KHAN - Forging the Alpha

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#1

So it begins. 30 days per stage. 1 loop per day.

Had major reconciliation from my previous custom with Ascension/Daredevil/SM cores. I was essentially trying to recreate Khan myself but in a way that would avoid the Total Breakdown and Reprogramming but due to the recon I figured I should jump straight into it.

Being dominant, confident and having self-belief have been the major hang ups of my life. I am smart, witty, can be charismatic, am physically attractive and have a good heart, but it’s always been my lack of dominance that has held me back. I’ve always viewed dominance and being alpha as a kind of brute stupidity - the fact that we as humans are wired to follow the person who is most confident and sure of themselves is clearly flawed, as the amount you believe in something has no correlation with how valid or not it is - see delusional people. Because of this reasoning I have always distanced myself from dominance and power.

I want to be my own version of Khan. Dominant, confident and powerful but for the altruistic purposes. The confidence to take action. My whole life I’ve been a planner, a day dreamer, and not an executor. I hope Khan will help me to change this.

DAY 1 - STAGE 1

Was supposed to have a call for a job interview this morning but pussied out and cancelled it last night.

Just had an initial phone screening interview for a different potential job with a recruiter. I was so nervous beforehand just for a silly phone call, I’d slept really badly and it’s been ages since I had done any interview type interactions. I nearly cancelled it but then forced myself to agree to it and it. It only lasted 10 minutes and I answered the questions whilst remaining calm, sounding stupid for some of them but oh well. I’ll hear back after the long weekend. Glad I did it at least.

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#2

Oh fuck… I’m starting to feel it. It feels GOOD. :joy:

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#3

Awesome dude! I feel very similar about Khan!

Again, please read my caution to you on another thread.

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#4

DAY 2 - STAGE 1

Wasn’t expecting to feel this good! Must be the Khan core that’s apparently mixed in with the Total Breakdown. Things I noticed yesterday (wasn’t exposed to anyone yet):

-Increased happiness, horniness, aggression (in a good way) and energy
-More alert even with bad sleep
-Gravitating towards boxing videos on YT, haven’t felt the urge to watch those in a while
-More pumped during workout
-NOFAP became harder, urge to watch porn

It’s pretty much exactly what I wanted from KHAN. Feeling better than I did on Ascension / PS / Stark. It’s bringing my aggressive side to the forefront, but not in an unpleasant way. I like it.

Hope it stays like this for the whole 30 days but I have a feeling the total breakdown side hasn’t kicked in yet. :laughing:

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#5

Only potential issue I see here is my motivation toward job hunting has decreased slightly as compared to my custom with Ascension. I have more energy, but I also feel more relaxed and less productive than my Ascending custom.

Just making note of this here, to remind myself I need to consciously channel my energy into my career. If I frame it as building up MY career so it’s working for myself and potentially exposing myself to new social situations i.e. women then it’s easier to get motivated rather than framing it as I need to get a job working for someone else in order to pay my bills.

That’s an important mindset shift I think. When I’m working for a company, all the work I do is building up MY CV, so that I can move up to the next thing and progress my career. Not just working for them in order to justify my salary. That’s probably common sense for most of you, but I need to remind myself of it often in order to stay motivated lol.

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#6

your making a job with great money flow to support the awesome lifestyle you have coming-happen :wink:

while building your value and net-worth potential in the world

I say this for both of us :grin::tada::tada:

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#7

Dude! So crazy you say that. A week or two in to Khan TB I got obsessed with boxing again. I was watching old Tyson and Ali fights, and spent one weekend watching nothing but boxing matches. Something about it felt so intriguing, and interestingly enough heavy bag boxing workouts have been the main workout I’ve been doing since starting Khan.

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#8

Best of luck with Khan @ichigo - TB goes deep at times but the end goal makes it all worth it. We’re in this together (I’m still on ST1) so reach out if you need any support through this journey!

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#9

@Azriel @Ice Thanks fellas!

Did a little socialising today, just with the family. Way more out going than Ascension/Daredevil/SM custom, felt more comfortable just vibing, less in my head or worrying about what I’m saying and how it’s being perceived. Awesome.

Yeah, it’s weird, I used to be huge into boxing but that fell away recently. With Khan it’s come flooding back instantly. I feel filled with that masculine aggressive energy I used to have when I did boxing training loads.

Loads of energy. Practically burning up. Combination of Nofap but then Khan definitely intensified it.

Little bits of neediness toward my ex, but often counteracting that with thoughts of “fuck her, you can do better” and “who cares, it’s in the past”. Keeping myself distracted and focusing on my goals, looking toward the future instead of dwelling on the past. Let’s get it.

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#10

KHAN’s energy… one man keeps popping into my subconscious.

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#11

DAY 3 - STAGE 1

Woke up early today after a good 8 hours sleep.

Feeling a strange mix of things. Filled with energy and motivation to do productive things for my career, but then struggling to actually focus and concentrate on what I need to read and do. Even coffee isn’t helping that much. Just want to get out and run around or something. Then I’m feeling happy on the surface but there’s an undercurrent of unease and anxiety I can feel in my chest.

I’m thinking the energy/happy is Khan core hitting and the unease and lack of focus is the break down process taking place in the background. Emperor would probably be better suited to my current tasks, but I want the goals of Khan in the long run so there’s 0% chance of me switching.

Ed: Oh yeah, hunger is way up above baseline too.

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#12

Purchased Limitless Executive UIltima to help with concentration, focus and productivity. 20 minutes in and it’s doing the trick. Basically feels like I just downed a Red Bull. Gonna run my Khan loop a bit later and then take a 2 day break for processing. Be interesting to see how long the focus/motivation of LEU lasts and if there’s any coming down/hangover effects later on.

This feels like the right move. Khan is taking care of social/sexual, then LEU to help with focus and productivity. Beast mode activated.

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#13

Felt the same way of uneasiness, usually on the day before recons or first day of it. The ex stuff is so so so true. I felt that neediness too but with the same resolve as you are experiencing. Funny thing, I am married with a new beautiful woman but these buried memories resurfaced. They do go away. It’s a slower process but one that I feel will stick. I am also more aggressive and pumped for workouts, also less motivated to study for the LSAT! Lost 10 pounds since listening. Focused on diet and health

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#14

Felt this with Stark Qv2 as well. Mine was a sudden hunger, like I want to raid the fridge… :grin:

#15

@GCMeditation25 Thanks man, yeah it feels better today. I ran 2 weeks of each stage of Dragon Reborn before and that felt more ruthless than this, the Khan core scripting seems to be helping the healing. Gives you a grit your teeth and push through attitude. Good luck with the LSAT, if you’re really struggling you can pay Mike Ross to sit it for you. :grinning:

@Apollo Yeah man, it’s not good. I pigged out on chocolate last night and have plenty left over to do the same today… I guess I can use Easter as my excuse. Hopefully it’s just initial recon and the diet side starts to kick in.

2 days rest now. Wanted to make a comment on the ultima: I’ve learned now that they do not work in the moment as a quick booster for me. Here’s how it goes:

30 mins in to ultima loop: Feeling good, feeling effects
60 mins in to ultima loop: Feeling drowsy, effects are there but hidden behind brain fog, desire for sleep.

After a full loop, I need a nap first before I can start executing, or I’m just too tired. Therefore my plan of running LEU in the mornings doesn’t seem like it will work as I can’t take a nap. If I run the loop and try to struggle through it’s counter productive and I’m better off having not listened to it at all.

In future I’ll test just 30 mins ultima listening and see what happens, maybe that’s the sweet spot for me.

DAY 4 - STAGE 1 - REST DAY

Nothing new except the urge to fap is extreme. Could barely sleep last night I was so horny.

Ed: NOFAP ended today. I got too uncomfortable, couldn’t think about anything else! No visual stimulation though so that’s good. Think I hit about 2 weeks.

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#16

DAY 5 - STAGE 1

Feeling a little more tender around the heart area this morning. More vulnerable and harder to concentrate. Waiting to hear back about a job interview which could potentially happen tomorrow so trying to prep for it but finding myself wanting to just zone out and watch TV to distract from the feelings.

Reminds me of healing subs I’ve used prior, they increase my body awareness around the heart chakra and I guess that’s what starts the healing. It will probably build up and get worse and worse until I shed some tears and then feel better. That’s the general pattern I’ve found with healing subs.

Excited to be able to listen to Khan again tomorrow. I usually don’t look forward to exposure to subs but something about this one has an addictive quality to it.

Edit: Decided to swap to a 3:1 listening:rest ratio instead of 5:2 so today is no longer a rest day.

#17

Let me know how the 3:1 schedule works out for you! Was considering something similar myself

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#18

DAY 6 - STAGE 1

Had a buddy come visit. We couldn’t do much because of lock down, just walked around a bit and then watched some TV. Was fun though, I found myself a little rusty socially to start with but eased into it toward the end. I was speaking louder than I normally do and feeling a sense of dominating a little more than usual. Had some subtle attraction from women as I walked around I think but couldn’t tell too much as I wasn’t focused on them. Nothing outrageously blatant that I can recall.

DAY 7 - STAGE 1 - REST DAY

Should be day 3 of my 3:1 ratio but a little hung over so I’ll take today as the rest instead. Doing more job prep stuff but feeling pretty down and lonely. Likely healing taking place. I’ve noticed I’ve been waking up feeling pretty down every day as my dreams are usually making me feel sad, and then it’s not until I run the Khan loop in the day that I perk up and feel better.

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#19

DAY 8 - STAGE 1

Had a really productive morning, listened to my loop just before lunch and it pretty much knocked me out. Couldn’t focus on doing much more until after a work out and dinner, did a bit more in the eve then. Starting to feel less effects from the sub which means it’s starting to become my new normal. It’s at this point I usually get the urge to swap but I know this is where the real growth happens.

DAY 9 - STAGE 1

Will test out running my loop later on in the day to try to keep the morning/afternoon as productive as possible. Will see if it has any negative impact on the quality of my sleep due to processing.

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#20

Reshape your conscious thinking my friend.

You don’t have an urge to masturbate. You have an urge for sex.

Masturbation is just your (very detrimental) leak to “satisfy” that urge.
But if you keep telling yourself that you have an urge to fap then you will start to believe it.

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