I jumped in. Running Kahn Stage 1 now on ultrasonic. Am going to download it on my phone.
I saw it was released and had NO idea they would do a healing sub as the foundation. Using Limitless v.2 lately has had me aware New Dawn is very smooth.
I’ll give a testimony to why I picked this up so quickly. I saw my mom today, after a good month of no communication at all. She’d got out of the hospital a month ago, was very very whiny, and it disgusted me. I felt she was dragging me down, and being on powerful subs were having an impact. So, I pulled out of her life. However, she was on my mind daily. Guilt and fear were steady companions.
I’ve been on Regeneration for the last couple of weeks, and a result came up today when she asked directly why I’d pulled away. Literally, the old sly blame came to mind (since I’d been practicing for it mentally), and I began to speak. I stopped. Right there, I felt the truth that “it takes one to know one”. I’d been angry at her since I saw her as refusing to adapt to life’s challenges and changes, yet whining to others to help her handle it. But right there, I saw myself doing it too. I think most of me wanted to see her again since…she understood and accepted this. And near the end of our visit, I brought this point up for closure between us. I said I realized I was angry since I realized I’ve not grown. She wondered if I blamed her, and no, that wasn’t even my focus. My anger was not at her. I was angry since I’m facing the stuff I’ve denied, denied, and denied more. It was a disappointment in myself that kept getting louder, and louder, and louder.
Loop 1 down, and will keep it on exclusively. Time frame? Feeling some tears and anger in me…I’ll be on this as long as it takes. Staying in one spot in my life intentionally…is not worth it. So that’s why I picked up Kahn so soon. I don’t think it’ll be easy and cushy. I do believe I’ll be better though as I persevere. I’m up for some change. Let’s see what happens.