Lion - Journey to Freedom, Path to Ascendancy [EMPEROR, STARK, CHOSEN]

Journals - Major Programs
#42

2025-03-26T18:30:00Z
Day 18
Rest Day

Dad had his usual anger spurt which he directed at me a bit. I immediately remembered how my need for his acceptance of me was important in my childhood and how that was dictating a lot of my current feelings and life.

It is one thing to forgive later. It is anofher to forgive immediately. And despite my own sorrow, anger and helplessness, I forgave him immediately and let it go.

I talked to him normally after that even though he felt distant. Then I kept quiet to allow him some space. And he was himself again.

Gotta give him some grace. He is 73 after all.

That and I don’t want any subconcious structure of his anger to be in my mind. So releasing it is the first step to be free.

The subconcious is the realm of the subjective. And the concious the domain of the objective.

But many times we behave irrationally because of trauma residing deep within the subconcious (and in our body) and rationalise it with our concious mind.

“I didn’t get his respect so he deserves me ignoring him”. It’s not about whether you ignore someone for this or not. But is it because you are wounded or you know that’s the only option left seeing from a clear mind?

First remove the log in your eyes and you will know what to do. And am feeding the thousands of those useless logs in my subconcious to the subliminal fire hahaha.

Have a bit of a cough but much better after inhaling some steam to clear my sinus and lungs. Coughed out good.

Also restarted my OMAD 3 days back. It’s going great.

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#43

2025-03-27T18:30:00Z
Day 19
Emperor x1

Thought I would end up breaking OMAD due to illness. Or even break my stack to add in Paragon Complete. Thankfully I didn’t have to do either and although I was a bit tired today, I could keep it together cause I didn’t want to break my resolution to myself (both stack-wise and intermittent-fasting-wise).

Most of the time, I can do extreme fasting like the one am currently doing but find it difficult to control food intake when am eating “normally” and end up overeating lol.

But I have noticied that it is changing slowly for the better since I instituted fasting into my life.

And at least I have my own method to lose weight by fasting even if it might feel extreme.

Hmm. This cycle is almost over and I haven’t yet decided on what extra module to add to the Name Embedded Chosen, Stark and Emperor. Damn my indecisiveness! Haha!

Well, my washout gonna be longer the more time I take to make this decision. No problem.

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#44

What was your experience on emperor vs asbr?

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#45

Emperor is the right title for me currently

ASBR in my opinion is for intermediate or advanced users who know what they are doing in the business realm and have already achieved some level of success. If not, the fame and cognition scripting doesn’t kick in as much. There is no direction for them to go.

Emperor will help me no matter the situation. Even when am unsure, at least it will optimise my life in the level am already in. There is no worry that the Emp script isn’t working because of lack of purpose. On the contrary, Emperor helps with finding purpose too.

I took some time to think about your question and the issue you are facing and I would recommend Emperor combined with Paragon Complete.

If you want to choose another title, Stark is also a good option.

Hope this helps.

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#46

This feels really helpful to me for some reason.

:pray:

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#47

Glad I could help, @Malkuth :pray:

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#48

2025-03-28T18:30:00Z
Day 20
Rest Day

Doing a 36 hour fast today and am sure to be wakimg up hungry tomorrow morning. Thankfully I can break the fast with breakfast and am already looking forward to that before I go to bed soon.

When fasting, I think about food a lot. When food is taken, the hunger didn’t feel like a big deal.

Okay, am gonna go sleep.

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#49

2025-03-29T18:30:00Z
Day 21
Chosen x1, Stark x1

Competed a 36 hour fast for the first time and am glad I could handle it. Of course some of that came from practicing 24 hour fasts for a while.

Might end up doing this 36 hour fast every Saturday. And the other five weekdays will be 24 hour fasts.

And Sunday gives me a break with breakfast and dinner.

Will do this until I reach my target weight.

And so my cycle has ended. Now my washout begins.

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#50

You alright, mate?

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#51

Had some sinus issues. Solved by now with steam inhalation and light meds.

Still went strong with OMAD thanks to my stack :muscle:.

Thank you for asking :pray:.

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#52

2025-04-04T18:30:00Z

After a six day washout, I have decided to go ahead and try name embedded Paragon Complete: A/SPS: Eyesight in the ZPQ build. I built it today with an express order and hope to recieve it tomorrow.

Regarding this current stack, a part of me didn’t want to continue it. I wondered why and thought over it during the 6 day washout and I didn’t like the feeling of being who I am anymore. The stack (especially Chosen) healed a lot of things within me. But the overcoming of a lot of trauma led me to wrestle with the idea of whether I wanted to continue with my current personality and its outlooks.

My current behaviors don’t give me the outcomes I want. Including being an empath. Maybe the idea of Understanding others for a long time has led me to not want to anymore.

I don’t want to care as much. I have done enough of it and it made me want validation which in turn led me to try to please everyone except myself. And what has that gained me? Nothing. Just someone others can use for themselves to feel good and then they can go on their merry way.

But I don’t blame them. Who wouldn’t want to feel good? It was my own fault for expecting things from others rather then expecting it from myself.

Be dependent on others and you end up living on other people’s terms. That’s the harsh lesson.

I don’t know whether it is too late for me to have any other lifestyle but that won’t stop me from trying to change it.

So no more of this sympathising and empathising. I will look out for myself. My thoughts and feelings are sacred to me. And being an empath will be a side-effect of my life rather than be my main personality trait.

I would rather be a success first. Let the other things fall in place later.

Please close this journal, @RVconsultant. Ths Chosen, Stark, Emperor stack has done its job for me and I am grateful for it.

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#53