveling up certain valuable skills… such as persuasion, navigation, cooking and humor. My interest in learning new languages has dissipated, lol. Too lazy to write about why.
My top 2 skills that interest me at the moment are cooking and humor, because they are core and universal QoL enhancers which make them extremely high ROI. The introduction of good humor can make any interaction more enjoyable.
Navigation because, I’ll be honest… I got lost in the forest. Deadass. Lmao
New skill tree:
Social Life = 7/10
might go in-depth later
Speaking of humor, Song of Joy seems like a good module worth considering and I like the description as it perfectly encapsulates the ROI of humor from a QoL standpoint:
“Humor is an integral part of our lives – develop your brand of humor utilizing the Song of Joy module. Your humor will become able to infuse fun and joy into any interaction, any event, situation or even the weirdest circumstance, elating the states of others and making them love being around you. Furthermore, you will develop your skill of humor and all its associated intricacies such as comedic timing, giving you a true grasp over this priceless ability.”
I wonder why more people don’t run this module lol
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Too lazy to do the same level by level format I did for wealth and romance in my other journal.
Just quick general rundown:
0/10: What the fuck is a friend. I don’t know what people are, I’m in the womb.
1/10: Zero friends. Lmfao.
2/10: 1 Imaginary friend.
LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOO
3/10: Classmates in school or coworkers/acquaintances. Not really your friends… just people that you have no choice but to socialize with.
4/10: Fake friends. Friends but not really. Facebook friend’s list. Oh you have 500 friends on social media? Do you talk to them regularly? No? Good luck.
5/10: Close fake friends. Most average people are in this percentile. Maybe have a friends group that you hang out with but everyone is replaceable as fuck, and you yourself know it. A lot of passive aggressive toxicity, jealousy, and potential for backstabbing. Everything is low percentile trust level. Everyone is really just putting up with each other because they have nobody else. Harsh reality.
Perpetual state of “meh”. Get the fuck outta there. Lmao.
5.5/10: If you have at least 1 really good friend with a medium percentile trust level, then you are auto 5.5/10. Watch this magic trick, this is high ROI geniusness. If you level up your romantic life and are monogamous… then obviously your partner will become your best friend, on at minimum (depending on where you’re at), a medium percentile trust level. That means that leveling your romantic life also bumps you to a 5.5/10 social life… minimum. Sheesh. Talk about efficiency. As a person who is obsessed with ROI and QoL, this kind of efficiency gives me orgasms.
6/10: Alrighty, 6/10. Ah yes, how splendid.
You have 2 or more friends minimum, with a medium percentile trust level. Toxicity in medium percentile trust level is very minimal. The fuckery, arguments, gaslighting, passive aggressive garbage, distancing, weirdness, power games and all that nonsensical horseshit that average people insist on making snow angels in due to severe lack of congruence - might pop up rarely, but it is nowhere near the level of low percentile trust level relationships in comparison.
Overall connection, bonding, harmony etc is medium percentile level. Still strong though, just not transcendent level which I will expand on in the next level.
6.5/10:
You have at least 1 friend, with a high percentile trust level. Obviously, the 2 in 1 efficiency that comes with leveling up your romantic life, also applies here as well. A high percentile trust level, involves zero negativity whatsoever… it doesn’t exist. Fairytale relationships, but only to the uninitiated. These relationships only add to your life and well-being. It only exists to contribute. It’s just pure elevation and understanding at all times. These are powerful relationships. Consider that if you just have 1 of these type of friends… loneliness as a Maslow concept is pretty much sliced in half, because it’s almost like there is 2 of you. Very difficult to ever feel lonely from a social standpoint, when you have a relationship on that level.
Anything on a high percentile trust level like that, is in the soulmate realm. I don’t necessarily believe in the concept of “soulmates”, it’s just a metaphorical construct used to describe an instance where 2 individuals are extremely harmonious to the point where potential of high percentile development is very high… and if people follow my posts here, then they know that high percentile happens to involve elements of transcendence. That’s just how the shit goes. This is as objective as logic can get… if you’re truly after the most blissful, heavenly, amazing and healthy feel-good states in regards to quality of experience… then transcendent concepts are going to play a part whether spiritually, emotionally or perceptually, in the activation of said level of states. This is just fucking math and extremely straightforward logic… but you know… a wise man once told me that god blessed everyone with a brain, but did not bless everyone with intelligence. Lmao.
7/10:
You have at least 1 friend with a high percentile trust level and at least 2 or more other friends with a medium percentile trust level.
This is where I’m at currently.
I have 1 high percentile relationship and 5 medium percentiles.
That’s as far as my real life experience goes.
After this is subjective projection and prediction (all loose theory).
7.5/10
You have at least 2 friends with a high percentile trust level.
You basically want a large circle where everyone is soulmate level of resonance.
I have multiple prospects that check that box out the gate, because such potential is often intuited at first interaction, or even first sight. You just tend to know these things.
I’m now actively working on cultivating one of these relationships at the moment. The irony of high percentile relationships, is that they are actually extremely easy to develop. Smooth as butter due to the high level of harmony. Nothing is forced, it’s like magnets that are desperate to lock on to each other. If anything, you’d have to force the disconnection. It’s that easy. The difficult part is actually doing the inner work to open up and be able to attract these type of people into your life. That is what the uninitiated struggle with. Too empty, needy, lonely, traumatized and shit. Lmao. That’s not an internal reality that attracts beautiful people or creates beautiful abundant relationships that are on a fulfilling wavelength. These people don’t understand the extremely simple math of how reality works, in that the universe merely reflects your internal reality. Neanderthal noggins. Lmao.
These days, the only thing I feel like I can do is pray that people suffer more. Because there’s really no other way to stop being a dumbass, like there really isn’t. Suffering and pain seems to get people’s attention and wake them up. It’s not like they listen to anything else, lol. It’s the best for the job. Lmao.
So this is what I tend to do these days. I pray that people suffer more and then I quietly go back to getting everything that I fucking want in life. Minding my own business.
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think I may be addicted to tea
The devil is not a master of deception. He is a master of persuasion.
What a profound concept.
To be a master of persuasion, you have to understand people better than they understand themselves. The devil doesn’t tell you lies, he tells you the truth. But only the truths that you want to hear.
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In other words… all of these sales people need Jesus.
Lmao
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Yo Luther, do you know anything about the posterior chain?
I’m trying to figure out if I have tight hamstrings, weak hamstrings, weak glutes/lower back ect.
When you can’t keep your legs straight when you touch your toes, or are sitting down leaning forward to touch toes. Is this tightness or weakness and they are already stretched due to weak glutes/back?
I do leg lifts too and if I lift my shoulders/abs up in conjunction, my legs will bend slightly and no longer straight.
Any opinion? I get the feeling my whole posterior chain is crap and I need to get on it but not sure if I should be stretching.
If you’re just a guy on the internet who doesn’t know shit lol, that’s okay too, just let me know.
Thanks
Nonsense, I know everything.
Whether or not your posterior chain being crap stems from tightness or weakness, doesn’t really matter. It won’t change the fact that you’re going to have to work on both.
I don’t do leg lifts, I only do squats.
They’re far more functional and natural, as the movement pattern aligns with our biological capabilities.
By nature, there is a ratio balance of muscle groups that are biologically attuned to that movement.
If there is an ideal balance, then because of how functional a squat is, it would be logical to assume that their movement is in sync with an ideal balance to a high degree. Arguably more than any other exercise. Every time a human sits down, gets up, or picks objects from the ground… they are squatting.
What I’m trying to say here, is that it’s fundamentally a harmonic exercise.
I’m suggesting that squats inherently promote an ideal muscle activation pattern.
For that reason, I believe that they can naturally correct imbalance because you’re increasing your efficiency in an ideal pattern. Humans are already biologically efficient at squats. Becoming more efficient at something that we are already biologically efficient at… is as objective as you can get in terms of ideal physical development.
If you become more efficient at a fundamental and natural human movement that is tied to an every day biological capability on the level of a squat movement… logically that would make sense as being objectively more physically fit, ideal or superior from a percentile standpoint.
When it comes to biology, the highest clarities of what constitutes as objectively ideal, always start at base level.
Increased efficiency at a movement like that, would suggest muscle balance optimality, rather than imbalance. It would also suggest more optimal flexibility and mobility, which are both improved by a squat due to the range of motion, compared to a leg lift.
This is advanced shit what I’m breaking down here, lol. You might have to read this all more than once.
Listen up. The only time you need to lift your leg is to step on the body of your opposition. (I had to troll a bit, I’m sorry).
Anyways, I used to have really shitty posture from sitting in the bed all day (back in my depressive days) and squats are what completely changed my posture.
If you’re not doing squats and want to start… don’t start heavy. Get trained in the movement and perhaps just use bodyweight. That’s what I did in the beginning, and focusing on efficiency, coordination, balance and strengthening of the movement allowed my posterior chain to just naturally optimize.
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To further expand on this ideal ratio theory:
The ratios are random numbers.
Let’s say your muscle groups are imbalanced with a ratio of 30/10/60.
Let’s say the muscle group ratio of a squat movement is 40/30/30.
When you do a squat movement, you’re developing your muscle groups 30(40%)/10(30%)/60(30%)
Over a long period of time, your muscle groups are going to become more and more aligned with the ratio of a squat movement.
If one muscle group is overdeveloped, then it will still be activated during the squat movement but to a lesser extent compared to the other muscle groups. This balances out your muscle development in the long run, by engaging all muscle groups proportionately.
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So I do bodyweight squats and some squats holding my 35lb kettlebell at my chest.
I just don’t know why my hamstrings are such problems. If it’s weakness, I don’t want to be stretching an already stretched muscle. But even stretching over time doesn’t seem to change much…it persists.
Question…if I can do deep squats (asian/primal squat) why can I not hold it? Like I fall backwards if my arms are not going forward.
I’ve Googled and the best I’ve read is either poor foot dorsalflexion or hip issue but if I can squat deep already, it isn’t hip. Can you hold a deep squat with no issue?
If you want better hamstrings you have to eat ham strings. Lmao.
I would say to keep doing the movements. Just follow your body, don’t do anything weird that it doesn’t like. Always take it slow and do what feels natural.
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Do you utilize bananas in your diet? Do you find them useful for body recomp?
Also, do you eat dates?
Bananas are awesome, yeah I eat them.
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Sometimes
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