Journal: SFI – by Akin

Journals - Major Programs
#57

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I did an immersion with a coach/healer this past weekend that was very important. The theme was: life mission and prosperity. The invitation came unexpectedly, and it was an immersion with a very symbolic cost—but wow, I felt so grateful for everything I accessed.

It was very liberating, truly a soul calling. A confirmation of everything I’ve been planting and all the alignment that both subs are bringing me. I realized that, in order to have a good relationship with art and allow it to express the best of what exists in my life, I really need to allow myself to have a more solid structure in other ways. At least for now, at least in how I express myself today.

I saw my future self—my version who lives with more consistency, prosperity, and fullness. A very refined version of me. And I activated her so she can come closer.

It was important because I reconnected with the meaning of the Field of Infinite Possibilities that exists—I remembered. And I also received clarifications I wasn’t expecting. The invitation came to me with such lightness, and I accepted it. I’m grateful to my soul for having led me there.

#58

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I’ve aligned myself with the flow of intuition over the past few days, and I realized that, even with the invitation from EoG, Seductress would still help me deal with certain issues in the present moment.

What’s been most challenging in everything is noticing places, people, and situations that simply can no longer bear to be in my presence—they’re visibly uncomfortable with my light and/or the kind of energy and transformation I bring.

To me, Seductress speaks deeply of inner alignment, sovereignty, and refinement as one becomes a bridge to oneself. But at the same time, it’s an energy that’s very hard to sustain, especially when it often triggers rejection in others, or even an impulse to push me away.

Perhaps this is a wound I’ve carried deeply for a long time, but it’s been manifesting more clearly in the external world since I started running loops of it: dealing with people close to me who, in truth, can’t stand my light and feel disturbed by it. Or who completely change toward me as soon as I reach a more aligned, Light-centered inner state. It’s been painful to see this, and it makes me want to stop. So many people are pulling away, and when I think someone might walk by my side, they usually disappear—they just can’t hold it, can’t understand.

I’ve seen so many situations where I’ve experienced these relational losses, where people only feel comfortable when I’m “less.” And I confess here: I’m very afraid that the only way to keep people around is by silencing myself. I truly hope to find a real solution to this.

I’ll be taking a break from Seductress over the next few days, because it’s brought so much to the surface for me. It’s also increased my psychic and telepathic abilities tenfold—and in many situations, it’s honestly better not to deal with that. It’s not running away—it’s a rest.

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#59

I also felt the intuition to listen to Genesis in the coming days to anchor everything that has been stirred up recently and to bring clearer guidance regarding the insights I accessed during the life mission immersion.

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#60

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Even though I talked about Seducress yesterday and the difficulties I observed (which have to do with a karmic pattern I came to dissolve in this life), I feel IMMENSELY grateful for these patterns being revealed to me — and especially for the love and inner strength it brings me to overcome them, with the love for myself as a compass.

Many things have been revealed to me — things that had become unsustainable in the way I was living, relating to others and to myself. It even invited me to cut off unhealthy dynamics, deeply rooted ones, that I don’t know how I would have perceived without it.

It’s a very powerful force, even though I know that what is manifesting also has to do with all my abilities and spiritual gifts.

The pain I was talking about was because I realized that my soul journey has reached a very specific point — a crossroads that involves conscious processes of choice. And in this case, I realized that even though it reflects on the outside, it has to do with my relationship with my father, and with spiritual and karmic bonds.

Basically, I’m being invited to choose another path — one where the feminine is no longer silenced in order to fit in, where I no longer silence myself to fit into a small, suffocating, silencing, anti-life space.

What this is touching is very deep. And even though pain keeps me company in my daily life, I realized that, in the deepest part of what I’m living, there is a PLACE where I can CHOOSE.

The only certainty I have is that, still this year, I’m going to Bahia (another state here), where many astrologers have already said is a more fertile ground for my soul — where I will be able to find and give myself the nourishment I truly need.

This year, I turn 30. Thirty years living far from the sea, with the certainty since childhood that that is truly my place.

From now on, all my efforts and intentions will move in that direction — no matter what I’ll have to leave behind.

#61

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On Tuesday, after a very powerful experience in a ritual, I felt a tremendous urge to leave home and go out into the world. Many hidden things were brought to light, and the impulse to spend some time away from my city emerged. I came to Alto Paraíso, one of the most mystical, intense, and fascinating cities in Brazil. This place is full of waterfalls and rivers. Moreover, it is known for UFO sightings and for being a multidimensional portal.

Well, since I arrived, it feels like I’ve already lived a whole lifetime. It has been crucial for integration, as the ritual released dense energies that had been affecting me and my family system. This place truly is a portal, and stepping on this land intensifies everything—the alignments and the distortions we go through.

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#62

So here I am, in this sacred and magical land, having all kinds of encounters with waterfalls, spending a lot of time in the sun and near the waters and the rivers. I’m connecting with the magical and sacred beings of this place.

Also, this is a crossroads where people from all over Brazil and the world pass through. Well, magic is happening, and here I truly feel I can be connected to who I really am. The beautiful thing about how this place amplifies everything is that it also amplifies the subliminals and opens a portal for insights to come through with great clarity.

There are many crystals in the rock formations here, so it’s a land that carries a much cleaner energy. Genesis, which was a powerful ally of mine in the past (see here), is now manifesting and bringing new layers to the surface. I’ve been receiving many insights about my mission on a very deep level.

It’s also opening doors for my path to remain aligned. I’ve been experiencing so many synchronicities—like getting two extra days of accommodation for free, meeting people who may help me settle in the medium term and who welcomed me with open arms in this moment.

I even encountered someone I had been really hoping to meet, just through the power of intention and thought—on the same day I asked.

In short, this is truly a magical land, and I’m using my tools to make the most of it in the best possible way.

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#63

So, I’m being really intuitive about which subliminals to use while I’m here. I haven’t listened to Seductress yet—and honestly, I’m not even sure I want to, because let me tell you, this is a small town and everything reverberates intensely. I’m pretty sure the whole city would stop when I walk down the street. I might not have any peace.

Anyway, Genesis came through as a clear intuition from my Higher Self, and thank God I listened, because it has opened very deep paths regarding my mission and life purpose while being here.

I’m literally following my intuition. I don’t have a fixed playlist or anything. I’m even considering listening to Genesis Mogul, which I never really felt much from before—but here, I feel like it might reveal something new.

Also, once my inner structuring cycle with Genesis is complete, I want to listen to EoG and finally unlock that Ecstasy of Gold once and for all.

I’m not sure how long I’ll stay here, but I did receive an offer to work somewhere in exchange for accommodation, breakfast, and lunch, and I’m really considering accepting it. I still have two days to decide.

And I’ll say this: I’m going to follow whatever my soul and intuition guide me to do.

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#64

. 2 rest days .
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Things happen really fast here—really fast. Two days feel like a whole lifetime. I have so much to say, but the truth is, so much is happening that I’m allowing myself to process it all in silence.

I accepted the exchange for accommodation and meals because I felt it was important to stay here, and this is a great way to save money. I feel like I’m being prepared to walk a new path outside my hometown.

This city I’m in now is about four hours away from where I was living / where I was born. So I can still go back when needed—and I actually will next week, as I have things to take care of and commitments to fulfill.

It’s the first time I’m making such a conscious move to really take care of my life, to take responsibility for it from a grounded, adult place.

There’s a lot happening at once, but the land and the loving ground of this place are helping me hold it all. The connection with the waters and rivers too.

That’s it.

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#65

Seven days of rest. Coincidentally, during the seven days working at the guesthouse, I took a break from the subliminals but continued working with the sacred geometries.

I’m dying and being reborn in this place. A very beautiful part of me is being born—a part I’m just beginning to know, and I believe it’s connected to my Higher Self and my star origin.

Tomorrow I’ll need to return to my hometown for an immersive experience that’s about to happen. I’m feeling a bit anxious because I’ll have to stop by the house to pick up some things and leave others. I still don’t know exactly how I’ll manage it, but my intention is not to live there anymore.

I want to come back to this land—if that’s what my intuition guides me to do.

Four loops of Genesis revealed very deep things to me. And after closing some cycles, I want to enter the Era of Gold and use this place to amplify that energy.

But—it’s not time yet.

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#67

So, I’m feeling really happy and excited today. Yesterday, I had a beautiful ThetaHealing session that focused on genetic patterns related to finances and the expression of my gifts. I’m feeling the freshness of new possibilities.

Well, I’m still in Brasília and, after so much change, I’m waiting for things to settle energetically within me before taking the next step. I’m following my own rhythm and inner pulse, even though the outside world sometimes pressures me into certain roles with a sense of urgency.

After a month of playfully talking about Miles and the “leap of faith,” I’ve actually started experiencing it in real life. Small leaps I take, little intuitive nudges that keep revealing the path — what to do and what not to do.

Now my intuition is sharper, and I hear my spiritual Guides every day, whispering paths and suggestions right into my ear. I also feel deeply connected with my Higher Self.

Anyway, the time has come to make money and grow financially. So, when I set up my next stack, I’ll take that into account — maybe try RICH or EoG. Let’s see. It’s time to reap the fruits and watch money flowing into my account. Haha.

#68

I think I’m going to give RICH a chance soon

#69

So… I’m going through this huge integration after Core Energetics training, along with other things, and it’s been lasting about 15 days.

Feels like a recon. I think it’s a time for recovery, Idk.

I’m still not able to listen to subliminals because I’m dealing with so much. Also my immunity is low.

Also, I wore myself out and even got a bit hurt from jumping between places. In the end, spending time with some friends turned out to be more draining than rejuvenating.

I’m feeling a bit sad and frustrated with myself and my life right now.

I also realized I don’t have a financial plan or a clear path to move out of my father’s house at the moment.

I need a miracle.

#70

Feeling a little better today.

I’m starting to think about my next listening schedule. Well, I’ve never used a custom, and I’m still comfortable with the major programs.

I need strength to move forward with impetus and power, without looking to the sides.

Stark Black is coming to mind (I’d run it solo).

I’m also thinking about RICH, or EoG as options.

My main focus is money and creating income.

I need to decide.

#71

Yesterday, I spent a reasonable amount of time reading the sales pages for SB, Seductress, EoG, and R.I.C.H. It was really enriching and clarifying, but it’s kind of wild to notice the differences in the copy now that they’re using new technologies. It honestly feels like you can truly understand what each subliminal is about. It activates different layers of the mind and subconscious. I really felt that while going through the copy for Seductress and EoG.

Just from reading the EoG copy yesterday, I had some pre-results in the morning.

Out of all the ones I read, EoG Stage 01 and EoG Stage 03 really caught my attention. I think I’m going to make space for both of them (at different times). So yeah — EoG is definitely going to be part of my next cycle. Now I just need to decide whether to let it run solo or pair it with something else.

Stage 01 alone is already a lot. But still… I feel like another sub could serve as a kind of push or boost during the cycle. Anyway — I’m preparing. I want to start soon.

#72

Felt a wave of excitement this morning while reading the sales pages for Stark Black and Emperor.

It’s been 1 month and 13 days since my last Sym:S loop, and I’ve realized that my system is still assimilating the script and healing on deeper subconscious levels — especially around feminine issues.

That’s why I’m now considering options with a more assertive energy, to finally make things happen.

Even though these programs aren’t generally recommended for women — since they tend to develop more traditionally masculine traits — they actually resonate with the momentum I need to build right now.

The truth is, I’ve come to see that many of the struggles in my life are rooted in not being able to embody my yang side the way I truly want to — due to my organic body.

Now that I’ve gone through this deep healing and alignment with the feminine,
I also want something that will refine and bring out the best in my yang side, which has been dormant for too long.

I need that power to make certain things happen, and to create changes in my life without looking around or worrying about anyone else.

#73

However, I just thought that starting another loop cycle might actually be a good idea — especially to help ground some deeper layers of Seductress, particularly around sovereignty and everything related to that

I’ve noticed a big shift in how I see myself in the world, and I’ve had insights about places and situations that no longer fit me.

That said, I went through a lot of healing during the first two cycles — and some of it was rough.

So yeah, it might be a good option.
Tomorrow I’ll meditate with that intention, to get clarity and hopefully start the cycle soon.

#74

I would recommend looking at @TheEmpress journals. She has run ASBR and Seductress extensively and journaled about the challenges with the masculine energy.

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#75

Thank you. This is true!

I just finished a cycle of ASBR, Seductress and Paragon after taking a break from ASBR for a month. I reduced my listening times and have found that to be helpful.

I’m becoming more balanced in both energies.

Channeling the masculine where it’s needed most. Feeling more comfortable to lean into my feminine in more ways too.

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#76

Yeah… I imagine.I can sense that more balanced energy.
I have a strong tendency to go toward the feminine principle, but sometimes it gets to the point where it’s too much and ends up keeping me from taking action.

That’s why I’m thinking about ASBR for this cycle.

What led you to choose that title in the beginning?

#77

A new cycle has begun!

I’ve chosen ASBR without the fame script.

My stack will start with it, and as I feel into it, I plan to add RICH along the way.
They’ll be my main focus, as this moment is asking for full force in generating income.

I do want the fame script, but I got the sense that—at least for now, while I’m deeply restructuring myself internally and externally—it might end up being too dispersive.

So that’s it. Let’s go. I’m scared, but I’m going to follow my intuition and surrender to the flow of this cycle.