Love Bombing the Godlike Masculinity with the Art of Happiness and Joy

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#77

I tried to make a decent video but after the 15th take, I quit out of pure frustration.

Also I lost another client who is/was a friend too.

Today is one of the worst days I remember, mood and negative thinking-wise. It’s so bad I just want to not exist anymore.

This extreme highs and lows are draining my hopes I’ll solve my problems once and for all.

It’s pure torture at this point.

What I did so wrong to experience so much suffering?

I cannot help myself alone. I asked for help to the Universe.

#78

It looks like I treated myself as a Guinea pig after all these years of subliminal programming for experiencing what, at the end of the day?

More self-inflicted suffering out of believing some kind of external authority is the answer to solve my problems.

I cannot go back and forth like this anymore.

This nightmare needs to end.

I gave the new seemingly anti-recon tech a chance to prove me wrong about my growing skepticism on the subliminal technology but it didn’t work in lessening the amount of psychological pain.

Also I cannot afford to ruin my daily experience of life with even more suffering because it already affected my relationships both at work and outside, with a loss of too much clients.

#79

I should stop banging my head to the wall while hoping it won’t break.

That’s not smart at all but against my real growth process.

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#80

I’m taking an extra day off.

My outer reality is still reflecting the following limiting beliefs:
“Money is hard to get.”
“It’s hard to find my soulmate.”
“It’s hard to get laid with someone I like/love”.
“It’s hard to make good friends in my neighborhood.”
“It’s easy to fall back into a negative spiral”.
“I’m not good enough.”

So I should replace them with their opposites by working with them consciously.

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#81

Still in a very low and angry mood. I didn’t expect to be in such a deep pain.

I cannot afford to be in this state if I want to keep my current job.

So I’ll take another extra day off tomorrow.

I hope there’s light at the end of this dark tunnel. It looks like I went back to square one once again and every positive experience I had it’s just a very distant and unreachable dream.

If my daily experience will be so negative in the few days too, I’ll stop using this technology.

The only positive thing is that there’s an offline PT client willing to work with me.

I’m trying to be positive but every conscious thought in that direction is very weak and short-lived to counteract this huge negative spiral.

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#82

The negativity is still here and it’s not helping me to keep going with this stack.

Still no soothing Self-Love, no powerful Masculinity detected, no long-lasting inner joy.

Relationships aren’t better & the financial situation isn’t improving.

I’m still in the same situation as 2 years ago with no signs of improvement on the horizon.

I’ve been patient but it’s time of letting go what isn’t working as intended.

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#83

My reality is showing me that I’m not successful because I’m following the rules, I’m not arrogant, I’m not manipulating people and I’m not putting others under me.

My reality is showing me that kindness repels the women I’m attracted to. My reality is showing me that if you don’t know what do you want to get from another person during any interaction, you won’t get what you want from them. My reality is showing me that expressing interest is the fastest way to push away the people you want to attract.

If I want to trasform myself and see my life change where I want to be, I need to assume that my reality is at my mercy and I’m the one making the rules.

No one is better than me, no one compares to me.

So kindness, love, respect are for the weak who don’t know his real identity and he’s a blind follower and not a true leader of his reality.

Life isn’t fair and so playing it fair makes you the weakest.

The most successful people on Earth aren’t loving, kind and respectful. They go for what they want unscrupulously.

Or maybe I have the wrong definition of love since the beginning of my journey.

I don’t think there’s a SC subliminal which can help me though.

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#84

I wonder if I’m having reverse results just because I assumed the identity of perfection which goes against the very fact that I’m using something to fix it.

What do I mean by that?

If I’m already perfect as I am, the worst thing I can do is to fix the perfection I assumed to be and so I’m directly denying that I’m already perfect.

No more fixing is the solution?

#85

Divine perfection on the physical plane involves the following:

The journey = the destination.

When you say you are perfect as you are, it doesn’t mean you don’t take action to further your journey. Being perfect is allowing the flow/unfolding to take place with minimal interference from the mind. Aka, being present regardless of what you’re doing.

Using a tool like a subliminal can be a part of your perfect unfolding. An aspect of your path that is perfectly yours.

Furthermore, I’ve noticed some of the way you talk about your experience with subs goes against what you want to achieve.

On the GLM thread today, I saw you commented this:

The main identity you seem to be adopting is counter to what you want to experience. Remember, what comes after the ‘I am’ is what unfolds, so try to reframe your thought process to match what you want.

Don’t over-identify with how you feel in a fleeting moment – craft who you are and will be.

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#86

I appreciate the way these two convey the ideas of flow and identity, respectively. There’s a lot of wisdom there.

How you feel at any moment should not be conflated with who you are and what you aim to build. At most, a feeling is a sign post - don’t latch onto it.

#87

However it’s a whole different story if the emotional and mental suffering goes on and on. It’s not a good sign at all. Imagine if you went into chronic physical suffering without any painkiller.

A fleeting pain is acceptable, a semi-permanent one is sheer torture.

The toxic “no-pain, no gain” mindset has a pretty bad influence in daily life.

I don’t want to live by suffering. It’s not worthy at all, no matter the goal I have.

That’s why I stopped playing subliminals.

#88

Unfortunately the unfolding is light years ahead from being perfect if I’m still struggling with the same issues.

There’s no need to go through surgery if you are healthy.

So there’s no need to go through healing/fixing if you assume you are already perfect.

I think purposefully going through endless emotional and mental surgery is the main reason why I’m facing so much suffering.

It’s not needed anymore.

I should use common sense and not assuming I’m permanently broken to the point I need some permanent fixing.

#89

I get what you’re saying, since I’ve had the same thoughts before.

The way I’ve been looking at subliminals/mindset lately is similar to a diet (think of it as a mental diet, to be precise).

There’s no disputing that eating healthy, organic foods every day is better for your body than candy, soda, and processed fast food.

Something like a subliminal or meditation/visualization technique is like a vitamin supplement. If the foundation (your self-concept) is unhealthy, you likely won’t get out as much from it as if its strong. But you will still get benefits over time, and even feel urged to clean the diet up.

You don’t need them, but they’re nice to have. In the same way as we don’t need cars or planes to live life, but they stretch the capacity of what we can experience.

That said, if you’re called to step away from subliminals, it’s of course important to follow your intuition. I wish you good luck wherever your journey takes you - you always have interesting takes on things here.

#90

Thanks🙏

From now on my only real daily inner-job should be remembering my ultimate identity and monitor my conscious thoughts to reflect alignment with the self-concept I want to embody.

Obviously, pushing the play button is much more appealing and seemingly low-to-no effort than developing the discipline to consciously take care of your mental and emotional state.

That’s the same comparison between taking fat pills and working out at the gym to lose weight while following a proper diet.

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#91

This is the 7th day without any subliminal input and I’m finding myself eager to restart again.

I don’t know if I want to resume the stack that put me in a very high recon situation, though. I’m worried it will be an unpleasant experience once again.

Maybe I should stick with GLM solo and avoid love bombing it with happiness and joy.

The anti-recon in GLM isn’t strong enough to counteract the even more powerful healing force of Love Bomb and probably even G:AoH.

Perhaps I’ll stay away from LB and other healing titles until they are updated & manageable to run without having a negative parade.

#92

A “very high recon situation” shows you exactly where there is works to be done. So maybe run that stack again until you integrate it and heal whatever needs healing.

#93

When you work socially you cannot afford to be in a depressed mood. That’s why I stepped back. It was ruining my relationships, work-related too.

GLM should be enough to recover from the emotional storm.

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#94

I just run a 30s GLM microloop.

Let’s see how it goes. In the meantime I’m going to re-read its sales page to align my conscious thoughts to the subconscious work.

#95

@RVconsultant please close this journal

#96