KHAN + WANTED. Foxdie's Journal

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#262

Ascension - Rest Day 2– (Days done 13)
Primal Seduction - Rest Day 2– (Days done 1)

  1. I started waking up late and sleeping too much, it seems like my body is always tired and I can’t get out of bed. I don’t know if the cold of the new season has something to do with it.

  2. Every time I thought about hitting on a girl, an evil voice inside me always told me “she doesn’t want you, she’s too beautiful for you”. Now I feel and believe that that voice is fading and lowering in volume, and another little voice contrasts it and says “that’s enough! Do not say that”.
    I recognize that my failures with women were due in large part to my internal negative dialogue.

#263

Be prepared for these kinds of results to accelerate more in the months to come your inner voice will begin to empower you the more you expose yourself to the scripts you’ll see😉

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#264

Ascension - Day 13
Primal Seduction - Day 2

  1. Last night I met a girl, with the group of people I hang out with. She was very nice to me. She was very sociable with me, she initiated conversations with me and her body language was toward me. I also met another girl, with a very cute face and a nice character, I would like more girls like this in my life. As I walked away from the pub she asked me for a high five but I didn’t understand it and I was staring at her like a boiled fish, I’m not used to the attentions of beautiful girls it’s all a bit new. In all of this I noticed that there was some blockage that prevented me from continuing to interact with the girls of this night.
    There was too a guy who disrespected me and pissed me of a lot. Things like this happen in those days, some people disrespect me then I make it clear to them that they are doing it and make there quite. I was more silent before in occasions like this.

  2. As someone on the forum pointed out, with Ascension I find myself saying a lot of things without thinking too much, and it shows more when I’m pissed off. I should keep my tongue at bay a little or I might ruin some relationships.

  3. I am becoming numb. It almost seems that I don’t care about other people’s feelings but only mine. It’s both good and bad… it’s complicated.

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#265

Ascension - Day 14
Primal Seduction - Day 3

  1. I dreamed of being in a room looking for important documents in a box above the bed, and always there on the bed there was a beautiful woman with her breasts sticking out who didn’t give me so much attention. I looked at her boobs and saw that she noticed me doing it, so I shyly apologized for doing it, but she remained indifferent to my apologies and looking down sadly she started complaining about a guy who didn’t give a fuck about her. My thought at that moment was “she is a beautiful woman and she can have whoever she wants, yet she feels sorry for that single guy who ignores her. Then ignoring women really works! "
    Later in the dream I was again with this beautiful woman who I believe it was with someone, and I immediately next to them with a beautiful naked girl younger than her, who I hugged from behind.
    I wonder if the dream had any particular meaning.
#266

  1. I feel melancholy and I feel the need for someone.

  2. Listening to my voice in today’s Whatsapp audio, I like it. I don’t know if my way of speaking has changed or just my perception towards myself, but I can say that now I no longer hate my voice in the recordings.

  3. I value some people and some girls too much, especially the ones who don’t deserve it, but I would like to see them only as normal people. This overestimation of others places me at their mercy, in a disadvantageous and weak position. Yes, I would like to feel happiness when I see some girl, but not because I see her as something of value, the source of my well-being. They are just people, human beings, mortals.
    I give too much value to certain girls just because they are beautiful, when in truth it is not such a great added value, because many are. But what is more special about them than beauty? That’s what matters.
    I would like to internalize this mentality and perhaps this will give me the power I seek and the diversity that attracts.

#267

  1. I always blamed myself and had limiting beliefs about myself and that never allowed me to attract any girl. Seduction, the alchemy between two people is a natural thing, a man and a woman put together, they will end up falling in love unless there is some obstacle in between that does not allow it, and for me the obstacle was my negative beliefs about myself. To eradicate those beliefs from the depths of the soil named subconscious is to live free and fully.

  2. After the PS loop I was struck by a great desire to understand how to seduce women

#268

Ascension - Day 15
Primal Seduction - Rest Day - (Days done 3)

  1. For some reason I don’t feel at peace with myself. I’m afraid of what I might become, I’m worried because I think I’m losing the good side in me I’m becoming unscrupulous (?)

  2. I have anger and resentment inside that do not make me live in serenity.

  3. I feel desperate and sad inside me. I feel a desperate and sad longing for girls. My soul cries.

#269

Ascension - Rest Day - (Days done 16)
Primal Seduction - Rest Day - (Days done 4)

  1. I was at the pub tonight and I felt a great inner power. I took my space with my body as if I were at my house, I felt cocky and cool and I felt dominant. Tonight I met a girl, she is the second girl who seems to me to have started socializing with me first, as for the girl of last week. It would be wonderful if I was creating a magnet effect with girls now.

  2. I’m getting more “asshole”, and I feel it evident now. Something has grown in me, I don’t know if it’s ego or self-esteem, I just know that I feel stronger, it’s like having a fire in my chest. I start to care less about others and do not tolerate others disrespect me, I also notice that I am becoming selfish, I am no longer ready to sacrifice myself for others as I would in the past (except for loved ones or who really do they deserve). I am joining the club of “tough guys”, I am serious, asshole and with an eye on things to do.
    Someone said on the forum that Ascension is the cure for Nice Guy Syndrome, I can hardly believe it but it is, I never expected to achieve such results as a person and in just 21 days or so. I wonder what Ascension still has to offer me, I’m excited.

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#270

Isn’t it funny how these asshole guys seen to be liked and supported by others, whilst the self sacrificing guys get disrespected?

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#271

Yes. This is very strange and senseless.

#272

Dr Gabor Mate - “We live in a society that validates our invalidity, a society that validates our false self.”

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#273

Nobody gives a hoot about what you’ve sacrificed that’s why nobody likes nice guys.

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#274

I think you are showing the upmost respect for the opposite gender. I think this kind of behaviour is common among young kids who have no self control and act like horny dogs on viagra.

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#275

Best secret of attracting women is truthfully not caring about outcomes, taking risks for the sake of thrill rather than the reward that comes after

Everything you know about PUA is useless when not attached to a man with a player mindset who loves the game

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#276

No, I don’t think he is.

I think this is merely the case that Foxdie has high standards and that there is a difference between a club who is only suitable for a pump and dump and someone you would consider marrying even if you don’t want to get hitched.

And there is also the moral question which hangs over the objectively and deliberate vulgar.

Uglyness for the sake of being ugly or to put it another way “I may find it difficult to define obscene but I know it when I see it”.

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#277

And how does a man without the player mindset acquire the player mindset?

Think about it.

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#278

Well i certainly would not go round grabbing womens buttocks in clubs just because i am horny like animal in the mating season :joy:

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#279

how does the man that hates playing poker become a poker champion

think about it

but it ties into the point i said, by ditching attachment to outcomes he enjoys the game more and hopefully embraces it’s speed bumps enough to like playing.

dudes with a thirst to find their wives NOW dont enjoy women at all

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#280

To be clear guys, I don’t want to get married and I’m not looking for a wife lol :joy:

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#281

It usually stems from the myth of the soul mate or the fairy tale that one must be with someone in order for their life to be complete. Still for others its the fear of being alone.

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