Always a gem with you @Luther24
Is Khan what I want? Yeah, but there is a nagging temptation to downplay the scale of what I’m asking for.
You’re talking to a dude that started SubClub as a textbook beta male. I guess I just hate that I’m still so weak and still so resistant to hard work. BUT that’s also recon, I got a lot of crap to figure out, and knowing myself, I might just have to keep holding my feet to the fire.
My goal is to become the man. That 1% dude who’s got it all. I’ve gone from a 70% dude to a 50% dude, but to get to a 40%, 30%, 20%, 10% dude or above…well, like you said: fear and weakness isn’t gonna cut it. I can’t level up if I’m still a 50% dude.
Yeah, I’m a 50% dude. I’m in decent shape, I’m decent with women (my looks really give me an unfair edge and women let me get away with my awkwardness), I have a totally fine job for my position in life, I’m smart enough, I finished college, I’m broke as hell, anxious, fearfull, drink too much, smoke cigarettes, am bad with money, often lazy. I’m Mr. 50%. I’m the kinda dude that if I stop now, I’ll fine a hot enough wife, have a few kids, and work 40 hours a week for the rest of my life in an adequate job. I’m Mr. “That’s totally me.” A lower middle class sigma male, but that’s not where I want to stop.
So, I forge on. Might take 10 years, I guess it’s worth it because I really don’t want to stop.