KHAN - Forging the Alpha

Journals - Major Programs
#21

DAY 10 - STAGE 1

Met up with a friend and chilled out for the day. Not too much to report. Although there was a brief time where I was talking with his girlfriend and her female friend before going out, which was like the first time in a long time I’d even spoken to a girl who isn’t family (lol lockdown). Although I felt nervous internally and couldn’t think of much to say, externally I seemed very solid and grounded without external signs of anxiety so that was good. Just a bit rusty when it comes to socializing.

DAY 11 - STAGE 1 - REST DAY

Had about 3 sex dreams in a row last night - that was unusual! Other than that feeling a bit down. Lots of job stuff to do, which I am working my way through, but I’m not feeling exactly happy whilst I do it. More that I know it’s gotta be done, so trudging my way through it. I can sense this is healing going on but rather than focus on it I’m just gonna distract myself from it and hope its sorting itself out in the background.

#22

DAY 11 - STAGE 1 - REST DAY

Coming to the end of today and it’s been a tough one. Feeling like I’ve wasted my life, that I’ll never be able to get another girlfriend. That I’m weird and therefore destined to be alone. Doubting my abilities to even handle a job. Feeling like what’s the point, wanting to curl up into a ball and cease to exist. Rest days are hit and miss for me, I’m either feeling great or awful. Much prefer days running the sub even though I’m generally more tired, I have more of a drive and my emotions are more stable.

Also making note of the fact that diet most definitely impacts my mood. On days I eat like shit, I feel like shit. Not just physically a lack of energy, but also heightened feelings of anxiety and doom. No hiding from the fact any more. I MUST eat properly, with healthy, nutrient dense foods, for my own mental well-being as much as any aesthetic benefits.

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#23

Many have reported you have high highs and very low lows on Khan.

Power through it, there is light at the end of the tunnel!

And, yes. A proper diet is key! Would change people’s lives and mood in many aspects!
(Cheat days are important as well though. Even healthy).

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#24

Thanks man. Yeah I know I just need to power through. So frustrating though, was feeling pretty good the last few days and then right when it’s a couple of days before an interview for the job I really want I get hit with anxiety, low energy and feelings of heart ache. Could barely sleep last night as my mind was racing. Had another 3 vivid dreams, this time all based around my ex and missing her e.g. trying to find her at a train station before her train pulls away.

Now trying to force myself into work mode and feel some drive but just feeling sad and empty. My excitement for the future has gone and now I just don’t care, I feel like what’s the point of doing anything if it’s not going to be with her.

I know this will pass, just wish I had the strength to pull myself out of holes like this. It’s like having a weight you need to bench and so you know in theory how to do it, but it’s just simply out of your current strength capabilities.

Anyway, moan over lol. I can see that those are limiting beliefs that won’t get me anywhere.

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#25

DAY 12 - STAGE 1

Today actually ended up being productive. Forced myself out of the mood from earlier and did good job prep and a good workout. Feel like I’ve earned a bit of a break before sleep. Just seen the new modules released in the Q store and waiting for confirmation, but looks like one that will help with ED/erection strength (SPS: Reproductive System) is finally here. Been waiting for that one forever, so if it is what I think it is, it’s going straight into a custom. :grin:

#26

How did you do that?

#27

Caffeine helped to perk me up, then forced myself to start working on it and eventually my focus came back to me. It’s a big deal for me to have gotten myself out of that. Khan’s really doing some good here I believe.

Ordered my custom ultima “Wurtzite Boron Nitride Erection” with:

Male Enhancement
Prevent PE
SPS: Cardiovascular System
SPS: Reproductive System
SPS: Digestive System

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#28

DAY 13 - STAGE 1

Spent the day feeling empty inside. Definitely some savage healing going on. Keeping myself closed off, unable to barely speak or be expressive because of the overwhelming feelings of existential dread in my chest. Did the best I could to focus on job prep.

DAY 14 - REST DAY

Took today as a rest day because I had a job interview later that day. Spent the whole day panicking and practicing for it. About a half hour before hand I was so nervous I was sweating. Listened to some loud music to psyche myself up and got myself in a Khanish aggressive mood beforehand. Adrenaline and shit kicked in during it. It was a 1 hour interview with 3 people asking quick fire questions followed by a timed 1 hour written assessment so 2 hours total. Made my way through it and know I performed the best I could, so proud of myself no matter what happens. If I don’t get through to the next stage I know it just wasn’t the job for me and I’ll find something better suited.

Had a nice surprise - a few friends I hadn’t seen in a while were meeting at a nearby pub for dinner an drinks now lockdown regulations are lifted slightly. I joined them and had a really great time - I was riding high on relief of the interview being over and just let loose with them. I felt very dominant, more so than usual. I felt the guys I hadn’t seen in the while be very reactive and submissive to me which was unusual. Waiter was super submissive to me too, acted like I was head of the table, always addressing me and extra apologetic over little things. Perhaps some of the Khan starting to kick in…

Optimism rising. Can’t wait until I can get out of this healing pit and into the good stuff. But also it’s clear that the healing is having a positive impact, just so hard to remind yourself of the highs to come when you’re battling through the lows. Also realising how important it is not to just wait for the pain to cease by itself, but to act in spite of it and force it to go away through your own will and actions. Everything is mental and can be overcome. It’s all down to mindsets and beliefs, we’re just too blind or ignorant to see most of them and how they are impacting us on a subconscious level.

P.S. Khan seems to do a weird thing where when I’m not around women, they are all I can think about and I’m horny AF, then when I’m surrounded by them I barely notice them. It feels like a high status thing - they notice you’re not impressed by them and that gets them interested in you.

Little bit further with Khan and the upcoming Super Boner Ultima to get things rocking downstairs and it will be time to go on the hunt. :slightly_smiling_face:

Oh yes and bust a nut solo tonight, no porn used, just the hand and the mind. That was about 10 days without nutting. Back to day 1.

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#29

DAY 15 - STAGE 1

Didn’t do too much, had a more chillaxed day. Notably less energetic after ejaculating yesterday. Reminder that I’m much happier and productive after retaining.

DAY 16 - STAGE 1

Boring but productive day, learning job related skills. Didn’t leave the house unfortunately, jealous of people outside with friends no lock down has eased slightly. Excited for my custom ultima to process, can’t stop checking my emails for it lol.

#30

DAY 17 - STAGE 1
plus 1 loop Big Dick Ultima

Productive day, lots of reading. My powers of focus and concentration have really come on leaps and bounds since before starting Khan. Really really really happy with this result. I remember before Khan, I could barely focus for a couple of hours straight, and my creativity was low. Now I’m getting back to where I used to be before things happened with my ex. Can’t wait until Stage 4 where the Limitless stuff is included too.

Also my custom ultima just processed. Midway through my loop right now. :grin:

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#31

Hey @ichigo,

The results you are noticing and observing in regards to being high-status, unimpressed by women and other men, mysterious and tempting, increased focus, and concentration are all related to the Khan programming.

I’m happy you’re seeing such profound effects and I would encourage you to keep going since your life will change in ways that you will not comprehend at this point.

The fact of the matter is that external reality; that which is absolute, is an illusion.

All things external are an effect of what is believed by the subconscious internally — therefore, the external (physical) reality is merely an illusion created for our Soul to experience life, in essence writing our own script.

Believe me when I’m saying that our whole entire planet is undergoing a massive transformation, a divinely orchestrated plot in order to reawaken to the human collective to God-consciousness.

Many of us here on the forum are here for a reason. Some never find subliminal’s, let alone Subliminal Club or other self-development tools and alchemy.

Contemplate on why you think that is.

We are Souls walking a path of self-unfoldment and each of us walks a specific path because we have different lessons to learn.

@ichigo, how many loops of Khan have you been doing?

We can get into so many topics and provide creative solutions, answers to questions, elaborate and contemplate on ideas once we reach a certain stage of consciousness.

We are supposed to attract more Light (information) in our bodies which feels like plugging your consciousness into a database of information.

I felt like reaching out to you and sharing this message, I hope it will be received in comfort and helpful for your personal journey.

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#32

Extremely fascinating that you know this despite not being a Muslim. Because Knowledge is light in the heart. And sins (evil acts) extinguish that light. Not many at all outside of Islam would know this.

“…We give a high rank to whomever We want. Over every knowledgeable person is one more knowing.” - Quran

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#33

@Hermit Thank you for that, I’ll have to read it a few times and let it absorb. I’m doing 1 loop per day, although now I have the ultima might rethink that depending on how taxing it remains on my system.

DAY 18 - REST DAY

So ran my Big Dick ultima last night for the first time, the loop finished about an hour before I went to sleep. Toward the end of the loop I had the familiar ultima feeling of my head being filled with information and a slight pressure headache, but I managed to fall asleep without issue.

About half way into the loop, I started to feel what I would categorise as a very faint burning sensation around the genital area. It wasn’t particularly unpleasant, but I would categorise it as a little uncomfortable. My mood got a big boost too, but that might be allocated to excitement of running the ultima.

Dreams were hilarious. First one involved me in some random massage parlor with a group of girls I knew from school. We were all dressed in those white Greek style robes for some reason. Part of the dream involved them trying to get my robes off to see my dick lol so dick related dream there.

Then my next dream was also funny, it was literally me just being desperate for the bathroom and unable to find one anywhere. :joy: Everywhere I went I was told they were sealed off due to COVID. Then I woke up about 2 hours earlier than I usually do and legit felt desperate for the bathroom. Tried to recall if it was something I ate the day prior that could have caused it but then remembered the Digestive System module in the ultima and figured it must be related to that.

This morning feels similar to after running Diamond but without the aura, increased sensitivity throughout the body and increased libido. My flaccid size has increased as it does when running Diamond ultima, probably due to increased blood flow, and I am way more conscious of my dick’s presence, particularly when walking around.

So, so far so good. The main reason I purchased was to achieve rock hard erections so fingers crossed that will start to come into play after more listens. Plus the overcome PE module should give me better staying power.

Just need to get a job and get this lock down over with, at that point all my healing from Khan and exposure to the ultima will have set me up to be in a place to (lovingly) smash the ladies and life in general.

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#34

I keep thinking that my subconscious makes me read all the posts on here that provide me in a certain direction.

Or maybe even create your posts because of my newfound beliefs.

Either way, very glad I found this forum.

Can’t wait for Khan Qv2

#35

DAY 19 - STAGE 1
plus 1 loop BD Ultima loop

Not much to note Khan wise, but I’ve noticed my general baseline for happiness gets better every day. Also my brains sharpness. Wasn’t really expecting this with Khan but super happy it’s happened.

Running BD Ultima again…

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#36

Try out Khan Qv2 now that it’s out!

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#37

Downloading as we speak!

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#38

Swapped to Khan QV2 from hereon in.

DAY 20 - STAGE 1

Completed my first loop of the QV2 version of Stage 1 around 2 hours ago. Not too much to say so far but no negatives either which is good. I think the BD Ultima from the night before might still be being processed and Khan is in the queue.

BD Ultima gave me dick related dreams again last night, this time I was on a reality show similar to Love Island and I was showering naked when a group of girls walked in. I didn’t feel any fear or care that they could see me naked, if anything I was pleased they could see.

I’ve been researching how to boost testosterone levels naturally and putting my diet under reexamination so BD Ultima seems to have pushed me in that direction too. My diet’s been pretty high protein so going to bring that down to make more room for carbs and fats.

Stressful events like hard weight lifting, encountering fears and anxieties, approaching women, etc. raise cortisol in the short term, but if you conquer whatever you’re facing you’re then rewarded with a testosterone spike. This reminds me that stressful or unpleasant situations that cause the stress response in the short term are not detrimental, but actually required for long term character growth and increased testosterone levels.

Today I got the urge to wear some pheromones, I haven’t really worn them in years. One drop of Bad Wolf to my wrists. My heart rate shot up instantly. Probably where I haven’t been around other people due to lock down, particularly alpha males. Going to keep exposing myself to it until it no longer stresses me out - this should make me more resilient against other alpha males when things are back to normal.

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#39

6 hours later and still no tiredness or recon from Khan QV2 S1. If anything the new Q and Ultima’s seem to make me less tired, feel better and have less reconciliation than the original Q’s/Ultima’s. Awesome!

Running a loop of BD Ultima this evening because why not. I’ll take a full rest day tomorrow. Exhaustion might suddenly hit me all at once or something but for now the v2’s seem to be clearly superior to v1.

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#40

Take a look at KSM-66 at Brain Forza. No magnesium sterate or steric acid.

KSM-66 can lower cortisol, and can raise testosterone.

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