Since in washout I feel lighter and more grounded. The last 8 months with Dragon Reborn had its toll.
It’s a great title, and I will resume it after my washout, but it is not a “easy” fix.
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Had a great washout. Now I feel I’m ready to start the new cycle. Will do it in an alterate rhythm. 1 day my custom, 1 day break next day DRR1, 1 day break, repeat.
Had a great holiday in france, working at my brothers farm, relaxing from the virtual, brain heavy day to day work.
On one day I had to throw in 3 min of Emperor for a little status boost regarding my wife. It worked.
1st day:
3.10.26: StarkQ/True Sell Custom (full)
3rd day:
5.10.26: DRR1 (full)
5th day:
7.10.26: StarkQ/True Sell Custom (full)
7th day:
9.10.26: DRR1 (full)
9th day:
11.10.26: StarkQ/True Sell Custom (full)
Dragon Reborn is not an easy Sub (as stated in the copy), and it shows. I have to work through a lot of things (relationship, career, life in general). Sometimes it feels like a full-blown midlife crisis. I really have to work through all these things and find out what I can do about them. Because for now, I’m in the state of pain but not yet in the state of enlightenment. I see things, but I have no handle on them. It’s like having a heavy object in front of you that you know you have to move, but you can’t find a handle on it or see a way to lift it aside. That’s how it feels right now. At least I see the heavy things (but don’t know yet how to move them).
Remark: Maybe all of the above is just an excuse to not have to do anything (argh).
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Yesterday, and also today, I was really angry again. I think it’s from Dragon Reborn, but it could also stem from my custom (I listened to it the night before). My wife has politely asked me to suspend the two subs for a while because she doesn’t like the way I’m behaving. But I’m not stopping. I like that I’m angry. I should have been angry much earlier. Maybe in my adolescence. I just need to find a way to transmute that anger energy into something good. The anger is a sign of something hidden in me that wants to tell me something. I’m not absolutely clear on what that is and what the outcome will be. Maybe it will be nothing pleasant for my peace-loving, don’t-stir-things-up-and-hide personality, but it will have to be done when it needs to be done. But as I have experienced over the last 3 years of using the subs from Subliminal Club, inner change often comes with an automatic outer change. When the energy shifts, reality shifts as well. I see that with my wife; she is a very good mirror of my inner state. So, long story short, I didn’t stop, but I moved the sub time from evening back to the morning.
P.S.: Today I was better able to transmute my anger or at least recognize it and acknowledge it. Had a productive day at work.
11th day:
13.10.26: DRR1 (full)
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13th day:
15.10.26: StarkQ/True Sell Custom (full)
15th day:
17.10.26: DRR1 (full)
Thursday, my custom steared up the anger in me. I dealt with it working on my ounching bag for 30 minutes. The workday was rough, not using control, but I made it, kept the volcano under control.
17th day:
19.10.26: StarkQ/True Sell Custom (full)
19th day:
21.10.26: DRR1 (full)
The anger I felt over the last three weeks, since I started my new cycle, is now mostly gone and has been replaced by a steady calm and rootedness. I feel more real and self-confident. It’s morning now, and last night was the first night in a couple of days that I slept well. I still had a lot of dreams, but I didn’t wake up once. The nights before were really rough. A lot of almost lucid, unpleasant dreams bothered me.
For a couple of days now, I’ve noticed something new: my mind feels sharper. I’m better at recalling things, and I think more quickly. My Italian is also progressing much faster (I have the polyglot module in my custom).
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21st day:
23.10.26: StarkQ/True Sell Custom (full)
Today is the last day of this cycle. The alternating rhythm of only one sub per listening day was a good desicion. My subconscious could work through a lot of things. The anger issue I developed in the first half of this cycle is mostly under control. What changed profoundly is that I developed some sort of “observability” about it. I detect much better when and why I get angry, and I can then deal with it much better. Mostly I transmute it, or it dissolves by itself, when I see what causes it. I’m still mostly in the position that I only see what causes it, not why it causes it. So still a long way to go.
Some interesting thoughts came up, starting mid-cycle, about the perception of reality and the lived reality of different people. The thought process started while I was observing people and watching and reading about wealth. “What does it really take to be or become rich?” was my question. The first thoughts, of course, were the old narratives of luck, intelligence, social skills, hard work and, lastly, inheritance. But then I looked more closely, and these kinds of traits are distributed just as randomly among rich people as among everyone else. I could not find (at least on the surface) any common thread. The explanations we get from rich people themselves say the same: “I worked hard,” “I bought some crypto early on,” “My dad was an XY,” “It takes intelligence to run a successful business,” etc., and all the other things you hear on podcasts and YouTube. These kinds of things seem to me more and more like a symptom, not a cause. Except for one thing, and that was what triggered some deep introspection: I observed that a lot of people who have wealth seem to have a deep-rooted belief or worldview that this is how it should be. That they deserve wealth. And that led me to another question: are there different kinds of realities in the world? Is our belief or worldview the only big differentiator? Because in the other kind of world (with other kind of world I mean the “have-a-good-life-but-not-wealthy” kind of world) I observed the exact same thing: people who identify as proud members of the working class also have strong beliefs and worldviews. They might work as much as rich people, and they get something out of it, but not wealth. They might also be very intelligent, but they end up as engineers, architects or scientists. They make good money, but not wealth. They might build a “small” kind of wealth, but not the big kind. And that was another thing: why do the most people plateau with their wealth at some point, or just grow slowly? It doesn’t seem to be anything technical, so it must be something else.
What’s special about the subconscious, and what Subclub helps with a lot, is its ability to shift one’s attention to new things. Dragon Reborn in this cycle led me to find and buy a new book that contains exactly the thoughts mentioned above. It is called “Reality Transurfing” by Vadim Zeland (a Russian thinker and scientist). I’m not far into it, but there are some really interesting ideas at its core. Reality, for example, is nothing fixed but just one of a myriad of variants: one little variant that came to life, while billions of other variants could have come to life instead. He calls it something like the “Space of Variations/Alternative Spaces.” It would answer a lot of the questions I had above.
For the wealth part I’m contemplating if I should add The Extasy Of Gold to the mix, beginning with the next cycle. It could help me uncover some more “variants” related to wealth.
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OMG. I was literally just reading this on Kindle. I needed something to sink in so put it down for a moment.
Excellent book so far and certainly mind bending. It’s free to read on Amazon prime which shocked me.
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“Reality Transurfing” - Vadim Zeland
“The ways and means of achieving a goal will find themselves. Moreover, they will present themselves in ways the mind could never have imagined. The mind does not really know anything and is not capable of knowing anything. If you consistently focus on your thoughts on a goal, picturing it as if it had already been achieved, then in due time, external intention - that incomprehensible force - will open the necessary doors (opportunities). The task of the mind is to direct the train of thought in the right direction, thereby triggering the workings of external intention.”
The external intention I’m frankly trying to understand. I’m early on in the book so I have to be patient with that idea until I read further about it and grasp it. 
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It’s a very cool book
It’s one where the ideas didn’t really resonate much with me until I kept seeing different explanations pop up over time
I guess that’s synchronicities
I’m nearly done with part 1 (I think it says there are five parts in the book)
But after a while I’ve started to see manifestation and its concepts relate quite well
In fact I feel like all the manifestation teachers really say the same thing
You can boil down manifestation to either:
- Live as if you already have the thing
Or
- Believe without a doubt the thing is going to happen
Either version gets you to act in accordance to bringing that goal into reality
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Itzhak Bentov was very interesting also. He had a book “Swinging of The Wild Pendulum”. Sort of along the same lines as the Zeland stuff, but gets quite esoteric.
There’s a type of meditation he tries to teach you and it’s almost like becoming a radio or a tv and getting yourself to the correct channel to transurf to the results you want.
There’s a show currently running called Dark Matter that deals with this transurfing. I like it and don’t at the same time. Don’t mean to break into your jounal @TheRock .
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Hey, everything okay 
I like your input here and also that of @MAkh. It shows me I’m on the right track 
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Started my new cycle yesterday with my custom. I still haven’t come up with a name for it, so I’m just calling it “my custom” for now 
Day 1:
29.10.26: StarkQ/True Sell Custom (full)
Tomorrow I will start with Dragon Reborn Stage 2. As in the last cycle, I will alternate between the two: one day custom, break, one day DRR2, break, custom, and so on. This rhythm works really well for me.
Dragon Reborn Stage 1 brought a lot of shifting in this second run. At the beginning I was often very angry. Later I was able to handle it better. Toward the end I noticed that I was listening to power metal much more than before, as an outlet for my inner rage. But by the end of DRR1, a lot had settled and I became calmer. Relationship-wise, a lot settled in a good way: much steadier feelings on both sides, less doubt, good sex. I’m becoming much more stable emotionally and socially (in my feelings and behavior toward other people).
There is a lot more to unpack, and I’m looking forward to Stage 2 of Dragon Reborn.
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Day 3:
31.10.26: Dragon Reborn Red Stage 2 (full)
The perception of my reality is shifting. Dragon Reborn Red allows for different views to the world. I can’t reliably tell what is shifting. But thoughts and emotions are different for some situations. I know, it’s vague, but I can’t keep the finger really on it.
That quote says it best.
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Day 5:
02.11.26: StarkQ/True Sell Custom (full)
After running DRR2 on Saturday, the anger was back. It held me firmly until yesterday morning. After running my custom, a wave of calm overcame me and kept that way the whole day. This second run of Dragon Reborn Red is a heavy hitter. It may be, because I run it on purpose for the whole length (15min). I wonder if I could mitigate some effects if I run both titles on the same day instead of alternating. But, I will keep that cycle. The recon and effect I have are like a light that guides me to some unknown dark places where I really have to do some work. One other effect I recognized while running Dragon Reborn Red is that my bond to my wife is way stronger and love flows freely. I don’t question the relationship (what I did all the time before).
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Day 7:
31.10.26: Dragon Reborn Red Stage 2 (full)
No anger issues after the last run of DRR2. But I wasn’t productive today. Too much “noise” in the head.
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