So I’ve been running S&SX, WB, KB for a week or so.
Last night was a sub day and I changed it up. Ran Nouveau R.I.C.H., BILLionaire V3 custom, and BDLM.
Dreamed I bought 2 SUV type vehicles. One for me. One for the wife. And found a decent house to rent.
All without telling the wife. Just did it with money I’d stashed over time. Did it and figured she’d like a steady place to live and a car of her own. So I’d deal with any upset she had.
At one point I find myself planning how to turn the basement into a kickass lab/workshop for my tinkering.
At one point, I hosted some kind of big party in the house. The wife wasn’t around yet.
I was manning the bar in the house. Two very gorgeous girls, maybe in their 20s were eyeing me and talking about me from across the room.
They didn’t realize I had super-hearing in the dream.
Girl A asked Girl B how old she thinks I am. Girl A thinks I’m cute at least. But can tell I’m older.
Girl B says “He is cute but seems way old. 30 maybe.”
I resolve that if anything comes from this, I’mfonna make my move on either one or both. Even though A seems the most into me.
I make a small show of “noticing” them looking at me and do a quick head nod.
They come over, A asks how old I am. I act all mysterious about answering for a few minutes. B pulls out a calendar type thing trying to figure out my age. I finally say I’m 48.
B is grossed out. “Ewww gross, let’s go A”
They leave.
The dream ends with them on a bus back to wherever they’re from.
A sort of voiceover thing shows that A already can’t stop thinking about me and regrets not taking things further with me because B got to her.
In the dream I’m legit “the one who got away” and she can’t stop thinking about me.
I woke up from the dream feeling quite amazing and confident.
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I was thinking about the house in the dream ^^^^^. I realized this is a house I’ve dreamed about before once.
In THIS dream, the history of it is a bit different where my dad used to live in it. As I was moving my stuff in, I told the landlady and her husband that my dad used to rent it. Like it just came up in conversation
Shes suddenly got all weird, and being negative toward me. I finally said “I am NOT my father!”
weird.
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BV1ZPV2 now exists!
Downloading now to run it through my script to make microloops of it.
Stoked!
I’ll be running an eventual stack of:
BV1ZPV2
S&SX/BDLM custom
Sex Mastery, Diamond or Divine Diamond (Not fully decided yet. I’m still tinkering with the idea of adding one of them as a 3rd core to the above custom.)
Although Wanted Black or Khan Black would make a killer 3rd sub to stack with BV1 and the S&S/BDLM custom.
Too many possibilities, and waiting on my paycheck still.
EDIT: On days I run BILLionaire V3, I’ll also run 30-60 second of Nouveau R.I.C.H. to “upgrade” the wealth scripting in BV3 with the NWE. I won’t count that as a slot per se since it’s just for helping BV3 be more in line with the NWE.
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So I went to bed last night. Ran:
- Noveau R.I.C.H. (30 seconds to get the NWE flavor for the stack)
- BV1ZPV2 (3 mins)
- S&SX (3 mins)
- RoD (3 mins)
(decided RoD will be my 3rd sub. Help regain more constent lucid dreaming ability…but also help with using dreams on whatever comes up from the other 2 main titles)
Will replace S&SX store sub with the S&SX/BDLM custom I’ll be building.
Ran one loop, fell a bit asleep, woke up as the last track ended (because I set my microloops to start 5 seconds in, and end X time after, the beginning and endings are abrupt. no fade).
Took headphones off as that ended, went to sleep fully.
Dreamed I was in a huge facility of some sort. Not sure exactly what it is. I’m in charge or some aspect of something in the buildig (?) but I’m walking around all over the place trying to find some specific ID card, or credit card. Something card-sized (lol) and can’t find where I put it.
A smattering of the others in the facility (my underlings I presume) were trying to sow seed of discontent about me being “incompetent”, since I can’t find the important card I’m looking for. Like they’re trying to get me out so they can take over my position.
I’m not worried about them in the dream. More focused on finding the card I need.
(This tells me maybe I should run PCC more at some point)
My dream recall is usually spot-on as @Sage_Ninjistic can attest. This one is just snippets though.
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Reading the posts by @Feuerwerk, @Jouissance and @NinjaGazin got me thinking about that above. Instead of RoD (which is really just a “nice to have” more than anything), I need to run Heartsong as my 3rd title.
Every time I’ve run HS, I shy away because of the recon. And I know I’m stronger than that. I need to run HS and just work through whatever shit and muck it brings up.
sigh.
Here goes…
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Just a heads up that my partner and I listened to it once every couple of weeks or so. Once a week max. We let it bring up the recon. We had our “productive heartsong fights” and then we let all that simmer down before listening again. Slow and steady wins the race.
I think Heartsong really does have an initial result of making you see all the ways that your partner ISN’T your ideal partner… that’s a necessary part of finding out what your partner would have to do to really be your “ideal” partner in the first place.
But that causes conflict when all of a sudden you say “you don’t do this for me!”
So don’t listen to Heartsong faster than you’re implementing it in your relationship I’d say.
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What is in Bv1zpv2?
I’m going into HS with no expectations. Just letting it to whatever needs done
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I don’t know what it is, but nearly every time I run a money sub in earnest, some “bad” money shit happens.
Thought my paycheck would hit last night. As it’s been the past 2 every other Wednesdays (the 4th and 18th ofOctober).
Nothing by today, so I texted my supervisor to clarify when the next one is.
“Oh, the 7th and 22nd of each month”. No answer when I asked why last month’s wereon the 4th and 18th instead.
But this means that the wife and I have to be out tonight (deliverng in pitch fucking dark when I’ve got goddamned night blindness and I’m the only one can drive)…tomorrow morning and evening.
And the wife is at orientation today and tomorrow from11am-5pm, out usual prime delivery time.
I put out a few feelers for quickie hypnosis clients. Said I can do a zoom zap for them for $350 tomorrow from 11am-5pm my time (while I’ve got our hotel room to myself for privacy).
the $350 is what I’m short to have the room paid for by Nov4 (Saturday)for the week. Which I thought would be covered by my fucking paycheck.
We’re worse off right now for having “real” jobs than we were before getting them.
What is the correlation? I ran 30 seconds of Nouveau R.I.C.H. and full 15 mins of BV1ZPV2.
What is with these so-called “negative” money manifestations?
Am I missing some big-picture obvious lesson here?
Whiny rant over
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Maybe it’s just recon/shifts showing up in the “real world” instead of my usual headaches I’m used to getting for recon.
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Decided the sexduction custom will be called Sexduction, IrresistiBILL, or FuckaBILL.
IrresistiBILL and FuckaBILL were names I toyed with before in a post half joking and I think it was @RVconsultant who liked one of those.
Anyway. Still considering the name.
I’d like to say that the crisis is averted and it’s due to me figuring out how to make $350 in just a few hours. That isn’t true though. Crisis IS averted. Wife asked daughter to borrow the $ until my paycheck hits next week.
Which, naturally, makes me feel like less of a man. Overall, this situation is (I think) one of those the NWE promises to bring up to get me moving along.
The “lesson” is:
- Don’t count on any one source of income to be there when you think it will
- Have many sources/streams.
- Living paycheck-to-paycheck sucks ass
- It helps to have a cushion of money for situations like this.
A. If I’d had enough of a money cushion set aside, this day would’ve been a mere blip on the radar. A small hiccup, instead of me allowing my mood to be tossed about like a ship in a storm.
I mentioned to a friend online that I was at the grocery store parking lot, waiting on an Instacart order to come in, when today was meant to be a day off for me. They said “money is money”…to which I replied “Not all money is equal.”
So point 5 is:
5. Not all money is equal. Some money is indeed better than others, and it all depends on what you have to do to get it.
I finished Ed Mylett’s book “The Power of One More” just last night. There’s a chapter about equinamity. I failed the equanimity challenge today. Mainly because I didn’t have a cushion set aside (hard to do when on this treadmill we’re on).
Equanimity is similar in practice to the practice of Stoicism (the philosophy, not the BS notion about appearning emotionless).
So much still to unpack I’m sure. This stack may kick my ass, but I’ll see what comes out of it on the other side.
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I sense that the Ascension part of Ascended Mogul in BV1ZPV2 is at work already. As far as the “I don’t feel like a man” part. It’s working on that level. I’d pair GLM in if my stack had any slots left.
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This just happened to me.
BIG time.
I’m calling it ‘recoil’.
Or like when your (5-speed) car is parked on a steep incline, and you start driving. You’ll roll back first.
Or like when you’re in a musty, farty room and you open a window to let fresh air in. You’ll smell the bad smell first then the fresh air.
That’s how I’m thinking of it, Palpatine.
But time will tell.
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IrresistiBILL ordered.
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Beinga hypnotist with the training and experience I’ve got, I subscribe to the idea that 3 repetitions of a stimulus causes the mind to start to build patterns from the stimulus.
With that in mind, my plan for BV1ZPV2 and IrresistiBILL is to listen to each for however many loops it takes to get exposure to each module/core 3 times.
Each custom is 20 modules. So that’s 60 loops.
So I’ll run each custom a minimum of 60 times, however long that takes. After which each module should have had enough exposure to take hold.
As for Heartsong, I have a love/hate relationship with it, so I’m only committing to one cycle with it for sure. After that I’ll evaluate.
There are titles I want to run with my customs eventually, such as RotNW, PCC and GLM.
So most likely I’ll swap Heartsong out after a cycle, give it a chance to bloom when I run the other stuff with the customs also.
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In 2010, we found out the wife was pregnant with what would’ve been our third child (maxed out at 2).
I got all into it. Built up this whole mental thing of holding the baby while s/he slept. I was eager to be a dad yet again.
There’s a song Jewel (the singer) had on her album “Lullabyes” which I was gonna play for the kid.
We lost it a few weeks later (it was very early in). We were both sad, of course.
It’s less now.
I’m at work and that song came up from my playlist on shuffle. And it hit me just right. So I’ve been here at work just working and thinking about that time.
The kid would have been 12 going on 13 now. And what I’m thinking about today is, though I was sad about losing the baby, I’m also partly glad that the kid didn’t have me as a dad. I’ve wasted a big part of my life. Which is why I’m starting over with my subs, and goals, and so on.
Just in my head today, and wondering what kind of dad I would’ve been.
Even though my kids are grown, sometimes I wonder if I should explore LME to be a better dad to my adult kids.
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