Lion - Forge of Darkness

“If we are to live, we must take risks. Else our lives become deaths in all but name. There is no struggle too vast, no odds too overwhelming, for even should we fail — should we fall — we will know that we have lived.”
-Anomander Rake (Toll the Hounds)

This journal will detail the customs I make based around the Cores of Emperor Black, Dragon Reborn and Khan, the three Alpha titles that will help me be the man I desire to be.

The focus will be healing and integrating masculinity, leadership and freedom. There will be a series of customs that will proceed like the stages of a multistage. Basically a Custom ST1 and then a Custom ST2 and so on and so forth, building upon each other to maximize self-improvement. I will only put 2 Cores per custom in each stage and things will get clearer as I go along. No use planning all the customs in one go but I have a pretty good idea how they will be.

Along with that, I will have a Paragon custom (of course) and a skill-based main store title or custom based on titles like Renaissance Man and/or Quantum Limitless and/or Ecstasy of Gold and/or Revelation of Mind/Revelation of Spirit and/or…you get the gist. The latter main store title or custom will be something I can be flexible on so as to not be bored while I stick to my Alpha and Paragon customs.

There might be times I will go on a Paragon custom solo journey in this journal since I realize that that is my priority in my current circumstances. I have reconciled with the place I am in and have finally accepted that I should flow like water based on the situation I am in and move to greater heights from where I currently am rather than moving upwards from where I wish to be.

Now on to firing up my favorite text editor on my phone to compose my first custom for this journal.

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Oh that’s a stack :point_up:Good luck on your journey.

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Please move this to the “custom subliminals” journals section

:grin:

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Haha I knew my commenting on this issue would bite me in the behind one day. But I didn’t expect it to be so soon. Good. It will keep me humble haha.

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My mom always says:

whenever you’re pointing your finger at someone, be aware of the 3 fingers pointing back at you.

:stuck_out_tongue:

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Anomander ST1: DRAGNIPUR

  1. Dragon Reborn ST1 Core
  2. Emperor Black Core
  3. New Beginnings
  4. ARES
  5. FEBRUUS
  6. Atman
  7. The Forge
  8. Growth Through Pain
  9. Stop Porn and Masturbation
  10. Inner Gasoline
  11. The Single Point
  12. Debt Annihilator
  13. Path of Forgiveness
  14. Virtue Series: Patience
  15. Light of Humility
  16. Untouchable
  17. Iron Frame
  18. Emperor’s Voice
  19. Dominion
  20. Mosaic

“Forged in darkness, it chains souls to the world that existed before the coming of light.”
-K’rul regarding the sword Dragnipur

Anomander. The First Son of Darkness. Wielder of Dragnipur, a sword cursed to drink the souls of those it slays and inprison them within itself.

That sounds cool and all but what we forget is that with such great power comes a great burden. To whom more is given, more is rightly expected.

This journal mainly focuses on my alpha custom rightly named after the character Anomander Rake from the Malazan Book of the Fallen. A tragic figure who leads his people towards causes that will give them meaning.

Instead of living a long immortal life of hedonism, he chooses purpose. And not just any purpose. Purpose that if the moment calls for it, he is ready to sacrifice even himself.

And which man wouldn’t want to embody that? That given the choice to rest on your power, you choose to use your power for the greater good of humanity?

To kick that off, we have the first stage of the Anomander multistage. The ST1 rightly called DRAGNIPUR will slay in me all that stands in the way of living a life of masculine purpose and freedom.

  • Dragon Reborn ST1 Core to bring in the cleansing FIRE.

  • Emperor Black Core for focus and discipline on this journey.

  • New Beginnings, ARES, FEBRUUS, Atman, The Forge and Growth Through Pain to hammer me and mould me.

  • Stop Porn and Masturbation and Inner Gasoline to fuel the inner fire in the forge.

  • The Single Point for meditation and even more focus.

  • Debt Annihilator for obvious reasons.

  • Path of Forgiveness, Virtue Series: Patience, Light of Humility and Untouchable to encourage a virtuous mindset required for the arduous road.

  • Iron Frame and Emperor’s Voice to take the first steps towards the alpha mindset.

Time to slay dragons to be one.

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A thought while waiting for my custom:

ZP is a strange creature isn’t it? It always makes us hyper-aware of what DOESN’T suit us.

I think the frequent stack changing in Q versions are because of recon and in ZP it is due to incon. Incon as in incongruence.

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Incon LMAOOOOOOOOOOOO

fuckkk Hahahahahaa

if I only I can like posts more than once

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Day 1
Anomander ST1 x1, Paragon x1

There was tons of recon in the morning. It was pretty humbling but Light of Humility and Virtue Series: Patience helped me handle it all in the right spirit.

There were thoughts of abandoning the custom after just a first loop but thankfully recon cleared by the end of the day and I realised that I didn’t have any urge today to masturbste or watch porn. The Stop Porn and Masturbation module along with the EB Core helped me pass the day without the need for such dopamine hits. Am still surprised that not even a thought to waste time in such habits crossed my mind.

Am back to my OMAD diet and although I did break the fast a couple of times today, the portion sizes weren’t as large as before. I need to discipline myself even more when it comes to food but there is an inner strength rising up as I pledge myself to keep strictly to my OMAD practice.

I shouldn’t be surprised at the recon. I have modules like ARES, FEBRUUS, The Forge, etc in order to help me get over myself faster and shortcuts like this will take more energy. I need to grit my teeth and go through the fire.

Am pushing myself to get 8 hours sleep everyday so that’s a good thing. The body needs sufficient rest and I don’t want to later regret for being reckless with its health.

Dragnipur has taken its first swing and I am ready for more.

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Day 2
Rest

I noticed today that a lot of my fears have vanished. Poof! A state of nervousness that previously used to haunt me has ceased to exist. Dragon Fire and ARES burning all my fears away.

The Growth Through Pain module also seems to be working silently. Maturity steadily increases as pain converts to growth in my soul. When you have an illness, you carry a lot of pain of how life could be a better way if you didn’t have such obstacles in your life. But with this module, I can use the pain for my benefit. Convert the negative into the positive.

Today I spent some time thinking about RoM. Wondering how it will stack with Paragon. If it can help reveal things to solve my health problems, that would be wonderful.

Hopefully Saint will one day make RoB. Revelation of Body. It is only right that Mind (RoM) and Spirit (RoS) be made complete with the 3rd member of its trinity.

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That sounds like a really good idea…
mr-bean-bean

If you know what I mean…

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Yes. It could be a sweet seduction title too. Reveal that body!

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Please post this to get the attention it deserves.

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Will put it on the roadmap after RoM comes out. RoM sales page will give me more ideas.

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Day 3
Anomander ST1 x1, Paragon x1

Woke up with a heavy feeling on my temples. First thought as I opened my eyes was “Did I make a mistake making this custom?” Thankfully I gained 2 super-powers today that made me change my mind.

The first being that I suddenly realised that am not being triggered anymore. I was listening to some political talk that usually leans in a direction that I oppose but I was listening to it and nothing. Instead I was calmly analysing it for facts vs falsehoods and filing it away for future use. That Virtue Series: Patience module is becoming a huge favorite of mine for this benefit. A shoutout also to the Untouchable module and EB Core for making me even more stoic.

The other benefit was that I am getting better at my meditations. Was doing Joe Dispenza’s Pineal Gland meditation today and I was able to focus. Unfortunately I was nodding off now and then so eventually I will have to add Revelation of Mind to the mix to help with this.

RoM will also serve me to find purpose in life. This desire to find meaning has been a fruitless one so far but on second thoughts, I suppose all this is part of the journey.

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Day 4
Rest

Tons of sexual energy in my body today. Inner Gasoline activated after a couple of days of saving up.

Recon comes on and off. Am holding it at bay as much as possible.

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Hey lion try out a microcosmic orbit mediation to move around all that sexual energy through your body. You got to move that energy around otherwise it just gets stuck and stagnated. Also you can store all that sexual energy in your Dian tien for later use and healing.
Also you can do an inner fire mediation to really facilitate all that energy too. You will feel warm and blissful energy from this one.

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Damn I forgot about that one although I do it automatically sometimes when I remember. @Lion I have a great 15 minutes audio if you want to try :slight_smile:

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How does one get started with meditation?

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All new concepts to me. Will check it out.

Please do.

Meditation in general or in terms of the one BreathingJaguar mentioned?

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