Journaling Matt [2023]

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#101

Slim Day 35
I got time to think if I really want a Wanted Black QTKS custom as I have not received the link for payment yesterday.

My two slim days customs were remade yesterday with my right name in them. Perhaps they work better now.

Wasn’t on the scale yet.

Woke up to someone drilling in the house today. Need to find an escape if this continues.

Thinking about all the customs I worked on lately as blueprints. Which one do I want to run for a year or longer?
There are:

  • Slim King (lots and BDLM)
  • Alpha Writer (asc mogul/ultimate writer)
  • Stark Programmer (ultimate programmer/stark)
  • Wanted Black (wb + 9 modules)

Which one would be most interesting as QTKS?
My intuition tells me Alpha Writer. Although Stark Programmer seems interesting, too.
With wanted black I am a bit unsure now after reading that it is very energy intensive and I have the least experience with it (1 short loop).

And I have the feeling that I am not ready for having a harem. And just for attention from the ladies it could be not worth it.

Maybe I am using a dice to decide.

Then I have to create the final draft of the winner.

#102

1-2 Wanted Black custom
3-4 Ultimate Programmer custom
5-6 Ultimate Writer custom

Let the dice roll.
Result: 1.

Hmmm

#103

This is the custom:

  1. WANTED Black Core
  2. Prevent Premature Ejaculation
  3. Inner Gasoline
  4. Stop Porn and Masturbation
  5. Omnidimensional
  6. Yggdrasil
  7. Tyrant
  8. Furious Ascent
  9. Organization Perfected
  10. Unlimiter
#104

Thought about adding Libertine and Auric Overdriver into the custom.

  1. WANTED Black Core
  2. Libertine Core
  3. Auric Overdriver
  4. Prevent Premature Ejaculation
  5. Inner Gasoline
  6. Stop Porn and Masturbation
  7. Omnidimensional
  8. Yggdrasil
  9. Tyrant
  10. Furious Ascent
  11. Organization Perfected
  12. Unlimiter
#105

Slim Day 35 - evening

I am sad that I didn’t receive the link for QTKS custom. Perhaps this has to wait and I will have to make other plans.

If I get a QTKS custom it won’t be ready after the washout. So I will have to wash out longer or start with something else. For example continuing khan black and slim king.

This could be a good thing. An opportunity to stay on track.

#106

Washout day 3
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#107

Slim Day 36 - morning
Just woke up and had the QTKS link in PM. Ordered the custom. This will be an adventure.

#108

Slim Day 37 - early morning

Can’t sleep yet. It’s 1:16 am. Will go back to bed at 2 am.

washout day 4
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#109

Slim Day 37 - morning

Weight is at the lowest since starting the statistics.

It’s 10:23 am here and I just decided to get out of bed. Handyman are drilling in the house again. It’s not what I expected because it’s Saturday.

Nothing new from the QTKS custom front, perhaps I get it next week. That would fit after the washout.

I have disbelief in affirmations working… I guess they would work better if I had total belief in them. I am still doing them and have them in my head most of the time. I am asking myself how to become indifferent as Brent was teaching it in the past. I can’t imagine how it looks like behaving this way. Lots of doubt at the moment. Time to push through.

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#110

Slim day 37 - evening
Met a female friend today and she talked about wanting to introduce me to one of her single friends.

She herself is in an unhappy relationship and was interested in me when I was on Khan. I wasn’t interested in her at the time and it seems like she has given up on trying.

Now I am curious what the future will bring.

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#111

washout day 5
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Slim Day 38
Weight at its lowest again.

Hanging around the forum all the time is taking its toll. I feel tired and didn’t wake up early today. Let’s say the QTKS custom won’t be there after the washout. I need a plan B. Perhaps listening to WB and Libertine as stack until the custom arrives.

Then after the QTKS custom arrives what will happen to this journal? Maybe I abandon it or I will continue about results related to the „Slim Days“.

I think it will be better to focus on one journal for both.

I want to continue with KBC:Stage 1, so I will listen to that as micro loops as recommended by Saint Sovereign. If I do the same with the Slim King custom is still unclear to me. WB has physical shifting so that maybe enough. And I like stacks with only 2 subliminals.

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#112

Slim Day 39
Weight still at its lowest.

Listened to 5 minutes of Wanted Black and Khan Black each this morning.
Nothing wild happened yet. :smiley:

Found this in a newsletter by Charisma School about sexual magnetism and semen retention:

According to the article, it is not that important to do semen retention for sexual magnetism.
Maybe I should start the Sexual Energy Mastery course again :smiley:

#113

Slim day 39 - evening

I am smoking more since beginning semen retention and the diet. From one addiction switched to another.

Can’t sleep right now thinking about masturbation to get sleepy. Too much energy too little to do.

Could be some kind of recon also because I am bored again.

#114

Slim Day 40
Gained weight today. No problem.
I have a cheat day the day after tomorrow.

Didn’t masturbate yesterday and stayed up until I felt exhausted and could sleep easily.

I am still an early riser. KBC is doing its thing.

Wanted Black seems to have faded since my initial results or it has become more subtle. Like yesterday a woman got in my field of view and turned around etc as if she wanted to show herself.

Perhaps I would see more in situations were it’s easier to meet people like parties.

Today at work there is a task I don’t like but I will have to eat the frog and do it first thing in the morning.

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#116

Slim Day 40 - evening
After work I was getting really angry about small things. Recon from WB.

I notice very little from WB in form of results. A female worker looking at me for a long time while smoking.

I hope to get WB to work better. Read about micro loops and will try them next. My last loop was rather macro (5 minutes).

Having recon and waiting for QTKS sub is not such a nice experience. Also semen retention is not as easy for me as for others. Currently I am not feeling well. Not depressed but a bit defeated. Work was a mixture of boredom and stress. Also stopped doing the affirmations because I don’t believe in them.

Hopefully better days ahead.

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#117

What software or website did you use to get this pictures done?

Looks cool :sunglasses:

#118

For this washout I was using Photofunia. It’s a cool website.

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#119

Switching to CSMX as soon as it is available. I want to add RICH to the stack. I am already having presults and am looking for a fine outfit online. Excited as this will bring me to the next level. The sky is the limit.

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Thanks to @Trader for bringing this super secret title to my awareness.

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#120

Climbing on the roof of the house with a ladder 🪜 on my new endeavour as hobbyist chimney cleaner. The view from the roof top is amazing, but I have work to do. There was a nest 🪺 on the chimney I had to remove so the smoke could exit more easily. This is an adventure of a life time. I took the eggs and cooked them (RICH manifestation of extra income?), they tasted delicious. Now I am planning on expanding the business. There are more eggs out there to eat. As always: The sky is the limit.

Planning on building a custom with CSMX, RICH and Emperor to build an empire chimney sweep business and bang all the chicks in the industry.

Someone edited the product page of CSMX and claimed it is for humour only. But for me that’s no joke, it’s my new reality, my new life.

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#121

I am working on my affirmations game. Everyday, in every way I stand on the roof top and scream these into the universe:

• I am a skilled and confident chimney sweeper.

• I enjoy my work and find satisfaction in doing it well.

• I always deliver high-quality service to my clients.

• I am constantly learning and improving my techniques and tools.

• I respect the history and tradition of chimney sweeping.

• I am proud of my contribution to keeping chimneys clean and safe.

• I attract positive and loyal customers who appreciate my work.

• I have a healthy and balanced lifestyle that supports my physical and mental well-being.

• I am grateful for the opportunities and challenges that come my way.

• I am a successful and happy chimney sweeper.

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