Joie de Vivre (Daredevil/Love Bomb/Sanguine)

[Joa23]

@Joa23

The feelings of love towards my girlfriend are amazing… yesterday I was seeing her under a new light, focusing on her beauty and she was craving my touch the whole time.
Now Im watching her sleep while I write and Im almost at tears at the idea of how blessed Im am to have her in my life.
It doesnt feel as if I got lucky… It feels as if it was meant to be and now I understand why she feels all that love for me… Its obvious now… I feel all that love for me too.

I found this old post today. Yesterday I received a second invitation from my ex to have a drink and get wild.

I politely rejected both invitations.

Now I realized that Im done with the process of healing and letting go.

I made no effort to reject the invitation, it was just the obvious thing to do. She became one of those persons, one of those persons you used to love and care for, but now they feel like a stranger from a very distant place in some alternate reality.

No anger, but no love.
No resentment, but no sympathy either.
No intimacy, but distance.

[Joa23]

14 days into the cycle already, time flies when you are having a good time.
Today might be the day in which the last phase of the break up begins, the dissolution of the apartment lease.
I have to write a mail and ask for it, then is out of my hands… Just wait a bit more.

Celebration coming up!

[Joa23]

Listen to my stack today and even though I didn’t slept quite well last night, I feel relaxed and in a good mood.

Yesterday the other ex I was talking about contacted me through chat lol, whats whith this?
We talked for a while and I was very happy to be able to “talk with my past” in such an effortless and resolved way.
My guess is heartsong and NRE are manifesting these experiences so I can close wounds and behave in the way I find to be most adequate for the kind of man I am becoming.

Which means to travel lightly, without burdens from past decisions and mistakes.

[Joa23]

I felt down, tired and with pain the whole day long… Went to my Systema training anyways. We did a lot of grapling and combat, which gave me a huge boost in my mood and the pain went away.

Nothing like a good testosterone + endorphin rush.

[Joa23]

Im not liking HS right now, the memories and the emotional poking around, but I understand its a necessary part of the process.

[Parsifal]

Lol. I know how you feel.
I don’t know if it’s Ascension, LE or NR, but I have this constant bad feeling in my solar plexus.
And negative emotions of dread.
I used to have these when I knew something bad was imminent, like when the police is following you and suddenly their lights go on.
But this time, nothing is happening.
Just this feeling. And I know it’s the subs effect.
It’s like getting a big pimple squeezed. Painful, but you know it will make everything better.

[Joa23]

@Parsifal

Painful, but you know it will make everything better.

Sometimes you just gotta breath in… breath out… and keep going.

I just came back from Systema training and again a bit of controled “violence” made me feel really good.

Keep Moving!!

[Joa23]

Looks like Paragon is making a come back soon.

[Joa23]

Ok, today Im starting my washout and currently Im undecided about my next stack.
Only thing sure is my custom of course.

It would be really simple with a 3 sub stack, but experience has thought me that is usually a fast way to recon and overload, I want to keep it 2 titles.

[Joa23]

In bed since sunday with the flu, no fever, but strong enough to be a pain in the ass.
Still washing out.

[RVconsultant]

Paragon?

[Joa23]

Today I started a new cycle with my custom.
Im still with the flu, it continues its natural evolution and theres no much to do but wait, rest and drink lots of water. Fortunately I had no fever.

[Joa23]

Yesterday I finally went with my custom and Wanted Black… reading old posts made me realize the potential of this combo.

Consider this, I have the flu since last saturday, I have barely slept the last 3 nights, but today my demeanor and my mood are simply superb. Of course I don’t have the same energy levels as if I were fully healthy, but man do I feel good at an emotional level.

[Dancing_Octopus]

Get well soon!
Hope the new stack brings you many good things

[Joa23]

Thanks!!

[Joa23]

Hmmm things are making sense very deeply

The Psychonaut - Eudaemon

I discovered that most (if not all) of the important decisions Ive made in my life, have been triggered or motivated by pain. Once the waters settles a bit more, I believe its a good idea if I work towards living from pleasure and make decisions that nurtures self enjoyment and growth, instead of running away from the flames.

[Joa23]

Things are flowing pretty nicely, this is the most obvious result from my stack. Theres constant movement and Im feeling and adjusting to the pace of it, navigating the currents.

Today its my birthday and I plan to spend the day with my close family and have a quiet time.

WB → I bought a lot of new clothes and got rid of old ugly shit. I still want to buy more stuff.

LB → I cant remember any one treating me in a way thats not kind. Lots of love going my way.

DD → People open up with me very easily, the levels of trust are deep and it happens quick.

Sanguine → This one is acting a bit slower than the rest, but surely is because theres a lot about my attitude and body that was highly stressed and stiff.

[Lion]

Happy Birthday, @Joa23!

[Joa23]

Thanks brother!!

[RVconsultant]

Happy birthday!