Or I could just do what Kamal Ravikant recommended in "Love Yourself Like Your Life Depends on It " and just say " I love myself " all day .
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This is my goal with Love Bomb
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Fascinating read
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Still not feeling the best after dropping down to thirty second loops. Feeling really anxious all week. Iām not going to run anything for the next couple of days and see how I feel. Iām not sure what else to do. Thirty seconds is the lowest that we can go and still get results? Is that correct @SaintSovereign @AnswerGroup
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Can I ask when you took a washout and how long it lasted? I only came to realize I had been low key overloaded for a long time when I took a long washout for months. For me it took more than a month for my mind to begin empty and two months to feel completely refreshed. The difference was day and night.
Maybe take more rest days for now to relax instead of cramming more listening into the mind?
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I havenāt done a washout in a while. Probably a good idea. I will take one over the next week. Not run anything until at least a week from tomorrow
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Third day of my wash out. Busy week for me. The end of the week anyway. Finally having cataract surgery on my right eye Thursday. Then I have a post op appointment on Friday. So by next weekend I can be seeing out of both eyes again. I probably have to wait until late June or into July to get glasses and get everything going so I can see clearly.
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Fourth day of the washout. Actually excited about my eye surgery coming this week. I really want to get back to coding but its been a bit of a slog because I sometimes miss often or donāt notice things I probably would with clear vision. Iām still going to make a ton of mistakes but thatās part of the learning process.
Iāve been watching a few tutorials on YouTube and picked up some things Iām excited to work on
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You are amazing James! Not many people in your age do I know that want to change something so big as themselves. The most are content in which whatever they are. You are a ligthouse for me. Give hope, zhat You are never to late to change if you really want 
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Thank you so much for that
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Day five of my washout. Feeling a bit anxious today but I know itās because of my eye surgery coming up Thursday. Hoping everything goes well.
I donāt know if Iām doing something wrong or being impatient but I havenāt experienced any obvious results yet but if I run anything over thirty second loops I get recon. Do I need more rest days between loops? Maybe two days instead of one?
More action
and
More sleep
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I definitely need more sleep but Iām not entirely sure what action to take with LB
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Youāve been looking damn good so far, frankly speaking.
Try expressing your experience in loving appreciative ways
Do Gratitude practice. Not forced, but just gentle. (Shoutout to @SuperSaiyan )
Gentle means you donāt contrive fake gratitude, but just regularly and periodically notice if thereās anything for which you feel grateful. Just check and thatās all.
Memento mori is helpful to me and Reverse Memento mori.
Imagine when you were born. Completely helpless and completely dependent. Only able to survive because other people (of course imperfect people) found it important enough to take care of you. Just try to let that mental video rewind back and see yourself there utterly weak, not even able to sit up. Then if you want it can fast forward to the very end in the future somewhere, when this body wears out and falls apart.
Then ā¦zzziiip! You let it snap back to where you are right now, and notice how precious this moment of Livingness is.
Youāve mentioned a few times that for your work you sometimes are caring for people. Allow yourself to be aware of what a spiritual badass that makes you. A soldier amidst the shit and piss of the human condition; just fucking helping, sometimes. That means so damn much.
Lean into it.
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You probably wouldnāt feel that way if you knew how much I dislike to almost detest the person I take care of. If you knew her you would understand.
Iām still incredibly grateful for the work and experience. Itās taught me that I have the right temperament for that type of job. Itās also helped a bit with patience because I am forced to do things on someone elseās time and abilities rather than my own.
I think I would be more appreciation for the work if the person didnāt act like sheās entitled to my time 24 hours a day and would actually show appreciation instead of often intentionally making things unnecessarily difficult
Fuck now Iām doing a bunch of inner reflection on this and some other things.
Iāve been reading a book that @ksub recommended to me. Trying to see what Iāve accomplished even if it doesnāt feel like I have.
I donāt feel that different internally. At least not yet. Thatās probably something that changes over a longer period of time.
Iām also curious if the results are taking longer because I have so much to work through or because Iām listening to the subs with one ear because Iām basically deaf in my left ear. Itās difficult not to have envy for the people that can run the titles with two fully functional ears.
@SaintSovereign @Fire Any thoughts on this?
I remember @SaintSovereign telling me a while back to play the masked track with in ear earbuds and thatās what Iām doing
These are the earbuds Iām using
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Soā¦ the fact that you have the fortitude and courage to decide to learn coding and programming at a period of your life when most people have already given up, isnāt that a huge win in itself?
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There is that . Thank you for pointing that out. I always seem to go blank when I try to look back at what Iāve gained
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You could try the Elixir of the Swedish man. Wet a cotton ball with and put it in your ear over night. As long as thereās hearing capacity left, it can be healed one way.
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