Journal: SFI – by Akin

Journals - Major Programs
#65

Seven days of rest. Coincidentally, during the seven days working at the guesthouse, I took a break from the subliminals but continued working with the sacred geometries.

I’m dying and being reborn in this place. A very beautiful part of me is being born—a part I’m just beginning to know, and I believe it’s connected to my Higher Self and my star origin.

Tomorrow I’ll need to return to my hometown for an immersive experience that’s about to happen. I’m feeling a bit anxious because I’ll have to stop by the house to pick up some things and leave others. I still don’t know exactly how I’ll manage it, but my intention is not to live there anymore.

I want to come back to this land—if that’s what my intuition guides me to do.

Four loops of Genesis revealed very deep things to me. And after closing some cycles, I want to enter the Era of Gold and use this place to amplify that energy.

But—it’s not time yet.

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#67

So, I’m feeling really happy and excited today. Yesterday, I had a beautiful ThetaHealing session that focused on genetic patterns related to finances and the expression of my gifts. I’m feeling the freshness of new possibilities.

Well, I’m still in Brasília and, after so much change, I’m waiting for things to settle energetically within me before taking the next step. I’m following my own rhythm and inner pulse, even though the outside world sometimes pressures me into certain roles with a sense of urgency.

After a month of playfully talking about Miles and the “leap of faith,” I’ve actually started experiencing it in real life. Small leaps I take, little intuitive nudges that keep revealing the path — what to do and what not to do.

Now my intuition is sharper, and I hear my spiritual Guides every day, whispering paths and suggestions right into my ear. I also feel deeply connected with my Higher Self.

Anyway, the time has come to make money and grow financially. So, when I set up my next stack, I’ll take that into account — maybe try RICH or EoG. Let’s see. It’s time to reap the fruits and watch money flowing into my account. Haha.

#68

I think I’m going to give RICH a chance soon

#69

So… I’m going through this huge integration after Core Energetics training, along with other things, and it’s been lasting about 15 days.

Feels like a recon. I think it’s a time for recovery, Idk.

I’m still not able to listen to subliminals because I’m dealing with so much. Also my immunity is low.

Also, I wore myself out and even got a bit hurt from jumping between places. In the end, spending time with some friends turned out to be more draining than rejuvenating.

I’m feeling a bit sad and frustrated with myself and my life right now.

I also realized I don’t have a financial plan or a clear path to move out of my father’s house at the moment.

I need a miracle.

#70

Feeling a little better today.

I’m starting to think about my next listening schedule. Well, I’ve never used a custom, and I’m still comfortable with the major programs.

I need strength to move forward with impetus and power, without looking to the sides.

Stark Black is coming to mind (I’d run it solo).

I’m also thinking about RICH, or EoG as options.

My main focus is money and creating income.

I need to decide.

#71

Yesterday, I spent a reasonable amount of time reading the sales pages for SB, Seductress, EoG, and R.I.C.H. It was really enriching and clarifying, but it’s kind of wild to notice the differences in the copy now that they’re using new technologies. It honestly feels like you can truly understand what each subliminal is about. It activates different layers of the mind and subconscious. I really felt that while going through the copy for Seductress and EoG.

Just from reading the EoG copy yesterday, I had some pre-results in the morning.

Out of all the ones I read, EoG Stage 01 and EoG Stage 03 really caught my attention. I think I’m going to make space for both of them (at different times). So yeah — EoG is definitely going to be part of my next cycle. Now I just need to decide whether to let it run solo or pair it with something else.

Stage 01 alone is already a lot. But still… I feel like another sub could serve as a kind of push or boost during the cycle. Anyway — I’m preparing. I want to start soon.

#72

Felt a wave of excitement this morning while reading the sales pages for Stark Black and Emperor.

It’s been 1 month and 13 days since my last Sym:S loop, and I’ve realized that my system is still assimilating the script and healing on deeper subconscious levels — especially around feminine issues.

That’s why I’m now considering options with a more assertive energy, to finally make things happen.

Even though these programs aren’t generally recommended for women — since they tend to develop more traditionally masculine traits — they actually resonate with the momentum I need to build right now.

The truth is, I’ve come to see that many of the struggles in my life are rooted in not being able to embody my yang side the way I truly want to — due to my organic body.

Now that I’ve gone through this deep healing and alignment with the feminine,
I also want something that will refine and bring out the best in my yang side, which has been dormant for too long.

I need that power to make certain things happen, and to create changes in my life without looking around or worrying about anyone else.

#73

However, I just thought that starting another loop cycle might actually be a good idea — especially to help ground some deeper layers of Seductress, particularly around sovereignty and everything related to that

I’ve noticed a big shift in how I see myself in the world, and I’ve had insights about places and situations that no longer fit me.

That said, I went through a lot of healing during the first two cycles — and some of it was rough.

So yeah, it might be a good option.
Tomorrow I’ll meditate with that intention, to get clarity and hopefully start the cycle soon.

#74

I would recommend looking at @TheEmpress journals. She has run ASBR and Seductress extensively and journaled about the challenges with the masculine energy.

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#75

Thank you. This is true!

I just finished a cycle of ASBR, Seductress and Paragon after taking a break from ASBR for a month. I reduced my listening times and have found that to be helpful.

I’m becoming more balanced in both energies.

Channeling the masculine where it’s needed most. Feeling more comfortable to lean into my feminine in more ways too.

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#76

Yeah… I imagine.I can sense that more balanced energy.
I have a strong tendency to go toward the feminine principle, but sometimes it gets to the point where it’s too much and ends up keeping me from taking action.

That’s why I’m thinking about ASBR for this cycle.

What led you to choose that title in the beginning?

#77

A new cycle has begun!

I’ve chosen ASBR without the fame script.

My stack will start with it, and as I feel into it, I plan to add RICH along the way.
They’ll be my main focus, as this moment is asking for full force in generating income.

I do want the fame script, but I got the sense that—at least for now, while I’m deeply restructuring myself internally and externally—it might end up being too dispersive.

So that’s it. Let’s go. I’m scared, but I’m going to follow my intuition and surrender to the flow of this cycle.

#78

. ASBR - 23s .

Interesting to feel this first wave of effects.

Here’s what I’ve noticed right away:

  • More focus and motivation to study Core Energetics material (it had been over a month since I’d touched anything).
  • I became aware of a kind of childlike rationality that had influenced some recent decisions. I was able to revisit those choices with a more mature lens — realizing that if I truly want to preserve my financial resources, I can’t keep choosing from that place.
  • Symbolic dreams involving authority figures (like spiritual teachers from the past and my father).
  • People randomly reaching out to ask for my opinion or to share things with me.
  • I noticed my ex coming up a lot in my mind and felt there’s still a strong connection there. That led me to start processing deeper layers of what our relationship actually was.
  • A feeling of “my world has fallen apart” — I sense it’s the collapse of a very illusory way I had of seeing certain things in life."
#79

. rest day .
. ASBR - 25s .

I’m really enjoying the vibe of ASBR. It’s bringing exactly what I was hoping for: a connection to and refinement of my yang side.

I noticed a shift even in the way I interacted with a friend.
Lately, I’ve been watching a lot of biographies and documentaries about singers — I feel deeply moved by them and sense a strong connection to my greater mission. Being in spaces that involve the crowd, the collective… it resonates with something very true in me.

ASBR is definitely stirring deep realities within.
Yesterday, the reconciliation phase showed up as anxiety, and today that feeling still lingers.
But something really important happened in the artistic field yesterday.

For three years, I’ve wanted to be part of a theater piece that’s always presented at a certain festival. But I kept running into internal blocks — which would manifest externally as rejection. Ever since I returned to Brasília, I haven’t been able to present myself as someone grounded and ready.

But yesterday, for the first time during rehearsal, I showed up as my true artist self, as the soul that came here to do this work.
And for the first time, the group paused to give me feedback — both positive and constructive. And it all felt so meaningful when they said, “You’re already one of us. We want you here.”

It was the first time in three years that I left that space feeling like it was mine — and without carrying the feeling of being an impostor.
I was really happy with the internal shift that made this possible, because I’ve been stuck in a loop of negativity for a long time — one I was aware of, but couldn’t get out of or even take small new actions around.

And yesterday, a series of small actions placed me in a completely new space within myself.

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#80

. rest day .

My mind keeps thinking about art and huge impact ever since I started ASBR. It feels like a seed is being planted.

Anyway, here’s what’s been came up:

  • Dreams with my first love.
  • A dream involving the “elevator” from my first job.
  • A dream where someone from the theater group knew my brother and became friends with him faster than with me (inner child trauma of comparison says hi).
  • My sexual energy is way more active.
  • I’m siging more.

So yeah… It’s definitely clearing obstacles.

The best part is that I’m finally letting go of the idea that the only thing I can do with my gifts is be a ‘healer.’
That realization has been such a relief for me — because I think that belief was implanted in me just because I have more psychic abilities.
But now I feel excited imagining a future where that role isn’t a burden or some kind of ‘duty.’
A future where I can actually use my gifts the way I want to — using my creativity and my life to live in a way that makes sense to me, not according to what people expect.

I don’t know… it just feels so freeing.

There’s a big show happening here in the city tonight, a festival. I’m planning to go.
Feeling excited about what might unfold — and who I might meet while I’m there

#81

. ASBR - 23 s .

I went to the festival to see IAMDDB’s show — and it was fucking amazing. So much presence. I really loved it.

Yesterday I was with a friend who’s close to a well-known influencer here in my country.
And out of nowhere I was just hanging out with them, part of the group at the show.
People kept coming up to talk to him, and I was just there, naturally fitting in.
At the same time, I was learning a lot from his presence and the way he carries himself.

Before that, I had gone to see a dance performance — there was this beautiful solo about snakes. I was totally enchanted by it. The performer was incredible.

Funny thing is, I already knew her. Later on, we went to the show and after the group left, she and I stayed for the rest of the show together.
And then — when I least expected it — she kissed me.

It felt really good.

I didn’t really do anything, just gave her two intentional looks. IT WAS SOOOO GOOOOD.
And I’m very happy — because it happened naturally, and I felt really comfortable in my own body all night.

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#82

. rest day .
. ASBR - 26s (no headphone) .

I spent the day without headphones but decided to play the loop on my car speakers — the assimilation felt subtler and smoother.

Before choosing this cycle’s subliminal, I asked GPT (as a spiritual advisor). It said ASBR would help me take assertive action in refining myself so that money can start flowing in — and that it would ‘cut away everything’ holding me back. I feared it might be too intense, but when I asked God, He confirmed it was ideal — my fear came from knowing I’d have to leave parts of my identity behind in the process.

This is exactly what’s happening. I feel like I’m in a transition period, already harvesting some results — more internal shifts, like the feeling of new stances, than external ones.

On Sunday, at my father’s house, I noticed a more mature posture in myself: no need for conflict, just focus on what’s mine. Toward the end, he said things that felt off — I could sense some words trying to pull me back. I observed, felt the tension, and reminded myself: ‘This is not mine. This is not the truth.’

It’s been good to me — a grounded, realistic transformation. My intention is to keep going, even more than I did with Sym:S.

#83

. rest day .
. ASBR - 30s .

  • Social interaction feels much easier and more natural. People just come up to me and feel comfortable. I went to a casual little party and ended up talking with three people I wasn’t very close to — and had good conversations with all of them, on different topics. Strangers are talking to me as if they already know me.

  • I’m feeling much more confident in myself: I know my place, my value. I carry myself like someone who has value, and I can feel a posture in me that values myself more.

  • Another symbolic dream with my father — in this one, he was pointing a gun at me and wanted to kill me. My subconscious has been very active lately.

  • My ex has been more open and receptive lately, even asking for my help with certain things.

  • I’ve been giving career advice to a few friends, and they’ve been loving hearing my professional perspective (crazy coming from someone who doesn’t even have a job).

  • I discovered a new automation and I’m starting to consider testing AIs again for automated income through trading.

  • Even after receiving some hard-to-hear feedback during Sunday’s rehearsal, I was able to step back into the scene and give a good performance yesterday.

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#84

. rest day .
. ASBR - 37s .

Since I started ASBR, I’ve been feeling a clear inner voice and impulse to return to art as something serious, strategic, and truly aligned with what I came here to experience in this life. Thoughts keep coming up like, “I’m an artist, what am I doing?” or “I’ve spent so long not taking my art seriously — but there’s still time to reach many places if I show up differently in the world.”

I’ve been attending events, watching performances and creations that move me, and observing people I admire. I feel like I’m learning on deep, unconscious levels how a successful person sees themselves and moves through the world.

On the practical side, I still need to find a place to live this week. My mind is focused on income generation, and energetically I’ve been using ThetaHealing to clear many layers around opening up the flow of my resources. I feel more confident in myself.

Overall, I feel more at ease, even without knowing exactly what’s ahead — with a growing sense that I will make it and that things will work out.

Recently, I also did something I had never done before — I calculated how much my salary from my first job would be today, adjusted for inflation. Back then, I was earning around R$3,050 which today would be equivalent to R$6,240. It felt like updating my system’s drive about how much I’m capable of making — because I’ve already done it before.

#85

. rest day .

My mind is rocking with the unfolding process. So many things. I’m feeling very introspective.