It seems that Khan1 has unlocked some sort of emotional upheaval in my inner being. Not sure what words to use there.
I used to inwardly scoff a bit at people’s reactions when singers like Kurt Cobain or Chester Bennington committed suicide. Vigils, calling them “heroes” and all sorts of other stuff.
But I sorta get it now. Dolores O’Riordan (of the Cranberries) died in 2018. At first, the cause of death was reported as suicide by overdose as I recall. It’s since been ruled that it was accidental drowing due to alcohol and some level of therapeutic drugs.
I get it now, though. I was sad in 2018 when she died. She’s one of my favorite singers. The voice of an angel. But it wasn’t until today that I REALLY got it.
Was driving for Doordash work. I was checking out a curated playlist on my Apple Music. It uses your own music already in your libary, but is themed.
I forgot what the theme was for today’s. But the Cranberries’ song “Dreams” came on. I didn’t realize that was in the playlist. It’s my fav Cranberries song.
Her voice in that hit me just right, and I think Khan Black ST1 has shaken something loose.
It isn’t that I think she’s a “Hero” or whatever other terms used to bug me.
Wife was sad like this about Robin Williams’ death in 2014. Even now, when something of his is playing, she gets sad af.
It’s more like “Now I’ll never get the chance to meet him/her and tell what their music/movie/etc mean to me. That I appreciated them for who they are. Won’t get to meet them, shake their hand, hold them for a second or two in a hug and just say thank you.”
No idea why KB would hit like that, but there it is.
