Hello I am new to subliminal club In fact I just joined today. I am looking for help with how I can get the best of the subliminals.
Let me introduce myself I am male 62 will be 63 later this year. I want to give as much information about myself but am not very good with being introspective and setting goals but will try my best so as to get the best advice possible Where do I begin? I have several issues and I will put them in order of priority.
Health Issues
First, I have some serious health problems the main of which is chronic kidney disease. I am currently at stage V which is the worse you can get before you have to go on dialysis. My nephrologist wants to put me on dialysis but I am resisting. Basically, the idea is once you go on dialysis the kidney never recovers and you are stuck on dialysis for the rest of your life. So I am trying to find alternative treatments before giving in to dialysis. To that end I am about to start a change to a whole food plant based diet (WPBD). According to what I am reading some people have had reversal of chronic diseases while on a WPBD regimen. Other health issues I am dealing with include:
- Low testosterone levels
- Increasing forgetfulness
- High blood pressure (probably related to the kidney disease)
- Anemia (also probably related to the kidney disease)
- Recently diagnosed with gout ( Probably related to the kidney)
- Low energy
- Overweight
Psychological/Mental issues
I suffer from serious social phobia and lack of confidence. I believe one incident in my life is at the root of these issues. I was 15 yo and in high school. I was in the school auditorium. A girl was talking to me. I have always been a shy kid and became very nervous when she approached. When she noticed I nervous she began making fun of me and everyone in the auditorium started laughing at me. I don’t believe I ever got over the embarrassment. I believe that incident exacerbated my already high level of shyness. Over the years my shyness has gotten worse and worse. This shyness manifests itself in many ways
- I can’t look people in the eye
- I have low self esteem
- I lack self confidence
- I feel socially awkward
- I have no friends not one. The closest person I have to a friend
is my wife - I am easily discouraged if I face any kind of adversity I
immediately want to give up I try to combat this but the more I
try the more stressed I get and eventually just can’t continue
fighting. - I am extremely indecisive I have difficulty making decisions
and always believe I make wrong decisions
(I can give will give example of an incident to illustrate this but
this post is already getting too long so I will give the example
at another time).
I can’t hold a job of any significance. For example I quit my job
as a nurse at a nursing home because it involved making too
many decisions. I was always worried about the patients/
residents. If someone got sick I would always think did I do
something wrong? Do i send them to the emergency room or
can i treat them there? I would always think it was
my fault somehow that they were sick or even if it wasn’t my
fault I am just going to screw it up anyway and make the
wrong decision or make a mistake. The only job I have been
able to do well is a security guard. This is because I can work
the night shift and not have to be around people. Being a
security guard also means I don’t have to make too many
decisions.
I tried psychologists and psychiatrists been prescribed anti-anxiety meds but nothing seems to help. I have resigned to living with this situation for the rest of my life but I hit rock bottom when I screwed my security guard job when I made a bad decision. I am now out of work and have not been able to find another security guard job. I am so desperate I am even thinking of going back to nursing. Because there is a shortage of nurses in my city there is a pilot program to incentivize nurses who have left the profession to return. Because I can’t find a job I am thinking of going back to nursing but I am dreading that decision.
There are probably other issues I should be putting down but I have spent so many years repressing and covering my feelings that I have a hard time being introspective and figuring the root cause of my problems I am going to end this section here because this post is already going for too long
Finances
I have some financial woes too but I leave that for another post
What advice am I looking for
With regards to my kidney disease it seems that Paragon Complete would be the place to start. Maybe Spartan? Are they any other subs people would recommend
With regards to the confidence and social phobia issues was thinking of ascension and true social. Or maybe I should try some healing first sanguine sanguine elixir regeneration Limit destroyer etc. I really don’t know where to start and am looking for as much advice as possible
Finally I hope this post was not too long. Not too much information I figure to get the get the best help i have to be honest