Love (Hearth) Vs Power (Ego)

[SuperSaiyan]

My current stack is Love Bomb + Ascension.

For me Love Bomb makes me love myself, but also makes me feel with low energy and lazy.
Also I show who I am, I’m sad at the moment, because with Love Bomb no one cares about me.
I also lose my confidence, I feel insecure, weak and more feminine.

Ascension looks like the opposing force to Love Bomb.
It makes me feel for secure, confident, with some power, more energy, taking more action, and more masculine.
It doesn’t make me feel sexy which is a shame.
And it also used to feed my Ego which looks wrong to me, but since Love Bomb has helped me dissolve my Ego, let’s see if from now on I can get a power based on love.

When using this combo I also started to overthink things and ruminate a lot which leads to lack of focus.

1. So it looks like these 2 subs are fighting each other inside me, but they should be working together. Or maybe it’s my Heart and Brain fighting each other instead of working together and in synchronicity. Any comments?

2. I’ve seen people talking in another thread about people who envy the ones that use subs to rise in status and power. Let me tell you that only during my first cycle with Ascension that happened. But when I added Love Bomb at least one person stopped doing that (my gym Coach). And when people try to verbally fight me, try to put me down, or insult me, I show compassion, I just ask “why do you think that” “why, why, why” to try to understand them, I also explain my self for them to understand me, and sometimes there is an agreement, some other times people just deviate from the subject or quit the conversation, but even when that happens I show no resentment, it’s just that they are more limited than me, so I move on.

It’s just a shame that I can’t build a connection with most people in my country, they act indifferent to me, and this is another reason for me to move abroad. In the past in my country I’ve always been considered “crazy”, but after moving abroad I was considered “high quality”. Back to my country, I thought this time was going to be different because I evolved a lot, but I feel I’m failing because I’m not making friends, and I can see that if I would go back in time to my childhood grown as I am now, nothing would be different with the other kids.

And I can’t seem to attract new high quality people into my life.

And being alone and unconnected with people all the time also makes me feel with even less energy, and less motivated to do my organizational tasks to move abroad. Ascension counters that, but I can’t abuse form it or I’ll start having recon.

3. I think I’m going to use Love Bomb less frequently than Ascension, because of the bad side effects it has on me, maybe only once every other 3 days. Or maybe stop using it at all, because now that I’m having compassion towards others, and not showing resentment, maybe the power from Ascension will start going into my heart instead of going into my ego.

4. I’m going to try to use Ascension every day, but with shorter loops. The logic is the same as when working out. It’s better for our health to workout almost every day, but shorter workouts each day.

5. Note that I still show resentment towards people who hurt me in the past, and I’m still very hurt, so for that I might need an healing title like Sanguine - Elixir.

[Lion]

You are thinking that the reconciliation you are getting from running Love Bomb and Ascension are results. When in fact these are thoughts and feelings you have to work through instead of thinking they are the results of Love Bomb and Ascension.

For example, if you feel you can’t make friends, that doesn’t mean that Love Bomb is bad for making friends. In fact, I found myself being more friendly and humorous when running Love Bomb. But I also had to think about some of my resentment towards others when running Love Bomb and when I forgave them, it made things better.

Did you know that Love Bomb has New Forgiveness Scripting in it? NFE helps you forgive those who have hurt you (including yourself) and helps you live a life of loving yourself and others.

So practice forgiveness and also realize that what you are thinking and feeling when you run any subliminal stack isn’t some sort of “Love Bomb and Ascension fighting each other” because they don’t clash. Take self-responsibility for your life and add a subliminal like Daredevil or True Social to help with your social skills.

[Beowulf]

@SuperSaiyan

I think I’m going to use Love Bomb less frequently than Ascension, because of the bad side effects it has on me

Recon. Not “side effects”.

@SuperSaiyan

I’m going to try to use Ascension every day, but with shorter loops. The logic is the same as when working out. It’s better for our health to workout almost every day, but shorter workouts each day.

You could try but I wouldn’t recommend it. You’re not leaving space for the sub to process well. Why don’t you listen every other day but reduce the length of each loop?

@SuperSaiyan

And when people try to verbally fight me, try to put me down, or insult me, I show compassion, I just ask “why do you think that” “why, why, why” to try to understand them, I also explain my self for them to understand me, and sometimes there is an agreement, some other times people just deviate from the subject or quit the conversation, but even when that happens I show no resentment, it’s just that they are more limited than me, so I move on.

Would you prefer to fight them instead? Sounds like you want to stoop down to their level.

@SuperSaiyan

For me Love Bomb makes me love myself, but also makes me feel with low energy and lazy.
Also I show who I am, I’m sad at the moment, because with Love Bomb no one cares about me.

You have to read what you’re saying here.

“Because with Love Bomb no one cares about me.”

This is clearly recon that you’re misinterpreting as results.

[praisetheurdtree]

@SuperSaiyan

So it looks like these 2 subs are fighting each other inside me, but they should be working together. Or maybe it’s my Heart and Brain fighting each other instead of working together and in synchronicity. Any comments?

Are they fighting each other? Or is Love Bomb just giving you recon.

I appreciate your post man, you showed your heart, how you’re feeling, and that’s great.

Sounds to me like Love Bomb is causing some recon for you.

I’ve notice that for me, I sometimes feel the opposite of how I’m supposed to feel, when I’m in recon.

If I’m supposed to feel confident and strong, in recon I’ll feel weak and powerless. It’s kinda weird, but it makes sense in a strange way, your subconcious mind is shifting around, trying to bring about what you want, so you temporarily feel the opposite feeling first.

The best thing I know to do, is cut back on exposure, your journaling (which is great) maybe read through the subliminal master class, there might be some info in there that can help you through this time.

[Geoff]

@praisetheurdtree

I’ve notice that for me, I sometimes feel the opposite of how I’m supposed to feel, when I’m in recon.

100% agree, it’s the same experience for me with subs (especially Love Bomb).

[Parsifal]

Same for me on Primal.
I’m running it because I want freedom. And how did I feel the last week?
Like fear is crushing me. Existential dread wherever I went.

It’s not easy to stay strong and keep your track.

But that’s inner work that’s done.

Dissolving old patterns and beliefs is hard.

Look at the Khan thread. Recently there were a few posts about how hellish stage 1 was for some.

But it’s important to understand, that this is a part of the process. Like muscle soreness when you train your body.

Here a beautiful and fitting quote from @anon46881528

@anon46881528

Have patience, something will open up eventually and when it does you will appreciate it in far greater way because of this current situation. When it does open up, make the most of it, use it in beneficial ways, keep moving forward. Remember that you never want to go back, only forward.

Spend and invest the money you get in wise ways, ways that will move you closer to who you want to be. Keep moving towards what you want. I know it seems like this current situation is everything and will always be, but it is temporary, it will pass, even if it doesn’t seem like it. Everything passes eventually. There is a reason for what you are going through. It is a part of your journey. In time it can be used in a wise way.

Just breathe, be aware of the present moment. It only takes one door to open and your life can change in dramatic ways.

This situation can only make you stronger and wiser, you can learn a lot from this.

If you can survive this current predicament and eventually break through, you’ll be able to get through anything.

All this that is happening in your life now, can only make you greatly appreciate the life you will create for yourself once this passes. You’ll know what you strongly dislike, not prefer, what doesn’t resonate with you. This situation is the catalyst for never going back to this.

Even if you do not currently see it or feel it, this situation is beneficial for the person who you are going to become. There will be no going back. Just give it time and you’ll see.

There is love and support here for you, you’ll be alright.

[SuperSaiyan]

@Beowulf

@SuperSaiyan

And when people try to verbally fight me, try to put me down, or insult me, I show compassion, I just ask “why do you think that” “why, why, why” to try to understand them, I also explain my self for them to understand me, and sometimes there is an agreement, some other times people just deviate from the subject or quit the conversation, but even when that happens I show no resentment, it’s just that they are more limited than me, so I move on.

Would you prefer to fight them instead? Sounds like you want to stoop down to their level.

No, I prefer it this way. By writing the above, I’m sending a message to the people that feel envied like me. Instead of fighting the ones who envy us, or not caring about them, we should at least try to understand them and try to become friends. We should try to empathise with the insecurities we’re triggering on them. Them if they’re still not interested and it’s taking too much of our time we have to move on. And I try not to feel resentment, because they just can’t see the whole picture. @Parsifal told me once “Resentment is like drinking a poison and waiting for the other to die”.

But when they are not interested, I still feel sad, because I put the responsibility on me. It means I have to work more on myself to one day get along well with those people. I remind you I believe everyone in the world is/represents a part of us, and everyone is good in nature, they are just traumatised.

@SuperSaiyan

I’ve seen people talking in another thread about people who envy the ones that use subs to rise in status and power. Let me tell you that only during my first cycle with Ascension that happened. But when I added Love Bomb at least one person stopped doing that (my gym Coach).

My initial point is that I was only able to start having this approach when I added Love Bomb to my stack, and I recommend it to everyone that is rising in status, but feels like fighting people, making enemies, etc.

Edit: And just because I’m rising in status and power in doesn’t mean I should start thinking or feeling superior to others. Everyone is equal. Superiority or feeding the ego is a recipe for disaster and for being hated by everyone. Actually it explains why people get envied instead of admired, and with this I think I’ve answered the my own question: “Love (Heart) Vs Power (Ego)”. There should not be Ego involved in Power. Power is Power and also put your Heart on it!