Budewr’s journal

Very briefly.

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i gotta say damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

i dont know whats causing this but im really loving it

now i sleep less even if i get tired and go to bed

yestrday i slept at 4am i was super tired i thought im gonna sleep for a whole day
i woke up 10 am

badaboom :sunglasses: :sunglasses:

i love the less hours of sleep that im investing, its not like i wake up tired and i want to sleep more

its more like i cant even sleep more cause i want to work :sunglasses: :sunglasses: :sunglasses: :sunglasses:

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cant belive that im saying this but im switching stark with emperor hahahahha

i swear this is not recon what so ever, its just i took some notes on my weakpoints and addresed them with being honest with myself and badaboom i lack discpline and focus and determntion which is all in emperor

stark is very light in terms of those, however ive ran stark for only 2 months with a heavy stack so i wont blame it on stark

hahahahhahah i swear this is not recon,

will updates with emperor later maybe a couple of months in or small updates from time and time, but not major journalling ,

so its EQ+RM+QL+LDU badaboom ez pz

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played a loop of emperor yestrday with my stack, i feel very energized from the inside

but in no way thats emperor right? i just played 1 loop overnight it cant be that effective with 1 loop

its like theres a fire inside me, that wants so strive.

very new weird feeling

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i kinda feel this inner power everyone is talking about maybe?

its weird i just ran 1 loop overnight, but bro im on fire from the inside hahahahah

its very fun

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bruh i really wanna work HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH this is emperor for sure

i never woke up in the morning and i was like, man im excited to work hahahahhaha

im grateful :smiling_face_with_three_hearts: :smiling_face_with_three_hearts:

also, ill be visting the forum very less often, i need to cut wasting lots of my time in here :joy:

it became like twitter 2 me,

i wanna do an approach like i once did before, just run subs and move on in your life, and not care so much about checking the forum every now and then (its cheap dopamine for me the notifications hahha even in here)

so i gotta cut the crap dopa :sunglasses: :prayer_beads:

also its taxing to think about subs and ask if its working or not bla bla other stuff, just move on and experince and come back if you find something

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or you could consciously choose how you use the forum
meaningful contribute to grow your rank and save money on future customs
journal your process for tracking your own growth and to help with the alchemical process of your transformation.
Anytime (not every time but often enough )something is stuck in my life and I share about in the forum authentically, my life starts to move again.
Your an Emperor now so everything in your life can serve your greater purpose-I don’t mean to dissuade you though …you know what’s best for you :wink:

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Thanks!!! Ill limit myself to 5 posts a day, and 3 times visits or 2 times visits a day

I got the ranks on my mind dw :sunglasses:

also im running QLST1 which is very important to me, since i want to cut that cheap dopamine, and make it less effective on me, and fix my receptors and nervous system, so part’s of taking action on QL is less time on forum, twitter etc that quick fix of dopamine

but ill be posting much less

have a good one friend

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Small update:

feeling more in tune with what i want in terms of time mangement, im planning my day ahead, i thought popped into my head to play leauge of legends instead of working on my purpose, but nope im good here :sunglasses: :sunglasses: :sunglasses:

is that the emperor voice within? love it

its very intresting, before i would favor playing a game or 2 maybe before starting my day, now im feeling more towards my goal

this is magical

(hahahah im back on the forum, jk just to add notes and help me be grateful for everything)

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Have you already done it?

I have done this process 3x. Amazing but though process! During the breathing I used fall in seep so Michael told me to do it stand and he said if you fall onces you will never again haha.

I still have some tension patterns that I am dealing with, but over all amazing!

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to tell you how much of a procrastinator i am, i wanted to start this book 2 months ago just when i joined sub club, i sitll havent done anything :joy: :joy:

wow thats amazing! i heared people change dramaticlly when they do it, its like a new person,
also it helps you with being in the present moment, which is something i struggle with sometimes,

hahahahah thats funny :joy:

we cannot be fully 100% healed, were humans hahah, we try our best to heal and do what we can do, healing is a long process youre not gonna be done with it from a couple of times, more healing means more deeper probelsm that will arise that you werent aware of

best of luck and love 2 u my friend

Quick small update:

loving the emperor, im having way wayway less interest in wasting time on things that dont serve me

Its more like im aligned with the higher self of me, without the ego to interrupt my progress in life

Beautiful beautiful,

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wow just wow,

before i would rather to watch youtube while im eating or watch anime or play games

now i wanna watch gaia.com which is a platform for growth!!!

im hungry for growth and the change and the love that i seek more and more

it might be from emperor and QL ST1, very lovely


emperor was an excellent choice im very happy and grateful to the light.

whenever i recgonize small changes in me, and behaivoural patterns ill report

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haha me too 4x !!

Love this book

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DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN 4x, thats a lot!

update: small recon hitting me in a form of trying to stop using emperor cause it might change who i am naturally

and im kinda scared man to change from my true idenity, i dont want to be domnieting and forcing people to respect me like im gonna kill them if they dont

its kinda stressing me out a littile bit, i know that saint and fire said multiple times that no scripts are forced, its up to you to decide

but im just kinda scared to loose my progress inthis life from running emperor,

with all respect and love to everyone who thinks that way, but i think being dominet and forcing respect on others and making people fear your prescene is just pure inscuerity, thats a real fragile person imo

and i dont wanna be that guy, cause sometimes the sub-concious can change who you really are and turn you into something else that maybe you didnt want or anything

i know it has been disscussed many times, but im just getting it outta my chest

i want everything about emperor’s ambition and discpline and the striving element and the fire within and the power

but i dont wanna dominet people and be an insecure guy who demands respect in some fragile way

respect is always mutual, you respect the other, you shall be respected

its a recon talk :joy: but man im kinda scared to change to something that i am really not,

but @SaintSovereign post about his girlfriend running some dominat scripted sub and it did not make her dominat in fact the opposite, made me very relived, that those subs wont change me and force something that i dont want naturally in my life

i had this before, the fear of turning back to the old me, the insecure me,

man i just wish there were some nice pals running emperor here around the forum , kind loving emperor’s.

all im seeing are people wanting to be dominat and demand respect GTFO typa attitude which is not me pal

hahahahha very strange i feel recon :rofl: :rofl: its actually funny and intreseting very weird

but i know im on right track

even if thoughts came about emperor being this and that, i will keep playing for the longest time,
i want to stick with it for 4months and more

i hope i wont turn into something that i am not, (which i am sure about it since i didnt turn into a people pleaser on stark cause some people faced that )

but i wanna keep playing it and create my own empire within,

someone turned into a douche and not so nice, that wont happen to me :smiley:

I completely understand not wanting to be domineering and being that person that forced everyone to submit to you. I would give House of Medici a shot. In just 4 days along QL and a custom, I have developed an inner relaxed dominant self confidence with it. That may be what you are seeking.

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