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#643

Well someone close to me spilled something that I was keeping close to my heart. I feel upset. How could this person do this? I had told the person for the third time. (It is someone related by blood). I wanted it close to me. I wanted it close to me because I perform anxiously when someone else knows. I’m upset. This sort of thing is enough.

I am going to be a beast. I am going to be someone who they will never ever want to disappoint. Out of both fear and respect. This being virtuous isn’t enough. In this world, there is no point being a sage when there are wolves around you who have gone rogue.

#644

This is my challenge. I am going to use every single ounce and breath of the challenge and betrayal to fuel my growth. I am going to be the chain reaction. Unstoppable. They only fuel the reaction further and more. :smiling_imp:

Cold, & Calculative.

#645

But. Transcendence. Peace.

With the whole palette of actions.

#646

Nuke ‘em!

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#647

Wdym in depth

#648

Nope.

#649

I meant music u wanted to be a musician?

#650

I’m in overload, didn’t realise :disappointed:

I continued to run subs, thinking that a loop will kickstart my sluggish brain. But it just made it worse.

In my first attempt for the exam, I had a relatively stable mood and intensity for days (early times with Khan). But, I had very limited time to prepare for the exam. So therefore, it tanked. I didn’t overload myself tho. I had 6 months to prepare for that attempt, but essentially procrastinated until the last moment.

Second attempt was uneven in my energy but I scored drastically better. A clear improvement. There was procrastination but it was in smaller bouts rather than weeks or months. This attempt was good comparatively to the first one. Eligible for Asia’s #1 University for the program of my choice.

But, that wasn’t my aim. My aim was and is #1 in the World. So, I want that score for this very reason. Plus, I want a 100% scholarship, so there’s that. I know I’m capable of it.

#651

50% hate you.
50% love you.

The idea of polarisation. This was holding me back. Got it.

#652

I tried short loops for the first time.

Limitless 2m 17sec
The Executive 31sec

It feels great :joy:

#653

Drop the past & Future focused. Always kills the recon.