Journaling Matt [2023]

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#1

Hooray for a new journal!
Currently I am listening to two custom subliminals every other day.

One is a custom with Heartsong and many relaxing loving modules. I remade the custom from qv2 to zpv1 which I introduced in my former „What is love?“-topic.

The other is a primal seduction/sex mastery custom in qv2. Today I ordered an upgrade for that to zpt. Once it is upgraded I will listen to it twice a week.

That’s my current plan.

Yesterday I felt angry which was probably caused by introducing the ps custom to the mix. I was angry about my current state and about my artist peers being more successful than me.

I decided to start a new journal because journals are important for success and I didn’t log my past successes and failures this year.

I want to tryout the zp terminus build because I had some success with stark terminus in the past and I feel like I need something stronger to get results.

I had an awesome time with zp in the beginning but in the last couple of months the honey moon was over and I noticed less results. I hope for a shift with this new journey and I know that I also have to take action for pathways of manifestation.

Taking action so far was going to more social events and talking to people. I have been to one event each week in the past two weeks. I know that doesn’t sound like a lot, but after weeks of not socialising at all this is progress for me.

I hope to receive my terminus custom next week to replace the one hour long qv2 dinosaur.

What else? Writing in this journal I notice that maybe I need some healing first. But the two custom have healing modules in them, so maybe that will be enough. I was rather depressed for a while which is getting better, but I think there is a connection between being depressed and subs not fully working. In my up phases subs definitely were better executed.

Here are the contents of the two customs:

Primal Seduction QV2

Furious Ascent, ARES, Discordia Deliverance, Attachment Destroyer, Love Without Attachment, Chosen of Venus, Sexual Manifestation, Yggdrasil, Tyrant, Gorgeous Manifestor, Dominion, Gratitude Embodiment, Primal Seduction Q Core, Sex Mastery XQ Core, Seducer’s Gaze, Temptation, Emperor’s Voice, Earthshaker – Sexuality, Pragya, Mosaic

Heartsong ZPV1
  1. Heartsong Q Core 2. Joie de Vivre 3. Elegance 4. Depths of Love 5. Chosen of Venus 6. Love Without Attachment 7. Transcendental Connection 8. Harmonic Singularity 9. Blue Skies 10. Gratitude Embodiment 11. Way of Understanding 12. Mercy Protocol 13. The Wonder 14. The Flow 15. Path of Forgiveness 16. Pride Unbroken 17. Emotions Unfettered 18. Deus 19. Yggdrasil 20. The Architect
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#2

Just finished the one hour loop of the qv2 custom. Now I am ready for bed. Let’s see if there are any dreams. Speaking of which I had less dreams in the past few months. Or I remembered less dreams because they were less intense. In the beginning of sub usage I had lot of strange dreams. My sleep is bad probably because I notice that I wake up easily from the tiniest noises.

Journaling again is fun. It helps me to reflect. I don’t think much verbally, so writing stuff down helps to create thought processes.

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#3

Last night I had dreams but I didn’t write them down immediately so I forgot them. Today I spent mostly at work. In the evening I visited a female friend who told me that she likes that she can talk freely to me without restrictions. Like thinking out loud. I am not interested in her sexually but I enjoyed the time we spend together.

Tomorrow there will be another listening day.

My mood is currently okayish and the anger is no longer present.

Not much to report today.

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#4

Today I listened to one loop of each custom.

On instagram a girl wrote me a nice comment below a picture of me. That could be some kind of manifestation. Or it’s just a bot. Normally the bots look different and just like my pictures without commenting. But who knows.

What else? I feel tired today and will go to bed early.

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#5

Listened to both customs for one loop today.
Worked the whole day. Nothing else to report.

#6

Today I received my zp terminus ps/smx custom. Listened to one loop of it in the morning.
Next loop will be on Sunday.

Tonight I will listen to the heartsong zpv1 custom.

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#7

Just listened to one loop of the Heartsong ZPv1 custom.

Not much to journal at the moment. Only that I am stuck at work and it sucks. But then there is the weekend coming. Time to have some fun. And another loop of the PS-ZPT custom on Sunday.

#8

Just read my entire Dragon Reborn journal.
I listened to one loop of DR stage 1 zpv2.

There is the idea in my head to forgive and let go of hurtful events from the past by myself and others. I want to start another journey with Dragon Reborn towards that goal. Listening to each stage for three cycles.

On my last journey with the dragon I was using limitless executive Ultima a lot to stay motivated. Maybe I will do that again or try the zp version of it.

I also found out that I once had a writing Ultima custom. Totally forgot about that one. My writing habit is broken at the moment, so such a title could help.

It’s probably time for a washout soon. After that I could start my Dragon Reborn journey 2.0. Thinking about adding LBFH.

In the past I finished stage one and two of DR and began listening to stage 3 for a while before completely stopping the title. So the journey is to be continued. And I guess it wouldn’t hurt to restart from stage 1. After all it’s now zp and the last time I listened to the title in qv2 was 2 years ago.

It sucks that I just created a custom in zpt, but I don’t value it too highly. Healing is of higher value right now.

I also could read the sales page of the new elixir and see if it is better suited to stack than lbfh.

Forgiveness once was important to me. Letting go even became a practice during the DR run. I can see myself working on that again.

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#9

Sunday I listened to one loop of dr stage 1 and one loop of lbfh.

Now I’m on day 2 of the washout.

Still having some dreams at night but not as intense and I do not remember contents.

Day job is going a little bit better. I found a solution to a problem which was annoying me before the weekend.

I will probably washout for 7 days although I thought about running bl executive Ultima today to get some stuff done. But I just did get it done without the help of this sub.

Now I’m bored and will go to bed early.

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#10

Today I listened to one loop of Beyond Limitless Executive Ultima v2.
I had a hangup at work, was doing nothing. While listening to that loop, I made plans of what I can program in my two projects. Before finishing that loop, I was already working on one of the projects.

Writing down my thoughts about work helped to find a starting point. Writing for me is better than thinking in my head.

This seems not to be a real washout because I am still using Ultima titles. I will look at the rest of the week and then decide if I will add additional washout days without Ultima usage.

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#11

Was that a custom of yours?

#12

No, I guess it is actually called limitless executive Ultima v2. But as far as I remember it is a mixture of beyond limitless and the executive.

Results were that I got some things done at work and after work also.

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#13

Yeah. I was thinking that’s what you meant but I try like hell not to assume most of the time. Since assumptions make an ass out of me and umption.

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#14

Listened to another LEUv2 loop today. Found solutions to a problem at work that seemed unsolvable yesterday. Then I found more problems and coded solutions for them. So far, a good day at work.

Up next: Weekend.

#15

Thinking about CFW instead of DR.
Pro would be that it is more compact and not a multi stager. Con would be that it is focused and not an allround healing title.

Also I saw a woman at the café today who showed signs of attraction. I noticed it and later ignored it because it is not part of my reality. In retrospect it could have been the ps zpt sub working but in the moment I didn’t think of it.

So now I would like to continue using the ps zpt custom plus light healing from cfw.

I just listened to another loop of the zpt custom.

I notice I am still in my old behaviour of switching subs. I don’t own the official cfw version yet, so I will wait a bit and decide what to do.

I also watched an action movie which inspired me to become stronger. Emotionally and physically. I will see where this idea takes me.
First thought was to run an alpha sub like khan after dr. But then I read about cfw and the idea to use that for healing came up.

I will sleep about it.

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#16

The decision is made. No DR, but CFW instead.
Today I listened to one loop of CFW and I am currently listening to one loop of LBFH.
This should be my stack now plus the PS custom twice a week.

The first loop of CFW made me feel calm, relaxed. Nothing is bothering me.

Now I need to get some work done.

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#17

Day 2 of Chosen from Within. Also, one loop of Love bomb for Humanity.
Listening to CFW I again feel calm and relaxed.
Nothing else to report yet.

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#18

My new stack:

  • Genesis ZP
  • RM: Ultimate Writer X

Currently I am listening to the first loop of UWX. Before that I listened to a loop of Genesis (loop 5).

#19

Had an interesting vivid dream today which I want to use for a story. At one point I had the thought that I am dreaming. So I was semi aware of it.

Now I have to find a way to tell that story. I hope it will be successful.

I don’t remember if uwx includes dream scripting but this was a dream inspired by it. It also had a little monkey oracle telling me that I like stories by an author with my real name.

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#20

Talking about manifestation. A friend called me talking about a collaboration. He offered me to publish my stories in a fanzine. This sounds exciting.

If I hadn’t run Ultimate Writer before I would call it a coincidence.

Mind blown.

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