Journey into the Deep

Journals - Major Programs
#103

Nothing really comes to mind for now.
I’m getting used to seeing the other party’s viewpoint while putting up my own boundaries and needs. Trying to find my own needs to assert it. Act upon what I need in my life.

This is something that I want to do in my life, because I’ve let myself float alongside the river of life for a long time, trying to be a follower, but being a follower floating about life is limiting and is something that goes against the direction I want to take my life.

Maybe I’ll get more answers tonight.
It is part of the natural unfolding of the self.

Stack wise, I don’t think I’ll start again tomorrow.
I only created my q account 3 days ago (I didn’t know it differed from the main store) and the subclub elite discount might only be applied next week (if the discount also applies to the q store)

So I’ll order the custom(s) after getting a reply from support :slight_smile:
First the WDB name embed, then the Custom when the experimental adaptive scripting module is released ^^

In the meantime, I take action toward improving myself and doing what need done for my life, while learning more.

Today, I had a good discussion with my cousin, which is self made, makes good money with multiple businesses and income flows. I admire him. I want to do even better than him.

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#104

Maybe killing the turkey signifying setting boundaries? With the act of setting boundaries naturally meaning other things you used to hold close to you now getting metaphorically killed. But you inherently know that this is best for you, which is why it was an older or wiser family member doing the act. Has setting boundaries been something you’ve struggled with for a long time? Has it entangled itself into your other relationships or mental structures?

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#105

It’s been something I’ve struggled with my own life.
I’ve been working on my self esteem for more than a decade, actively working on being more assertive for about 5 years, on being more myself for 3 years.

It’s a process, but one that become easier the more I advance on purifying my life and destroying my limiting structures, because it makes me stronger.
My life got turned upside down more than I can count, but I feel I’m on the way to what I choose to do with my life.

There will be struggle still, and I am uncertain as to how it’ll go, but I know that all will be for the best. For I am stronger and more capable than I was last year, and next year I’ll be stronger and more capable still. On all points.

There is a price to pay for everything, and the price of time, uncomfort, and effort has to be paid to unlock the full extent of the prize that is life.

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#106

It seems like that could be an interpretation then. Since you’re able to firmly draw the line now, you have to say goodbye to some of the things that came with low self esteem, to make room for what’s coming into your life as you become your own inner authority. Really happy to see you grow past what’s been holding you back!

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#107

Can’t wait for Tale of the Dream Boy, which will probably be mid to late next week (up to 4 days for the aspirant discount on Q, or confirmation that there’s no discount on Q, then the time it takes to make a custom. Maybe I’ll take express so I can start on feb 2nd instead)
Maybe it’d be smarter to just take it without express, I’d pay less than with express + discount. Yeah…

Anyway, I know the rough form of what my defense might look like in court, but it will refine my presence, wit, and language skills further.
Something of a repentance, and how I learned that I should love my enemy, even when they attack me with weapons while I have nothing but the body I’m born with. That language should be the only thing I should ever use, even when someone come at me with a knife telling me how they’ll slit my throat. After all, lawyers and negociators only use their tongue, so what right do I have to use my feet and fist to defend against an armed opponent?

Furthermore, it’ll allow me some good times, as well as greater presence in the workplace, and greater ability to coordinate and communicate with third parties, instead of causing C-suite of each party to meet one another following one of my mail (lmao)

And great times outside too.
I ordered pheromones as well for the first time of my life, they should arrive around the time when I’ll go on vacation in the Thailand south, by the end of February, I’ll see how that goes as well lol in any case I’ll tell y’all about it here.

Edit: Alright let’s gooooo :crazy_face::flushed::yum:

Order: Tale of the Dream Boy

Tale of the Dream Boy

Edit 2: I’ll start with 30s, solo, and add 30s every time I listen unless recon, and I’ll go back to 30s when I’ll add the custom the next cycle, and when I’ll add Khan the cycle following the custom, and treat both the custom and khan the same way, so I don’t over-expose.
and maybe instead of listening Mondays, Wednesday, Fridays, I’ll only listen Mondays and Thursdays, skipping every third Thursday.

Edit 3: and maybe wait 2 cycles instead of one before adding the custom or after the custom before adding Khan.
That way I can get a bit more used to the titles, I’ll see how I feel.
I also ordered nootropics so it should also help with processing

Edit 4: That’ll be full on experimenting :woman_scientist::test_tube: but it should be awesome, I don’t see it going wrong as it’ll all be result enhancement :grinning_face_with_smiling_eyes:

Edit 5: Oh… Main Disc. Thread - Name Embedded Major Titles (Testing Period) - #119 by SaintSovereign Well, it sounds like I didn’t need to buy the core and synergy then if the price of the title and the module are included for the name embed…
Well at least it’ll help them make even more awesome things

Edit 6: from my understanding, the ZPU Saint and Fire are building would be something like ZPQ + NSE + Adaptive Scripting, with maybe some more technological improvements and fine tuning based on feedback,
I’ll try ZPQ with that WDB name embed, and introduce the adaptive scripting in the Roman Baths custom two or three cycles later, hehehe :stuck_out_tongue: Hopefully I’ll survive these 🫡

Edit 7: I’m excited it’ll be fun~ though since it’s quantum I should maybe take it slower still

Lots of numbers calculating listening durations

already with the three titles 2 days a week it’ll be like

M1 - RB (Roman Baths) + TDB (Tale of the Dream Boy
W1 - RB + Khan
M2 - RB + TDB
W2 - RB + Khan
M3 - RB + TDB

They’re would be a total of 17 cycles in a year (so 357 days)
So in total listening days there would be
(Healing) RB = 85 ld
(Skills) TDB = 51 ld
(Drive) Khan = 34 ld

If I increase 30s per week for all, by the end of the year there will be 8m30s for each, except Khan 8m (due to the 3rd week of the cycle having no khan, and so will the increase be 30s, 1m, 30s, 1m, instead of only 30s increase)
So maybe start with lower increases still, but increase the increases, like,
Week 1 to 17:
01 10s 10s
02 10s 20s
03 15s 35s
04 15s 50s
05 20s 1m10
06 20s 1m30
07 25s 1m55
08 25s 2m20
09 30s 2m50
10 30s 3m20
11 35s 3m55
12 35s 5m30
13 40s 6m10
14 40s 6m50
15 45s 7m35
16 45s 8m20
17 50s 9m10

Mmh

Week 1 to 17:
01 10s 10s
02 15s 25s
03 20s 45s
04 25s 1m10
05 30s 1m40
06 35s 2m15
07 40s 2m55
08 45s 3m40
09 50s 4m30
10 55s 4m25
11 60s 5m25
12 1m5s 6m30
13 1m10s 7m40
14 1m15s 8m55
15 1m20s 10m15
16 1m25s 11m40
17 1m30s 13m10

Now that one look like a good progression in listening times, though very unintuitive (… which kinda go against the unconscious in a way lol)

I might just start slow and go with how I feels, listening time wise. Maybe add informaticon to the custom, though I hope the ZP standard custom won’t be overpowered by the ZPQ name embed if I run the custom before the name embed.

I’ll prob start a new journal on the custom section once I start using the custom(s) so that it’s easier to follow.

In any case, these few months of Regen, LBFH, and AoH greatly helped pull me out of the hole I was in after breaking up with my gf, and raise me anew to the highs I was in a couple years ago after a spiritual experience with archangels and the architects of the world (though I have yet to manifest obviously strange encounters like I had at the time lol, but I got no doubt it’ll happen eventually as I grow myself).
They made me more resilient against emotional upheaval than I ever was, and with more drive to improve myself, seize the day, and do what I must for my future and the future of the world. It makes me hopeful that I’ll be able to accomplish my goals, create what I want to create, work with what and whom I want to work. Participate in the process of Creation. I don’t wanna jinx it, hence why I stay evasive on the details, but it has to do with AI, Quantum Computing, VR, and space exploration.
I acted in the past toward it, but I wasn’t quite ready, I know these subs and life alongside are pushing me toward giving the best of myself so I may become the kind of person able to realise such goals.

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#108

I’m high key like a kid on christmas eve waiting for the gift to arrive, thinking about the WDB name embed
though I know I’ll only be able to start next monday most likely, 6 days from now.
and though I am aware results come from actions and so won’t be immediate probably.
I must find actions to do, I must be active in that, find a way to release surplus energy from being on washout, or I’ll go crazy from the wait.
I should go to the club at least one evening of the week, and maybe this weekend too.
Maybe make online dating profiles, even before WDB.
I started taking good pictures since getting a haircut, that’s a great start. I got good stories to tell too.
daily routine is no longer enough.

Edit: Maybe finally get on finding the doc and putting that Turbomolecular Pump on Ebay instead of letting it sleep in my room lmao

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#109

Two days after starting ZPQ I got a call about a 6-7 figure opportunity :joy:

You’re on the experimental path now :smiling_imp:

We don’t live on the standard roadmap of results

EDIT: Intuitive listening is everything. As you start to understand yourself and the sub more, you tend to know how your processing and execution are going.

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#110

True, true, there are paths of manifestation that give immediate results, as long as we’re open to receive and don’t have limiting beliefs. :laughing:

Congrats on the opportunity btw, you’re awesome! And thanks for coming here and telling me this :slight_smile:

I did already get instant manifestations in the past, with subs and without subs so I should know that, but I forgot, lol (though manifestations without subs were quite chaotic lmao, manifestation through subs are directed)

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#111

I’m more open to talk about specifics in PM but it wasn’t just one, things just keep happening. It’s almost like your subconscious is trying to find the perfect opportunity to get you to take action and have you grow.

Basically everything from this post was caused by my ASBR manifestations. It’s almost like circling a bullseye. Will you take action if this happens? No? What about this more obvious thing? No? How about now when it’s literally in your face? It’s honestly changing my relationship with subs and my subconscious in general. I’m still trying to figure out if this is the general mechanism of manifestation or just how the deeper subconscious likes to do things.

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#112

I will do my daily cooking and meditation walk then get back to you in DM, we might both grow from exchanging our insights :blush:

I learned a lot from meeting an archangel and multiple shamans, energy workers, cultists, and other non-humans that “just happened” to meet me on my travels 2 years ago onwards, (including having amma visit my hometown, I met one of her disciple but didn’t take the time off work to actually take the opportunity to go and meet her… well, there will be other occasions to meet yogi and gurus)
though what I learned is little compared to the infinite knowledge of all there is and all there is not.

But well, if I knew all I’d be kicked out of the game :grinning_face_with_smiling_eyes: so I might as well not yet, I’d like to keep playing some more. :yum: :innocent:

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#113

Might as well enjoy being good at the game a little before outright winning it.

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#114

Little morning insight,
Processing subs uses energy
But it’s not really because of the subs, the subs are tools used by the subconscious to create new energetic pathways, new ways of thinking, dealing with emotions, acting, to find better ways to get results and destroy what no longer serves.

And it’s these acts of modifying internal pathways, of the subconscious modifying itself using the provided tools and knowledge, that use energy.

But then, it is never wasted, because a path more traveled becomes easier to walk upon, when we walk every day, it becomes easier to walk, when we do push-ups every day, it becomes easier to do push-ups, these behavior pathways becomes easier to perform.

And it may be the same for the pathways created and used by the subconscious while running a title.

Hence, even a pure aura title (or other “short term, fast acting” titles) might leave a permanent mark, and that mark will be greater the longer we run it, and the more deeply it impact us.

I really should run QL at some points lol, it might have interesting results

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#115

So, If I add the Experimental Adaptative Scripting Module, that would mean being able to transform recon into action, so if I’m careful into what to add, I could maybe fit a few more, so maybe have the custom be :

  • Love Bomb Core
  • Dragon Reborn: Regeneration Core
  • ESSENCE: A Perfect Unyielding (3 slots)
  • Synergy: Wisdom of the Ages (4 slots)
  • Synergy: Subconscious Mastery (2 slots)
  • Synergy: Venus Unveiled (3 Slots)
  • Experimental Adaptative Scripting Module
  • New Beginnings
  • Joie de Vivre
  • Carpe Diem Ascended
  • FEBRUUS

So, 21 actual slot, 11 taken slots, kinda heavy, but hopefully not so much that it becomes untreatable. well, it may seem a bit silly thinking like that, given I’ll be running a ZPQ for the coming cycle lol

the joie de vivre, carpe vitam, and other modules of venus unveiled should go well with both love bomb and regen, I believe, though maybe there could be recon between Carpe Diem’s “I find joy in everything I do!” and Regen’s “Learn to chill and relax a bit sis… take it easy puff smoke”

If I wanna be a bit crazy, maybe add Informaticon, Hegemon, Naturalizer, and/or DEUS, though Hegemon might be a bit out of focus compared to the rest and cause recon between the different concepts, and though DEUS might be too strong (but it would be easier to handle than hegemon as it is a pure result/intensity booster).

I feel naturalizer would smooth things out further and Informaticon might help with the intuitive listening length finding, so they may be valuable for smoothing things further, despite the added module load?

should I remove the wisdom synergy and instead add informaticon and naturalizer to center it further? should I leave the wisdom synergy?

Well, in any case I’ll have enough time to think on it, and discuss with myself if that’s not too much
A whole cycle in fact! A cycle of WDB + TotD name embed ZPQ :heart_eyes: (along with RoTNW hehehe :smiling_imp:)

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#116

I’ve been thinking, if I’m gonna be running a sub like RotNW, I might as well also run a performance title, maybe PN?

But then I reminded that I plan on having Khan in my stack and I never clapped a** as hard as when I was on Khan (the couple times my GF at the time let me…) so I might as well do a couple cycles of WDB + RotNW + Khan before replacing RotNW by the custom.

I only ever had a spontaneous offer to ONS twice in my life, from women who like it and weren’t that attractive at all to me, but I went to it cuz I was starved.

My two former GFs were a blind woman and a homeless woman I let sleep on my couch (initially) and both aren’t top models at all, I liked them more because I could help them and be loved and because I had no one else, hence why I ended up leaving them, the first one in a bit less than a year, the second one after a year and a half.

Before I’ve been with broken women, I’ve only had a single relationship, it was with a good looking, well off, smart woman and lasted less than a year because I was an asshole who mocked her little brother for being autistic (despite being autistic myself…), I never had S with her since she didn’t want to.

I never ever been propositioned for a HJ or a BJ, my last relationship I had to wait a year before she decided we’ve been long enough together for a BJ. The one before didn’t want to because it was too big for her.

So there you have it, the baseline, one who has never gotten a HJ or a BJ despite having been taken to the toilet by women at parties to do C and having been taken backstage by DJs who were quite sexually liberated. (Didn’t have sex with them either, it seem from my perspective everyone like being my friend but nothing further…)

But yeah, though I am confident I can make finish anyone that I sleep with, my confidence regarding ending up the night with someone are nil.
It’ll be interesting to see how it develops.

Btw, I didn’t told y’all but I started working out again! Before Covid I did daily strength training with a guy at work, push ups, squats, pull ups, core training, jogging. And got to a nice level of being able to do a 11km long obstacles race.
But then covid came, I stopped and struggled with starting again. I did some gym there and there but struggled to get regular.

I got a nice core and powerful legs, most likely from having spent most of 2022 and 2023 dancing at festivals and parties, but my arms are lacking. And though I’m not fat or too chubby, I’m far from being lean. I’d say I’m average shape-wise.

Well, since a few weeks ago I started walking more, and doing pumps and squats in the morning daily :grin: and boy does it do a difference to energy, this is crazy!
I should maybe add core training so I target most areas, and then later on turn that walk into jog.

Screenshots of the podometer and push-ups app

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#117

Reading Fire’s Five Steps to Power

That’s very interesting, and I have some things to work through:

  1. as explained in the message just above, I’ve started working out again, though I could do more, I did more in the past.

  2. I haven’t done martial arts since I was a kid. I wanted to start muay thai last year but got lazy and never ended up registrating to the dojo in the town near my place… I def should start doing it at some point, prob once I get a good momentum with working out. fear of not having a good enough condition to do it fed my laziness back then.

  3. I started doing meditation more regularly, and in a more structured way ; meditating with an app while walking after work, rather than rogue half-meditating during downtime at work. It doubles with acting as a clean cut between work mindspace and home mindspace. Though I don’t yet have the regularity of doing it every day.

  4. While I love learning, I have trouble with taking action, such as how I should be looking for an internship to do on the weekend for a diploma I wanna get, in order to access government funds to start an agrocultural business (that I plan on using as a workshop to develop as close as possible to a fully automated aquaponic systems, using my knowledge of AI and robot automation). In a way, I think I use learning as a way to avoid taking action from fear of failure and being mocked and rejected.

  5. This is the one thing I do really well, I constantly self-reflect. and I even learned how to do it without judgement these days. though my emotions are a bit shunt, they were bolder when I was on HRT, but I stopped for now in order to preserve my seed, which given the wait times will prob take a good part of the year. Meh, it matter less, I can shapeshift even without that, and can learn to feel and express my emotions even without that. Medication is just a helper, it’s my body who do the work.

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#118

So I woke up early this morning, did 21 push-ups, 20 squats, also read a few pages of a book on NVC, and 3 chapter from the Bible (I’ve been following a plan for 28 days so far, out of a year to read all of it)

It’s true I have to improve still, but I can appreciate the discipline and amount of action-taking that I’m able to do now, that I wasn’t able to perform before.

This is a great improvement already, it goes to show how low I fell lol, but now I rise :muscle:

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#119

ok this morning I drank pineapple juice, ate some bread and honey, took nootropic supplement, choline and vitamins, drank an activia kefir yogurt.
did 21 push ups, 30 squats, and read a bit, both the bible plan and a couple pages off the NVC book

and now I’m at work, I arrived on time, though later than yesterday, but not late.
and I feel so hungryyyyy :sob:

I really should buy fruits so I got something to eat in the morning outside of honey and bread, maybe nuts too for proteins…
Also! Since I got the name embed order on Monday, (in 20 minutes it’ll be precisely 4 days ago), I might receive it today! or next Monday, the fifth day.

In any case, I don’t intent on listening before monday, I mustn’t, I want to keep to the planned listening days, mondays and thursdays, so I can maximize results and diminish recon, giving more time to process.
Though I’m excited to see what going to clubs will be like while running those :yum:

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#120

Just realised that no, since it was Monday before work hours, tonight will have been the fifth day actually.

Meh, doesn’t matter, if Monday I don’t have WDB I’ll run Khan + RotNW and just run the WDB embed alone on Thursday, that way I keep to the listening recommendation while giving more space to process.

This weekend I’ll start writing the custom journal thread so that it’s ready when I start the cycles :sunglasses:

Two cycles of Khan + RotNW + TotDB starting Monday would put the first day of the second cycle on the first day of vacation and the last listening day the penultimate day of my vacation so that sounds perfect :ok_hand:

Today was an ok day, I’ve been doing power queries for two days already 🥲 but on the other hand I’ve been able to advance basic stuff for multiple project so that’s good :grinning_face_with_smiling_eyes: (like, finally getting my teams account set up, meeting, planning another meeting, checking formation date, and the like, + some data cleaning and merge in excel)

This evening I did some stretches :muscle: it was hard! :pleading_face: well, some of it at least (most) some poses I realised I was already doing day to day, so at least I know for sure they’ll get easier as I do them and become more flexible in all areas :slight_smile:

Did some reading too, and well now it’s time to cook and watch Chosen :sunglasses:
Or maybe write instead? :thinking:

Kinda mad the amount of things we can get done when we spend less time on the phone or on the computer, I gained back so many hours.

I realise now just how much time I wasted just sitting on the couch cuddling while watching series, or worse on the phone.
Now that I removed all social media and almost all games (though I stopped being interested in playing them) I gained my life back.
My actual life. Not the digital virtual mask of the self.

This feels so good.
I’m gonna put veggies in my pan, start it up and go on a meditation walk, then I’ll see what I feel like doing after coming back.

Though I guess I don’t enjoy eating as much when I’m doing stuff other than that, so maybe it’d be good to stop doing other things while eating, so I can actually enjoy the taste.

And just do other things (writing a bit or watching an episode) afterwards.
Writing would hit more goals, as it would be a form of defining and thinking about goals in a way, but in a playful way. Being playful and having fun is good when doing productive stuff :relaxed: the full human experience

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#121

I haven’t gone out much this weekend.

But I did go to the doc to get a prescription I need, took care of my home, cooked healthy meals, kept working out, chilled a bit watching anime, I tried contacting a girl I know yesterday to spend the evening partying with her but she didn’t answer. got news today that my mom got in the hospital, she hurt herself trying to move gravel, my sis and I always tell her she should work less, she push herself too hard. I’m worried for her, she hurt herself like that now, she might hurt herself more next time. I wish she’d just call me when she need to carry heavy stuff like that.

for now, I can do a set of 30 pushups a day, 30 deep squats, 30s front plank, and 30s side plank on each side.

I weighted myself tonight, it’s been a while, 99.5kg ouch… I’m 1m86 so it doesn’t pop out too much but still, I didn’t expect to be so heavy, last year I was 10kg less… I should stop eating sandwiches at lunch and start cooking for myself again. when I cook it’s mostly vegs, seeds, chickpeas, beans, etc. meanwhile when I work I get a sandwich for lunch, maybe it’s that? idk

I don’t seem that much wider than when I was 89kg last year…
Meh, doesn’t matter, I’ll just keep working out, cook, and let my body even things out.
What matters most, is the growth of my mindset, of my conscious-subconscious self, more than the physical gains itself, and that’s valid for everything.
If I could get a toned tight body that’d be awesome, but what matter most is developping resilience, discipline, and will; developing strength of mind.

[Edit: Still, I am worried because I am afraid I may not have as much success with people because of my weight, that I might be rejected more, though I know this is stupid because of what I mentioned last paragraph and because I know I was able to get a gf before even with that body, and because people tell me I don’t look fat, and because I know fat people who are socially successful.
I read a bit on ideal weight and for my height it seems to be around 78 to 80. the lowest I got in my life since I was a teen was 87 and that was after a year basically starving myself due to depression. I don’t wanna go through that again and it can’t be healthy. idk what would help. me focussing on mind growth may be a form of resignation. but yeah, again, nothing good will come from worrying about that, especially since I don’t see what I can do about it.]

I got some nice pictures from chatgpt for my future custom thread though my prompts were like a kilometer long, I’m better at imagining and describing than at drawing myself.
though imagining is already half of the work, so I’m certain it’s just a subconscious block that need to be worked on, especially since I already got complement on an unfinished painting of mine, despite me thinking I did basically nothing.

it’s 7pm, I no longer want to cook,so I’ll have to decide between cooking for the last 3 hours before sleep, or give up on the idea of a cake and doing something else, like ordering a new social security card to replace the former and ordering a new driving license since my former demand for replacement 3 years ago didn’t go through and since the last one got stolen 2 years ago.
it’d be good and prevent trouble later on.

Edit 2:
I highly love that creator pranavprakash_3 on Insta, though I rarely access it nowadays.

Description of the reel

There is a subtle, almost imperceptible moment where we stop asking if our lives are true and start asking if they are simply manageable.

That’s when the shift occurs. It isn’t a descent into some grand misery, it’s a drift into something much quieter. Something that doesn’t scream, doesn’t break, and never quite collapses. It just becomes a weight you’ve learned how to carry.

Most people don’t suffer loudly. Instead, they become experts at the math of dissatisfaction, calculating exactly how much heaviness can sit in the chest without interrupting the daily routine. They learn precisely how many times an intuition can be ignored before it finally stops knocking on the door.

And once that equilibrium is found, we dress it up in respectable names. We call it stability. We call it peace. We call it “being an adult.”

The ancient texts were warning us about this long before we had modern psychology to label it. They weren’t terrified of the tragedy of failure; they were terrified of the tragedy of sleep. They saw the danger of a life that never falls apart, yet somehow never actually begins.

This isn’t about pain. Pain is at least honest, it’s sharp enough to wake you. This is about the slow erosion that happens when endurance begins to pass for happiness, and “coping” becomes your only identity.

If this feels uncomfortable, let it be. That discomfort might be the last honest signal you haven’t managed to numb yet.

It’s true, there’s a tendancy to hide misery and disatisfaction as fake “acceptance” and just let ourselves be carried away by the inertia of who we were and what we got. Claiming this is just how things are.
It is much harder to see dissatisfaction and discomfort for what it is. indicators, that we have to move and change things. indicators so that we may change things and find the true path of joy peace and contentment.

Just like I accepted to get with my GFs in the past, though I wasn’t particularly attracted to them, beyond loving that they loved me. This wasn’t fair, either for myself or for them. hence why I broke up both times.
Fear holds me back from daring to step into the best life I could have. and it will continue until I try that fear, see for myself it’s illusionary nature, and know that there is a better path on the other side of it, beyond the ghosts that haunts the mind.

Edit 3:
Also love that other creator thedikshitaanchan

Description of the reel

Episode 50: ‘THE VEDIC NERVOUS SYSTEM’
Modern life problems explained using the Vedic wisdom & nervous system science :sparkles:

When life feels like it’s falling apart, surrender is the last thing your mind wants. But the Vedas, Gita, Upanishads and Tantra all say the same thing: true surrender is not weakness, it’s capacity.

It’s not about control. It’s about remembering that your power, clarity and wholeness already exist.
It’s about holding intensity without collapse, acting where your effort matters and letting go of what is >not yours to control.

Every collapse, every moment of chaos, is not your failure.
It’s the doorway.
It’s how your nervous system learns:

“I am bigger than this moment. I can hold uncertainty. I can act without fear.”

Surrender opens the space for faith, expansion and alignment & that’s where life truly begins.

You don’t have to wait for safety to feel peace.
You are safe in the infinite.
You are whole.
You just need to remember :brown_heart:

It’s very soothing, while being straight enough truth that it helps with understanding the self, and doing what needs done.
Though I still have issues with surrendering completely lol, but it’s only through doing it more and more that I may teach my body how to do it more easily. as the reel in the 2nd edit explained, it’ll stabilize at that level soon enough, I’ll “just” have to keep the momentum of change going.

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I started a new Journal, as I will continue with customs :arrow_right: Tale of the Dreamy Khan: Thermae of Love - a Wonders-full story

This one may be closed, as I don’t intent on running anything else for a year :slight_smile: