Khan Black / Genesis / LOTS-Spartan

Journals - Major Programs
#1

My new stack is Khan Black / Genesis and a LOTS Spartan Custom.

This time I spent a lot of time thinking about which subs make the most sense for me.

Khan Black St.1 - Sexual healing

I was brought up as a Christian. And as a child it was just. Don’t have sex before marriage without being told the context. I then found my way to nude pictures through a friend at the time. Over time, this developed into a serious porn addiction. I was between 8 and 10 at the time, but I can’t remember exactly. I stayed away from real girls. That wasn’t compatible with the faith. When I received my first sexual offers, I always turned them down. I always made it look cool on the outside.
But because of the porn, I was so full of fear, panic and insecurity inside. I then realized that I had to change something and came across the Nofap community. Go 90 days (or even 900) abstinent and you’ll get superpower and all the women will fall for you. That’s the promise.

I only recently realized that this, and counting days in general, is very toxic. Every time I had an ejaculation I got a feeling of shame. It covers me like a curtain. I can no longer think clearly. I can’t look anyone in the eye. Oh yes, and no woman will ever do anything with you because you can’t control yourself. These and more thoughts trigger an ejaculation in me. Every damn time.

It’s also clear that my own sexuality, which is something natural and beautiful, doesn’t give me any pleasure.

My goal with Khan Black is to resolve these feelings and thoughts so that I can experience normal sexuality.

By the way, I’ve already left counting the days behind me.

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#2

Genesis

I feel like I’m at a dead end at the moment. Nothing is really moving forward and I don’t know which direction my life should take. I’m struggling in so many areas right now. Financially, I have an average income. A 9 to 5 job that I don’t really like with work colleagues who are sometimes really annoying.
It’s time for me to do something else. But I don’t know in which direction. I’ve always dreamed of building something of my own.

Finding your purpose in life can be a lifelong task. What I wish for is a direction. That I get moving.

This is the second round for Genesis and the Lots Custom.
What always crossed my mind during the first round was to start producing music in the short term and to set up my own music label in the long term. To work with a lot of musicians and make them known. To build a name for myself in the industry. The Starmaker.

I’ve made a note of it and will let Genesis do what Genesis should do.

#3

LOTS / Spartan Custom

Spartan Core
Legacy of the Spartan Core

Synergy: APS: Head/Face
Synergy: Apollon Unbound
Synergy: Preordained Vitality
Anvil of Hephaestus
Epigenetics & DNA Modulator
Heracles
SPS: Endocrine System
The Aligner
Deep Sleep
SPS: Skeletal System

What I want to achieve with it:
Build muscle mass ( was always very skinny )
Improve posture (I also have some insecurities)
Improve mobility / flexibility (I sometimes feel very stiff)
Improve vitality
Sleep more

What I am currently doing for it:

Go to the gym - every day
Walk 5km in the fresh air - every day
I eat in caloric surplus and track everything I eat
Take pictures regularly
Weigh myself at the same time every day to get an accurate weekly average.

What i want to add is to take a cold shower in the morning.

#4

Keeping a journal is essential in order to achieve the goals. Especially for Khan Black and Genesis. I’ve always had the best results with physical shifting subs. Taking Action and journaling was a no brainer = good results. For the rest journaling was always very annoying task that I avoided = not so good results (or I didn’t notice them) But I will work on this believe that journaling is not a bad thing. it is an thing that benefits me.

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#5

Ok so the only reason I start Journaling again is because of the discount I want to have

Just kidding :smile:

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#6

Definitely setting this to “watch”

I hope you abuse the sh*t out of the post mechanism because I want to see lots about this. Genesis + KB is going to be such an intensely beautiful journey as someone who grew up in a sexually-shamed christian household.

I didn’t grow up that way personally, but I’m in men’s discussion groups with a few men who were, and I know on a deep deep level from what they share what that was like for them, and I’ve seen some men that have overcome that conditioning, and some men (often younger, mid 20’s) who haven’t and still have it control their lives.

KB will drive the change, and Genesis will connect it to every area of your life. LoTS will be really interesting as an energy enhancing, health enhancing superpower, alongside KB.

Just a reminder that KB1 is the stage that most directly helps heal porn addiction and damage. Feel free to stay there as long as you’re getting value. I did 3 cycles of KB1 and felt like I could have done another 6. I just stopped listening to KB altogether, in search of more wealth oriented titles.

To be honest, what I think would be even better than Genesis is Emperor Daddy - don’t care how old you are - it’s my suggestion even if you’re 19 (i know you’re not that young, at least.)

Emperor Daddy has a huge amount of "know what you want, drive all areas of your life socially/sexually/financially forward, but in a bit of a calmer, less rushed way, like Genesis. Personally I got more understanding of my purpose through EmpD than I did through Genesis because EmpD is the most up to date scripting on understanding MYSELF, and because it did such a good job of mining my past experiences for the answers.

EmpD also stacks beautifully with KB, and even LoTS as it has Emperor’s physical shifting. And it has more sexual scripting than Genesis, which is such a huge scar for you that I think would be beneficial to give extra support to.

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#7

@Jouissance really appreciate your words.

I have planned to use Stage 1 til I see noticeable results. What Stage 2-4 delivers is a bonus to me.

Im 32. Almost a Daddy :smiley:
I have considered EmpD aswell. I’ve even already bought it. I just didn’t want to throw Genesis out again straight away. Will definitely run this in the future. I really like what I read in the EmpD Thread.

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#8

I start my new cycle today with LOTS Custom Solo. I run it full loop. No noticeable recon with it. With KB I will start with micro loops.

I’m not sleeping very much at the moment. Usually around 5 hours. Nevertheless, I get out of bed quite well in the morning. I usually get up at 4:45 and then go to the gym at 6. I think Spartan is driving me here. Mindset for training is on a different level.

Anvil of Hephaestus: I can feel that i get bigger. My cloth feel tighter around my arms, chest and shoulders. Funny thing is when i look at my pictures i can barely see a difference.

Heracles: This Modul is a beast. I go up with my weights regularly. Sometime im very surprised. I struggled with weights one day and few days later I can increase it.

#9

I like to split my listening times like this:

Day 1:
Sub 1 in the morning
Sub 2 in the evening
Day 2: Rest
Day 3: Sub 3 evening

With this schedule my mind feels less full after listening.

#10

Since i run genesis lots of ideas what i can do come to my mind. Normally i write them in my mobile notes.
I should create a more structured note on my Laptop to think on them. Weekend is packed with stuff already. Maybe i can find some time on sunday.

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#11

First round of KB1 today. Lets see how this goes.

#12

Woke up this morning feeling really down. Sexual shame is an always present monster. And if im being honest I have no clue how to deal with it. The Internet is full of contrasts.

On one site they say you have to do this one thing, On an other site it says you will never have success if you do this one thing.

This leaves me kind of directionless. So frustrating.

#13

Internet is full of people who act like they know it all. Dont take it too seriously. The ones who shine the brightest can often be the biggest liars. Bullshitting. Give your personal judgement some credit. You have a lifetime ahead to go and see what works for you.

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#14

Guess you’re right. Thanks

#15

Mantra for the coming week:

I am a problem solver. I focus on the challenges that are right in front of me. Don’t think about what might come in the future. And have some fun doing it.

#16

Spartan Report:

11pm and im back from the Gym. Hit legs today. With Spartan you don’t skip leg day. For the last 4 weeks I was daily in the gym and walked 5km. Discipline is top notch.
Found an Hip opening routine I will implement. Is a short one. Only 15 Minutes. But I manage to pull it off like my gym routine, then it will be very helpful.

Genesis Report:

In my life, I have often adapted to others in order to fulfill their expectations. That has now come to an end.

What do I REALLY want in my life and why? Blocked some time this week to sit with these questions.

#17

Recon hitting hard today. Im very lethargic. After i came home i took a nap for two hours.

#18

Since i added KB my desire to PMO increased. Maybe KB brings some stuff to the surface and my (old) way to deal with it is to watch P…

#19

I realize that I have a great resistance to posting things here.
I have a realization, sit down in front of my laptop and my brain goes blank.

Maybe it is better to journal offline with an pen and paper and copie/paste them here later till its get better

#20

Listend to KB1 30 Secs after i woke up in the morning. Felt the whole day very calm and peaceful. Very nice contrast to the recon yesterday.