Journal: Power of Real Self

Journals - Major Programs
#22

(( day 6 - genesis + pr ))

I believe one of the things I like most about Genesis is the script that is designed to help you achieve your goals, whatever they may be.

I have a strong sense of confidence that I will achieve what I want, especially when I dedicate my conscious guidance to a goal.

It’s a matter of imagining, wanting, trusting, and knowing that it will happen, no matter how difficult it may seem.

I want to use this more focused conscious guidance in the coming days, mainly to open up sources of income that are easy for me.

#23

(( after a crazy weekend ))

I couldn’t resist and listened to a PR loop over the weekend.

It was good. But despite the script, it was not enough to resolve a situation with a person and achieve the desire. I felt like I humiliated myself and crossed boundaries to be close to this person. For nothing. Apparently this person doesn’t care.

I should have followed my intuition on Friday and protected myself more: go to my house instead of spending time with. This would have avoided some feelings of regret that I am carrying now.

Also, right after the spiritual treatment, I went into a crazy loop of parties, alcohol, pot and I feel like it disconnected me from the good feeling I was feeling.

#24

(( genesis loop ))

I’m finishing a cultural project that started a year ago.
The last public meeting is today. It will be good to end this cycle with them.

Also, the person I was really connected to the last few days is traveling today and will be away for 4 months.
There’s nothing I can do about that, unless I try to find some authentic place in me that wants to connect from distance and see if the person wants it too.

Today i received some advice about trading from a spiritual figure. she told me to wait and study more before acting.
I wonder if rich crypto makes people like spending time in the graphic more.

#25

(( rest day ))

I’m still looking for trading automations in the market, watching the sellers, the results, all the traps.

I’m asking the universe to send me people who really want to help others and are trustworthy.

#26

(( rest day ))

I’m going to take the day off. My mind is full. Lots of things to process, including another conversation with my ex and the things that come out of it.

#27

(( genesis loop ))

Art art art!!
Art makes me sooo happy and fullfilled.

Several paths are opening up in that direction.

I think one of the best feelings in the world is the feeling that artists have after doing what they do.

Great day.

#28

(( rest day ))

Literally a day of rest. Nap. Slower pace.

I’m thinking here of the ideas I have about adventure, I think they are closely associated with parties, music and getting high. I’ve been participating in a lot of things like this in the last few weeks.

I am preparing to acquire rich crypto and only stop when I have constant results with automations. I think I’ll do this from the next loop. Tomorrow.
I’ll just add it to my playlist.

#29

(( genesis loop + rest day ))

I presented dance yesterday, but I’m really upset about the situation with my ex.

We still share many spaces, especially artistic ones.
She is prettier, lighter, and more in possession of herself after a sexuality retreat she went on.

She’s also dating an older man. We’ve clarified some things, but it’s been very difficult to accept that we’re no longer together and that she’s turned the page.
And on top of that, that she’s choosing to be with a guy over me

#30

How are you?

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#31

I’m better.
I had several reflections that made me more aware of the whole situation these days.

As well as a friend who was an important voice of conscience.

I think in this situation I should be more like water and follow the flow of its rivers and streams.

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#32

(( day 17 - rest day ))

Today I was completely sure how my next cycle will be like: NR + RCrypto

If Rich Crypto had been upgraded with NSE, I would be in heaven.
But since this blessing doesn’t exist yet, I will add it anyway to help me with forex trading.

I want to make the most of it, including learning how to trade manually if that makes the most sense right now.

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#33

(( day 18 - NR loop ))

This cycle I gave much more priority to Genesis and I ended up leaving NR aside. Today I felt like connecting with it.

I had forgotten how unique the communication script is, people just want to tell me the truth and details about things without hesitation.
I feel like it opens up a lot of information exchange for me.

Anyway, last few days of the current cycle.
I’m listening to microloops, but I’m thinking about listening to a full genesis loop on the last day, I want to have the full script inside me before the new focuses and efforts of the next cycle.

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#34

(( day 19 - rest day ))

I’m at a point in the spiral where I’m revisiting like turning points in my life, but now with the opportunity to their meanings through the eyes of the adult rather than the child.

My adult is showing up more in my daily life and I am feeling more of the power it brings to life and my journey from now on.
The return of Saturn, my friends, is no joke.

#35

(( washout ))
My friends
Life teaches us in a very subtle, loving way and in its own time.

Very crazy.
I had one last conversation with my ex and she asked me to “free ourselves” to move on.
I didn’t expect it, for me we were getting closer.
I went into a state of freezing/collapse.
That’s why I disappeared for a few days.
I received help from friends and managed to stand on my own feet despite everything.

This period of my life is very challenging. I’m going through a lot of loss and grief.
I’ve been experiencing it more since my mother died a few years ago.

I have a lot of emotional things to deal with, I thought about changing my playlist for the next cycle, but resolving the financial part is really urgent right now.
I have to step out of the child and step into the adult in this area of my life, regardless of how painful it is for my child.

#36

I talk about it being painful because my child has an artistic soul.

But my child was taught from an early age that none of this would make money or guarantee survival, so it would have to be a hobby.
I’ve internalized that, but I’m having a lot of trouble in the career aspect of my life.

Since I see art as a hobby, I don’t consider myself as a professional as I would like to be and don’t take the actions that would put me in a higher place. I also don’t allow myself to find and create a career in a more “conventional” field that pays well.

I’m ashamed of how the the artists are seen in my family. Here in the city where I live, art is very undervalued. Many very good artists divide themselves into different roles and underemployment in order to be able to make art (those who are not supported by their parents, of course).

This is not really what that child envisioned for her future.

#37

Today I talked to someone who was my therapist for a while.
She talked about sustaining the places of pain and pleasure in the present moment.

I was rationalizing as a way of not feeling the pain that the situation with my ex activated in me.

Apparently, if we can hold moments of pain, we can hold moments of joy, as if it were something directly proportional.
This made me want to be more present and try to get over it by being in the present and feeling what I needed to feel.

#38

(( washout ))

Wow, I feel directly confronted with what is paralyzing me.

Also, I’m having some shifts in the way I see myself, life, etc.
I feel it is coming from NR’s script.

A few days ago I felt the sense of gratitude it brings very strongly.
I spent the whole day with this feeling of admiration for life, for the people around me, for the good people doing beautiful things in the world.
I accessed this feeling more clearly after I increased the exposure time from 40s to 3.33s.

I also feel that the Genesis script is more integrated. I continue to look at life and realize more naturally that there are countless ways of living that are different from mine, different from what I have learned and still work.

#39

(( NR + RCryp ))

Day ooone!
One of those days that seems like more than one in one. and between that, the initial loops:

  • NR 3’33
  • RCryp 1’00

I realized that there are some people in the world that I really attract attention to.
I had two moments of seeing people amazed or impacted by my presence (just walking by).

And in the midst of several challenges, I’m more high than I was in the last 2 months.

#40

(( rest day ))

Today was a productive day.

As a commitment to myself, to my new self, to my future, I moved the furniture in my room, something I’ve wanted to do for months and couldn’t.

It is a milestone of a new phase, a break with the past.
Above all, an act of detachment.
After 9 years with the same configuration, now starts a new phase.

So I’m happy with this step. This step was also guided by a stellar friend who uses Luz Estelar as a treatment and spiritual alignment. It’s something like light language.

#41

(( NR + GEN ))

Had this strong intuition to listen to Genesis instead of RC.

After the first loop of RC, I saw myself in the future as a trader (while studying about SMC).
In this scene I feel deep inside that there are other professions that are much more pleasurable to do and spend my time with in the world.

That’s why I listened to Genesis. I’m thinking about switching from RC to R.I.C.H and see what happens.

It would be: NR + GENESIS + RICH

But I still give it a try with some loops of RC before.