I like to “mythologize” exactly what I’m experiencing, sometimes leaving it open ended.
After that, I just let my days flow.
The rest of the pieces tend to come together/resolve on their own.
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I see, get creative with it.
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Honestly, you don’t even need to get creative.
The intention is more of raw expression, in a way that feels compatible.
It might make sense or not.
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I mighty sit down and doodle with the emotions if I’m unable to just sit with it.
Care to give an example of your mythologize action or output?
True growth, authentic growth.
You know it’s like when you get into supplements. You get Magnesium, you get some Vitamin D because your blood test actually showed you’re deficient. Improved your life, true growth, authentic growth. Then you become a supplement junkie buying stuff to optimize your whole life, but in the end it’s actually just emotional, you’re trying to compensate for bad diet, bad habits, bad sleep and lack of self-worth, associating your self-worth with personal development or supplements. Turning into a perfectionist. Looking for band-aid solutions, escapism, quick fixes.
Likewise with personal development. I am in a phase in my life where I am trying to actually improve my QoL and face the issues I have in my life. Because if you’re just looking for books or courses, you’ll always have stuff to improve. But are those things actually what you need RIGHT NOW?
It’s like it’s entertainment lol like a hobby.
Except it reinforces your lack of self-worth and enjoyment.
Don’t know if this makes sense, but this is what I’ve been processing lately.
This is one of the quickest one I could find on here
Breakdown
It’s open-ended in the sense that I’m both speaking to myself and someone out there.
At first, it seemed like I was just trying to capture lightening in a bottle at the time. Writing shit that didn’t make immediate sense.
Upon meditating on it later, I discovered subconscious structures that associated with feeling/being inhuman.
With most of who I believed I was, a construction so I could feel human, by being acknowledged as so by other humans.
These are structures I’m still working with now.
Most of them happen on the fly, on a ride, a walk, mid conversation, in silent moments, anywhere. I removed the rigidity of limiting myself to writing/typing. The trade-off being that most of them are left in the flow of life and consciously forgotten.
The ones I sit to write/type about are the ones that I so desperately avoid.
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Nice mate 
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I love and accept myself as I am in this moment right now.
I love and accept my life as it is in this moment right now.
I am committed to growth and willing to experience all that growth entails.
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Switched out Stabilizer/Reforged to Lovebomb. Self-love, self-worth and self-esteem is so key. 
Focused on healing rather than alpha stuff.
Doing alot of journaling. Feeling lost at times.
Been chilling all day today. Had a nice guy hangout on an island on the country side a week ago. Felt primal and good for my soul. Fishing, sauna, lake swimming, barefoot walking and chilling. Need to do this regularly.
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This part of William Penn book I’m reading made an impression on me. I had chat gpt (ironic) write it in modern language and it even greater impression of me. Btw it seen it added things from other parts of his philosophy (hallucinating?) but the essence of the text I read is there.
Before I paste it here, today I did 03:00 of DRR/GLM and KB ST1.
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Text here
William Penn, Some Fruits of Solitude (1692) - Section 1: “Ignorance”
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Ignorance It is lamentable to think how many millions of people live and die in a total ignorance of themselves, and of the world they live in.
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A Strange Contrast If you look at the great and costly structures of men - such as Windsor Castle, Hampton Court, or other magnificent palaces - you will find that thousands of people crowd to admire them. Yet those very same people remain utterly ignorant of, and indifferent to, the magnificent living structure of their own bodies, which are far greater masterpieces of divine architecture. They are the houses of their minds, walking tabernacles, yet they rarely take the time to inspect them or understand how they work.
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The Book of Nature The world is a great and stately volume of natural things, filled with the hieroglyphics and handwriting of Almighty God. Every creature, plant, and element holds a lesson. Yet, like uneducated people who cannot read, we pass through this magnificent library without understanding a single line, treating the world around us as if it were nothing more than a blank sheet of paper.
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The Error of Schools Our educational systems are largely to blame for this blindness. Instead of teaching young minds to observe and understand the real world - the earth beneath their feet, the plants that feed them, and the mechanics of nature - schools force children to spend years memorizing dry rules of grammar, rhetoric, and dead languages. They burden memories with things that are of little use for real life, while leaving students entirely strangers to the works of nature and the true operations of creation.
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Learning from Nature By doing this, schools teach ignorance rather than knowledge. They fill children’s heads with words while leaving their senses starved for reality. A true education would lead us to look closely at nature, to study its simple laws, and to see the wisdom of its Creator reflected in every physical thing.
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The Moral Consequence This widespread ignorance of nature and ourselves is not just an intellectual loss; it is a moral one. Because people do not understand the value or the divine craftsmanship of creation, they abuse it. They treat animals, plants, and the earth carelessly or cruelly.
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Knowing the Creator through Creation In short, how can we truly love or value the Maker if we do not know or care to understand His workmanship? To be ignorant of creation is to be ignorant of the Creator. True wisdom begins when we wake up from this sleep of ignorance, open our eyes to the world around us, and study both the physical universe and our own souls with humility and wonder.
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Massive insights. Massive processing.
Awareness of the small things I mess up internally, without judgement. Just pure surgery, surgeon, impartial, removing the little buggers.
Washout now.
People like my new look. I went full beard during the summer, no shaving no nothing, looking like Robinson Cruse. Started work again, trimmed it a little bit and people like it alot. Which is good, but I would have kept it either way.
Washout
The energy from khan black is potent dude. Gotta calibrate my practice so I don’t lose control lol
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That sexual energy transmution gone right is just something else dude.
The focus, the discipline, the drive and the fearlessness. It’s great. When it’s uncontrolled can cause some anxiety.
In a couple days we’ll go to stage 2 of KB. Hopefully more robust channels will help the energy flow better and stay integrated. Will work on that.
I must or else ST3 might get too crazy. Lol
I just thought you must use it. That’s how you ”transmute” it. Just do stuff. Then do more stuff. Then even more stuff.
Because it’s like drinking 10 cups of coffee and just sitting on the sofa. Of course you’ll go nuts if you do that. Of course.
Rain or shine, do stuff. Breath. Touch grass. Then do more stuff.
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Also I realized drinking 10 cups of coffee, then of course you’ll get sleep problems if you don’t spend that ”extra energy”… Do more stuff. Spend that energy. But also touch grass. Ground yourself. But live life. Anyway, thought about this when I thought about sleep issues that people reported on KB.
A blessed day of productive work or living equals a blessed night of sleep.
I hope so at least. Else I might go nuts.
The sleep issue is real. I’m hoping my body is adopting to this energy. That my mind is adopting to this increase in energy. homeostasis
For example I woke up dancing. Lol
The problem I worry about is if you’re very heady, that energy will go to the head and just breed more compulsive thoughts and add fire to that. So it’s important to be grounded as well. So I’m thinking this desire to dance in the morning is part of the solution. Throughout the day I’m sure I’ll do random stuff like that to embody it and use it.
I don’t know, just some thoughts.
To integrate and embody the energy.
Khan Black is fire!
This commute to work for a project everyday is not bad after all. I get forced to sit with the processing for an hour or two. Feel my level of compassion and self- love increase everyday.
DRR, trust.
Lovebomb, trust.
I’m definitely manifesting alot of cute and sexy ladies as well. Making me process associating my self-worth with sexual validation or just attention really. So intoxicating.
KB, trust.
Currently on DRR/GLM and KB stage 2. Oh and Lovebomb.
Bestie!
Noticed lately I like feeling recon or bad out of ”nowhere” because it means I will either learn something new about myself or level up soon.
I had a random thought today in the subway of wanting to challenge myself and actually go out of my comfort zone and feel discomfort to speed up this process.
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Love man, I’m learning so much about it.
I don’t know what love is, how can I love myself let alone someone else.
Lost in translation.
But it’s ok, I just need to teach myself it. Awareness and admitting is the first step.
Lovebomb is da bomb!
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