I’m really feeling the stack now. I feel amazing. Just calm, optimistic, and sexy.
I wish I could run the stack to get more of the feeling, but I know it doesn’t work like that.
An idea that came to me for a future stack is something involving Heartsong and GLM together. I’d really like to see what that does. Not sure yet what I’d use for a third sub, if I had a third sub.
I suspect HS and GLM alone would be quite effects-focused.
It’s bugging me a bit (not sure why) that I feel so driven to post today. Like I’m “talking too much”.
Given that random meeting happened on day 1 of this cycle, I’m so happy my stack manifested seeing her.
Day 2: Rest. Except I felt led to run Ascension Chamber.
Did 2x of that while strolling the mind beach talking to Popeyes girl. I should really find out her name.
At one point, I found myself in the lobby I’d the Veterans’ care home I sometimes take food deliveries to. Think of that place like a nursing home for disabled veterans.
This felt like a Daytime Lucid Dream.
Only last a few seconds and then put myself back on the beach, walking with her again, holding hands, talking.
Also at one point I daydreamed seeing Zelda. Like randomly coming across each other.
Then started wondering what kind I’d person I have to become so these kinds of women would go for me.
Then that got me thinking about bringing Wanted back into play eventually (E:E, Wanted and GLM stack maybe?)
The day is still young and I’m heading out soon to do the Doordash thing again.
I’m eager to see how the day unfolds.
Day 2: Rest. Continued.
With yesterdays stack and todays 2x of Ascension Chamber, I’m feeling alternating sadness and lack of emotion.
And I’m finding myself considering the possibility I might have to go be single to have the kind of sex life I want. Not that i relish that idea. Because it means I’d be like my dad. I’ve journaled about the dad thing before.
I figure the stack is doing what it was designed to do.
Kinda hard to be the Emperor if I can’t honor my own desires and intuitions.
I can’t make the wife just want sex more without being manipulative and controlling. And to be honest, if I have to do all that, I don’t want it. I want it from someone who wants it too.
Likewise, she also can’t just make me want it less without being controlling and manipulative.
I will get through this cycle. I don’t plan to make any drastic situational changes without being ready.
Meaning I got work to do still.
I’ll run a cycle or two of Primal Seduction minimum to increase my skill of communicating with women.
So.
Where to MF begin.
Did that 2x of Ascension Chamber today during a deep Sanctuary meditation.
My Doordash time started at 1:30pm. At 12:30pm I decided to fire up the Uber Eats app again because I wanted a Popeyes order to see if Cutie was working.
A Popeyes one came up within 5 minutes for $14 or so.
She was working. She saw me come in. She’s a shift manager type. So was busy. I didn’t chat her up. Just smiled. She smiled back.
I got the food from the counter dude and delivered it. Ended up getting close to $20 because homey tipped even more.
I got paid to see a girl. Woo.
Later on during my Doordash thing I had the Uber app still on. I glanced at and realized it showed today’s (so far) earnings as $44 or $45 instead.
I dig in and find that apparently I “just happened” to get an extra $29 from Uber. Seems I did that one order during a promo window for guaranteed minimum hourly earnings.
Free $29. And just now I see that Index Gate store title is out. And with my Elites discount being what it is, that basically means I’m buying it free.
From 2 loops of Ascension Chamber.
Oh and Annabelle (girl who works at grocery store and the neighboring Teriyaki joint) is working today.
Gonna go say hi.
So I’m eating in the Teriyaki place. Sitting by the window and a cute chick and some guy she’s with walked by.
She glanced in the window and saw me seeing her. Smiled really nice. Nothing serious.
Just an Other-Than-Conscious Hello
She and the guy stopped on the sidewalk and were talking to each other.
I noticed something which I’m not sure if it’s “game” or what.
As they’re talking, 3 different times as he’s talking, he just moved to a different spot on the sidewalk.
And she just followed him. Talking maybe 3-5 feet total each time.
In the Jeffrey Stephens school of hypnosis, a really early step is an “Act of Compliance”. Something seemingly innocuous you tell the client to do. Like tell them to move their chair a bit closer.
Anything harmless that gets them used to following instructions.
I realized this guy was doing that! He’d move away from her a bit. She’d move to get closer again.
Nonverbal compliance builder. Interesting.
You know Dave Dobson?
Only about the OTC Hello really. Which in itself is quite amazing.
I ran a single loop of RoD at my desk before bed. Was already tired, but had just finished another chapter of Waggoner’s book.
Fell asleep at the desk, woke up groggy af. oozed into bed.
No dreams that I recall yet.
Today is sub day, so I’ll run my stack when I feel up to it later. I woke up hungry.
Day 3: E:E V1, GLM, LBFH, AscCh 1X
Not a lot to report. Ran AscCh so I can have a full rest day tomorrow.
I’ve been kinda chill today as it was wife’s day to Instacart (she shops, I carry stuff up to people’s door).
we did $150, not bad. We usually go for $200 but the last $50 just wasn’t happening before we were gonna head home.
Dobson, love his beach induction.
His other than conscious hello works amazing! (Used it a job interviews alot lol)
Day 4. Rest.
Woke up and finally did something I’ve been putting off for months. My car’s ABS system and/or slip control system keeps tripping. Overreacting.
The time it happened before, I had to clean off and reseat the wheel speed sensors on the back tires.
Been putting it off forever. Since I gotta be in the right mood for jacking the car up and getting dirty and gunky.
Finally did it today. It didn’t fully fix the issue but it at least waits much longer.
Before bed last night I did a microloop of each of my subs. E:E, GLM, LBFH. Did that twice and then right to bed. I think this helped a lot. So I’ll do that more.
This new drop of RMUW sounds amazing. When the time is right, I’ll grab that one too.
Holy shit. I finally decided to check out the first episode of “Rabbit Hole” with Kiefer Sutherland. Watched all 8.
Amazing fuckin show.
Plus Charles Dance in it. Cannot go wrong there.
Day 5: E:E, GLM, LBFH
So far, today’s run of my stack has me feeling a sort of “Dark Emperor” vibe.
Not like the focus of Emperor Black.
More like thinking of ways I could apply knowledge of the laws of power to “take over”.
Probably what I get for watching all 8 episodes of “Rabbit/Hole” right before bed.
I decided today that I’d like to work up to being able to run a stack or custom(s) centered around HOM, EoG4, Heartsong.
Lot of thoughts today about legacy, power, influence.
PCC will need to be fully mastered by that point or have it be part of the long-term stack.
Originally I also wanted Emperor but decided I’ll stack that archetype in if/as needed.
Stark is another archetype I wanna play with too.
Fame for the sake of fame isn’t desirable to me.
I’d rather be famous amongst circles I can influence, though.
Mark Joyner is famous af in marketing circles. But most average people who are all up in the Kardashian/Jenner business have no idea who he is.
I’m chewing on similar thoughts about fame and becoming someone of influence. Do I want to be someone that matters to millions of random faceless viewers on the internet or do I want to matter to a lesser audience but they hold far more value in their respective circle? Fame has its vices, and I for sure have some real messed up view of being an influential person because of the thousands of hours I spent on Youtube vicariously living life through other people’s videos.
Day 6: rest
#zdrt
Feeling a bit sad. FOMO is getting to me.
LBFH is just an asshole I think. lol
I don’t love myself enough I guess.
Dunno.
Self love is super important. I ran LBFH couple days ago. I was chanting “I’m gonna love myself” today and cleaned up my room, took a hot shower, brushed my teeth, told myself that I can handle anything etc. I feel great right now. Great and grateful.
Hey man, FOMO might have been manufactured into your mind from external influences. I realized that all the crap I see on youtube and instagram is a manufactured reality and it was making me feel like shit all the time.
Finding out what brings me comfort and joy in life was mostly discarding false “idols” of what I thought made my happy and comforting.
